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.becki.

asking her heart for guidance was like pleading with a machine.

About Me

im becki. sooooo.. new location. new life. some new people. my life right now is a journey into finding and discovering who i am and what i want to be. im a writer. lover. singer. dancer. mother. daughter. sister. girlfriend. punk. emo. rockstar. hippie. girly-girl. gansta. pothead. smoker. artist. sexpot. freakybutlovely. try to fuck with me and mine and im not so nice. this kitty has claws when its time to fight. CUZ SUMTIMES I JUST DGAF. otherwise im peaceful and loving. generally irie feeling. youknowyouwantme. andyoucanthaveme. im b's. yea baby."i'm a pixie i'm a paper doll i'm a cartoon i'm a chipper cheerful free for all and i light up a room i'm the color me happy girl miss live and let live and when they're out for blood i always give" -ani difranco.I edited my profile at MsPremade.com . check out these Myspace Layouts!

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My Interests

b., my ruca, art, writing, music, the human mind and finding that perfect high. oh and i Support Radical Habits. legalize it and i will advertise it!

I'd like to meet:

the kottonmouth kings,chucky styles, cypress hill, jerry garcia, jim morrison, jimi hendrix,james lynn strait, and bradley nowell. that would be one wicked session. id also like to meet animdifranco, lis phair, brenda kahn, fiona apple, jenna jameson, lanny barby, and anyone who wants to teach me to blow glass.

Music:

kmk, kingspade, cypress hill, sublime, tool, 311, jimi hendrix, MSI, cake,bob marley and the wailers, the dead, floyd, ccr, liz phair, lisa loeb, joss stone, ani difranco, wookie foot, queens of the stone age, citizen cope, foo fighters, deftones, janis, johnny cash, snot, hed pe,...and anyone sending a message of peace and freedom, i like a lot of blues and jazz too...hell i like damn near everything. mostly anything that comes from subnoize records. what can i say? im a stoner reaking havoc til the day i die. SRH.

Movies:

donnie darko, slc punk, fear and loathing in las vegas(read the book motherfuckers!),spun, bongwater, rolling kansas, requiem for a dream, constantine,house of a 1000 corpses, the devils rejects, crazy/beautiful, thirteen, anything tarantino.

Television:

god i hate tv. but i like weeds. i mostly only watch music videos and cartoons. and the news.

Books:

anything written by hunter s. thompson., francesca lia block, patricia cornwell, thomas harris, or augusten burroughs. but my absolute favorite books are the Dark Tower Series by Stephen King. they're breathtaking. The Power of Now, the beauty of yoga and this book im reading on reflexology rock too. theyve opened my mind and body a bit.

Heroes:

my father first and foremost. i miss you so daddy, thank you for raising me strong. bob marley, my heroes at subnoize records you know the freedom fighters - spreading the truth and much love. and my daughter for saving me from myself i swear i will come back for you ruca baby.

My Blog

how?

I didn't come this far for you to make this hard for me. And now you want to ask me "how"? It's like - how does your heart beat, and why do you breathe? How does your heart beat, and why do you breat...
Posted by .crush*me. on Thu, 15 Mar 2007 10:00:00 PST

"it's not really poetry, but it's pretty"

"It's not really poetry, but its pretty," he said As he raises his voice, she lowers her head 'It makes my heart heavy, you're lonely, I think Oh, Rose, you're sad, I suppose." "Look in her bed and s...
Posted by .crush*me. on Thu, 15 Mar 2007 04:17:00 PST

this is just scrap-metal on the intersection making noise.

how am i supposed to hold myself together anymore?   i have brian yes, but only as much of himself as hes willing to give.and believe me, emotionally that's not much anymore. besides him, i have ...
Posted by .crush*me. on Thu, 15 Mar 2007 04:04:00 PST

swandive.

I'm cradling the softest warmest part of you in my hands.It feels like a baby bird fallen from the nest.I think that your body is something I understand.I think that I'm happy. I think that I'm blesse...
Posted by .crush*me. on Wed, 14 Mar 2007 08:19:00 PST

feels like ive been runover in traffic..

..scratchin in the dust that someone's leavinpunches in the gut, oh look im bleeding,not for you for me this time...   so next wednesday pray for me if you pray.because im either doing the right ...
Posted by .crush*me. on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 03:09:00 PST

and they rise in the morning, and they sleep in the dark..

...and even though no ones looking... ...she's falling apart.   so today might break me. but that would imply im not already broken. god i need to cut this shit out. wake up becki.you're not dead...
Posted by .crush*me. on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 09:08:00 PST

i never said id take this lying down.

You've got this new head filled up with smoke. I got my veins all tangled close, To the jukebox bars you frequent. The safest place to hide. A long night spent with your most obvious weakness. Yo...
Posted by .crush*me. on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 04:24:00 PST

the forgetting defines me. [edit]

and when i say you sucked my brain outthe english translationis i am in love with youand it is no fun   i just wanna know. i dont wanna hold onto someone who doesnt wanna hold on to me. i dont wa...
Posted by .crush*me. on Mon, 12 Mar 2007 11:34:00 PST

do you miss me, miss misery, like you say you do?

I'm going out sleepwalking where mute memories start talking the boss that couldn't help but hurt you and the pretty thing he made desert you I'm going out now like a baby a naïve unsatisfiable baby g...
Posted by .crush*me. on Mon, 12 Mar 2007 09:21:00 PST

nothing feels good when you're under the gun.

i cant be alone here anymore. im fucking falling apart right now. i dont know where im going but im goin for a walk somewhere. i'll be back sometime.
Posted by .crush*me. on Sat, 10 Mar 2007 01:45:00 PST