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firecracker

life's not a bitch- life is a beautiful woman. you only call her a bitch because she wont let you ge

About Me

all she wanted was a little bit of solid... feels like love doesn't matter what you call it...heal those cuts i hide em underneath the polish, break another promise, and take me as a hostage...got used to feeling of falling, but you'll never see her following, bouncing back and forth between the healing and the hollering...riding the outer ring of her own private saturn, thoughts scattered all across the grey matter...little babydoll, she doesnt know what to say to yall the patience is short (and of course the pride is way too tall)...break it all smash the past, like it was made of glass, aint no other way to make it last...and when she calms down, i'll turn the sound down, and put my arms around the little lost-and-found.

My Interests

UFC and pride, having adventures, graffiti by fafi and miss van (street/underground art in general!), men in hoodies, reading, texting and myspaceing jayme, making art, bboy battles, indie rap, chinchillas, road trips to interesting places, goin to the hookah lounge, dancing (especially on reggaeton nights, but i'll dance to anything), life as a form of art, solitude, unconventional beauty, jumping on other people's trampolines, playing outside on cool days, laughter, the senses, magic park at night, spirituality, writing, fake fur, things that smell nice, vivid colors, buttons, being mean to lexi, old trees, rollercoasters, watching people, horses, darkness, strange conversations, playing pranks, receiving presents, feathers, mysteries, passion, negative space (as in the artistic terminology), amusing incidents, telling stories, native american studies, secrets, aboriginals, etc.

you can aim me at clashmrg.

I'd like to meet:

people with fierce beautiful passionate hearts, people who fight for what they believe in and what they love, people who back up what they say, people who aren't afraid to feel and wear their hearts on their sleeve fearlessly, people who understand that beauty is everywhere and it's breathtaking...and a bodyguard.

Music:

indie rap, scandinavian metal, reggaeton, riot grrrl, punk rock, and lots of weird stuff... make me a mix cd!

Movies:

into the wild, yes, apocalypto, no such thing, last of the mohicans, under solen, mirrormask, legends of the fall, the princess and the warrior, labrynth, all the real girls, kama sutra, legend, dances with wolves, bollywood hollywood, the goonies, supertroopers, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, lost boys, princess bride, cat on a hot tin roof, etc..

Television:

ufc, supermax, lockdown, and the office

Books:

all time favorite: THE ZAHIR
the awakening
by the river piedra i sat down and wept
the illuminated rumi
the perks of being a wallflower
the poisonwood bible
the fountainhead
the alchemist
shantaram
jitterbug perfume
ishmael
the mastery of love
the phantom of the opera
lolita
the four agreements
white oleander
something wicked this way comes
the giver
farenheit 451
the witch of portobello
eleven minutes
veronika decides to die
etc....

Heroes:

anyone who has lived fearlessly and with relentless passion.. ..
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My Blog

best fucking day of my LIFE

okay so..woke up this morning about 11, took a shower and contemplated how to turn my living room into a giant fort.  i am enlisting peoples help here, especially if you are a man or a masculine ...
Posted by firecracker on Wed, 09 Jul 2008 03:53:00 PST

IM NOT DATING!!!!

yo!i'm not dating ANYONE right now.  nor am i taking a lover. however, if you want to go to the movies or hang out, hit me up.  i've got too much going on right now to deal with being pulled...
Posted by firecracker on Wed, 02 Jul 2008 06:07:00 PST

on dedicating my life to having a strong heart

having a strong heart isn't easy.to me, it's weak to need people in your life to fulfill roles for you....it's weak to expect the people in your life to behave a certain way or need them to love you j...
Posted by firecracker on Mon, 30 Jun 2008 07:11:00 PST

lil miss julie goes to the gym

so for those of you who dont know (which is probably all of you) i've been a member of gold's gym since back in the fall when i joined with my friend helena (who, btw, can do really funny contortionis...
Posted by firecracker on Sat, 28 Jun 2008 06:24:00 PST

south american philosophers, sex, passion, and love

for some reason south american philosophers always kill my heart in beautiful ways that change me forever. i dont know what it is about them that gets to me so much.  this is from my favorite, pa...
Posted by firecracker on Wed, 25 Jun 2008 07:41:00 PST

for an amazing man

for all of us who miss sean:it's so important to remember.Sean's Video ...
Posted by firecracker on Tue, 24 Jun 2008 07:49:00 PST

julieland

its been a bizarre week.  i cried the entire drive to work today, fucked up all my make-up.  i think i should just stay away from him completely because he brings more hurt into my life than...
Posted by firecracker on Sun, 08 Jun 2008 09:55:00 PST

played by a playa

so. after being played for the fifty billionth time i've decided to give up on men.  not only am i giving up on men but i'm going to marry Buffy the Body.we are going to roll up to the altar on a...
Posted by firecracker on Tue, 03 Jun 2008 06:57:00 PST

sometimes...

my little heart feels so, so tired.  and it's difficult for me to believe in love.  this past year has been insanely tumultuous for me...i went through a break-up with a man i had lived with...
Posted by firecracker on Thu, 15 May 2008 06:43:00 PST

not for the faint of heart

i found a bunch of my old poetry writings from a few years ago...figured i'd post some of my favorites. here ya go:it's such distance that is separating mesevering the tiemaking me forgetthrowing me ...
Posted by firecracker on Fri, 02 May 2008 05:18:00 PST