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Matthew

...Yup,each day is better than the next...

About Me

I choose to live and to lie, kill and give and to cry, learn and love and to do what it takes to step through.-TOOL...I LOVE PUNK ROCK AND THE WAY GASOLINE SMELLS. I AM ANARCHAIC IN DESIGN. I AM SARCASTIC. I AM WHAT MOST PEOPLE CAN NOT BE: I AM UNCARINGLY HONEST. I AM DEVISTATINGLY P. C., I HAVE BEEN ALL THAT I WOULD HAVE WANTED TO BE. I AM MISANTHROPIC BY NATURE, AND I AM ALIVE AND SMARTER THAN THE AVERAGE BEAR... I read; I write; I play bass to pass the time at home. I strive everyday not to be like anybody else, Which is a challenge when you work for Safeway. I got my tongue pierced for the utilitarian purposes, not because it looks cool and my tattoo didn't come out of a book. I have a sense of humor that most people don't understand (I don't mean that in the I'm-emo-and- akward kind of way) I have a select selection of riends. Meaning I don't hang out with Dumb self serving folks. I like people of quality. Having friends isn't about how many or how good looking they are. If you want to know me, be real or don't try at all.
You Are 70% Evil
You are very evil. And you're too evil to care.
Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot. How Evil Are You?
Your Nail Polish Color is Black
How you're unique: There's nothing about you that isn't uniqueWhy your style rocks: You are a total indie chick... and you can pull it offWhat this color says about you: "I'm a trendsetter and don't care what anyone else is doing!" What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?
You Are Changing Leaves
Pretty, but soon dead. What Part of Fall Are You?

My Interests

masterbation, but I've moved up to using lubrication these days. too many calluses.... oh yeah, and writing. but not about grinding the old beans. about life and death and razor blades. oceans of blood. light/dark, heaven/hell, intoxication/sobriety, fire/water, crazy/sane, beautiful/ugly, horrid/splendid. flip vs flop. Living dead. Ugly innocence. Beautiful hate. Crass/Motzart. high vs low. The Circumstantial circumventions, and poetic plagerizations of an everyday thinking man.

I'd like to meet:

John Lenon, Lenny Bruce, Anthony Kiedes, Fat Mike, Abraham Lincoln, Maggie Gyllenhaal, Myself in 20years, Peter Falk, George Pepard ("I love it when a plan comes together"),Dennis Leary, Jim Morisson, Janis Joplin, Jerry Stahl, Butch, Esmeralda vela lobos, Steve Byrd, Daron Malakian, Lois Griffin, Grissley Adams, Wednesday Adams, Ceasar Romero, Eddie Dean (RIP), Freddy Mercury, Erasmo Alba. Yadda-Yadda-Yadda... You know what I was thinkin' about, I think I'd like to meet a kangaroo so I could punch him in the eye. (I hear they box) And I'd like to meet a cursing mime,That would be a blast at a party!!

Music:

NOFX rocks, THE VANDALS hella rule. And you know what? GUTTERMOUTH will always hold a special place in my heart. they started the punk rock part of my life. NIRVANA is great. doesn't the name say it all. RIP Kurt Cobain and god speed Francis Bean Cobain. none of these songs were written by Cobain, but he performs them very well. "Oh me" and "Jesus don't want me for a sunbeam" those are some of my favorites. I Also dig older R.E.M. All ALICE IN CHAINS. SMASHING PUMPKINS. MEGA DEATH. FLEETWOOD MAC. ERIC CLAPTON, in all of his many splendid forms. PRIMUS. MOLDY PEACHES. LAMB CHOP. BLACK SABBATH. I'm a sucker for the BEATTLES, the darker stuff. B- BOYS makin' with the freak- freak, DROP KICK MURPHY, Fuckin' OZZY, PINK FLOYD, BOB MARLEY, JIMMY CLIFF, JIMMY BUFFET, BLOOD SWEAT AND TEARS, RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS, System of a fuckin' Down! SUBLIME, I've been playin' alot of MANSON recently, and how could I forget the all important TOOL- MAYNARD RULES!!. I could keep goin' for ever but I won't do that to you. Let's just say I'm eclectic.........
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Movies:

have you seen Permanent Midnight w/ ben stiller? Wow. Also the movie called The Secretary w/ maggie Gyllenhaal, and Donnie Darko (sounds like a superhero,eh?). Full Metal Jackets, the first two Scary Movies. Forest Gump- the best movie ever, White Oleander, Center of the World. the Indiana Jones movies. I realy like the old horrors flicks also. King Kong scared the crap out of me when I was a kid. The Kevin Smith movies. Talladega Nights, Stranger that Fiction, Boogie Nights, Howl's moving Castle, Spirited Away, I enjoy the John Wayne westerns, And as before the list could go forever...

Television:

the venture brothers. Nip/Tuck Aquateen Hunger Force Family guy "Good news everyone" I also watch Futurama. Metalocaplypse is the most brutal thing since sliced bread!! And for some reason, God save me The History chanel has me held prisoner. That's about all I would go out of my way to watch.

Books:

Needful Things, Tommy Knockers, It, the Stand, The Dark Tower series, 'Salem's Lot, Christine, The Richard Bachman Collection,The Shinning, The Green Mile. Etc. I dig true crime novels as well; Presumed Innocent, The Client. You know, those Grisham-esque books. Edgar Allan Poe is another good one, so is Lovecraft (I think I read every Lovecraft book there is when I was in highschool) James patterson is awesome, I like the Alex Cross books. Dean Koontz is good, I went through a phase where All I read was Koontz, The Hide Away and Intensity are the two that stick out. I like reading about gore and intense stuff like that. Chopping Block is funny and I like the Rob Zombie comics. I think poetry is fasicinating also, White Oleander and Scar Tissue and Still Life With Crows and Relic ( the Pendergast Novels), Native son, Lord of the Flies, Cats Cradel, All Quiet on the Western Front, and Johnny Get your Gun. I just read Catcher in the Rye, good book , reminds me of the movie Taxi Driver

Heroes:

1. Sean Connery as James Bond 2. Han Solo he's just such an asshole but the chicks love him 3. Brock Sampson. He beats every body up. He always gets laid. And he's got a hell's fire Dodge Charger. 4. Fat Mike one of the greatest bass player/ producer/song writer to ever live. 5. Dr. Seuse, great word play 6.Eminem for the same reson as number 5. How does he do it? 7. Jerry Stahl, cause I'm a writer who believes he thinks outside the box as wellpre "Fat" Mike. oi-oi-oi

My Blog

read or die

Just kiddin'. I just wanted you to read this. possessions never ment a thing me. I'm not crazy. well, that's not true I've gotta be. Got a guitar, and a dog named "Dog" who pisses on my floor. That's ...
Posted by Matthew on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Dismal Desert of Drowning Doom and the crazed co-pilot of the cranal catacombes

The co-pilot says, "pull over when you see what you want." All that these headlights show are weeds that tumble, a sandy sea, and shadowed cacti that haunt. My evil grinning co-pilot loves to see...
Posted by Matthew on Sun, 17 Dec 2006 09:28:00 PST

whatever.................................................... ...........................

I need some sort of vision to make this poem complete. But the pictures are faded and those old shadows are vague and discreat. So, who am I with my comforting world of black? I'm not p...
Posted by Matthew on Fri, 17 Nov 2006 12:28:00 PST

Uno Mas........

Today I think I'll pull a Cobain. On this sad dark day of drizzling rain. My heart flutters, palpitates, and writhes with pain. my vision is ebbing, my thoughts wax and wane.  I'm clawing for c...
Posted by Matthew on Wed, 08 Nov 2006 12:16:00 PST

Crap, that's right they always want a subject line

Black like ink, this is my blood. Literature rot with stink, lines sagging with mud. Madness, anger, cocktailed feelings scratching at the door inside. With black blood in my hand these ghosts wi...
Posted by Matthew on Thu, 12 Oct 2006 01:46:00 PST

Crowded solitude

 I. I'm stranded on an island. My boat has sunk. I have dreams and sand and other uneless junk. The sun beats down on my broken, burnt back. My clothes are ripped and mylips are cracked. I have ...
Posted by Matthew on Sat, 23 Sep 2006 12:23:00 PST

blah, blah, blah

 A singular heaven corrodes to a personal hell. sceams of joy silenced by the walls of a nutshell He shaves the sheep to sashay in it's fur. His horns he tore off  of Lucifer. The wings...
Posted by Matthew on Thu, 20 Jul 2006 09:23:00 PST

Subject? None of your fuckin' business!!

He knows all this emotion is in his head. How can his friends look at him and not know that he's sad? He wears his bleeding heart pinned on his sleeve. Bags and wrinkles tell about nights of rest...
Posted by Matthew on Sun, 26 Feb 2006 07:09:00 PST

?.......?........?........?.........?..............?........ ..............?....

If I broke down in front of you would you think less of me? What if I told you that I  was not as strong as I let people see?  would you tell me I'm feeling sorry for my self? If I were to c...
Posted by Matthew on Sun, 26 Feb 2006 06:33:00 PST

Black, Black, Black, Black, Black!

Paint It Black I see a red door and I want it painted blackNo colors anymore I want them to turn blackI see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothesI have to turn my head until my darkness go...
Posted by Matthew on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST