i am worthless
i am not worthy of having anyone,i am not wanted by anything or anyone.i am alone,people treat me like shit.people take what they want from me and go."sorry i gotta go","sorry i gotta meet someone".but it all boils down to the fact that people are leaving,and not returning.so i sit here,alone.alone i sit,once again.one single stray emotion on this lonely night,opens the flood gates as this tital wave of pleading tears flow from these orbs.inevitable silence rings off these solitary walls.the gentle whisper of tears hitting the floor beneath me is the only sound,except for the ringing of your voice in my head which is my only comfort,and my biggest fear.watching all the happy moments abanden me like every human has done.no one wants me in their life ,they don't care for or about me.i am not wanted,i am not needed,i am used,i am lied to and i am hated.most of all,i am alone.
i am ugly
i am not good looking,i am not happy,i am cruel.i am lost and cold,forsaken.i am a piece of worthless shit.no one wants or needs to be with or around me in their life for i don't provide enough.i am not a good friend,i am not a good person and i am not a good boyfriend.i am a moron,i am a child,i am lost and tired.i am drained and abandened.i am not anyone's dream,fantasy,life or lover.i would not make a good spouce.i would not make a good friend,i am sincere.
i am a burden
...i started this at midnight,with cigarette smoke choking my skin and the outside air clogging up my cold lungs.
the damp floor stole my seat, so I just stood in the dark looking up.
at 20:59 this evening i decided i write too much,words are slug coloured and pressed inside paper.
it is now 00:08.
