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Tina Beans

baking cookies w/ my woman...sweet!

About Me

I'm a little too nice, a little too understanding, but I'm still fucked up in the head just like any other person. I'm a little selfish, a little fat, a little short, a little lighter, a little darker, a little stupid, a little smarter like any one else. And sometimes I can be a little too happy, or a bit too sad. the thing is, it's hard to find the between stages at a point in your life when you're not really sure about anything but you think you are. Everything circles around and around in your head, and you wonder if in 10 years you will still be in the same place and if the people you claim as your friends are still those people. It's as if every relationship & friendship I become apart of help make me who I am, yet I feel as if something is always missing, something always comes up short. I honestly hate how society has a place, a stereotypical category for everyone and regardless of what we do to define ourselves as individuals, we never fail to fall into one of these categories. It's as if individualism doesn't matter any longer. We do what is expected. There is no such thing as the unexpected. We are expected to do what we feel is right yet sometimes it seems so cliche. I think again and again and maybe it is the honesty behind everything and the innocence of it all that we lack. Someone said to me that there is always an underlining of selfishness in everyones actions. And what can I say it, makes sense. The part that bothers me is that its ok that it makes sense and that ultimately there isn't one unselfish person out there. It's just that I want to, you know, be a little bit less selfish than the next person out there and a lot more caring and even though, honestly my underlining is that I try to not be a pushover and I tend to always give a little or a lot of attitude with everything I deliver, I think I would rather settle for being the person that is a little too nice, a little too understanding, but be still just as fucked up in the head like any other person... a

My Interests

i love to cook, eat, drink coffee in the morning (w/ cream and sugar when i wake up on the wrong side of the bed, black when I'm in a good mood, country music, jazz, knitting, sunrises, the early morning cold smell, ocean smell, wet grass smell. i love my mom, my family, and my friends. coffee mugs, randomness, Spontaneity, sleeping on my right side, hot showers, hot baths, my dad, my brothers, love songs, forgiveness, knowing someone might be thinking of me, a great smelling guy, a great smile, humor, attitude, motorcycles, working hard, single life, having arguments, reading, brownies, yarn, being a girlfriend, someone that tries, someone that tries without knowing it, someone that tries more than enough, showers, the morning kiss, spooning, talking till you fall asleep, big toes, fingers, dimples, eyes, tattoos, sleeping, dancing, to be kissed on my shoulder, to be kissed, to hold hands...

I'd like to meet:

good people. down to earth people...Great friends, more ppl like my Best Friends. It takes a while to get to know me, and i put out what i want ppl to know, and i act like that, but for the friends, close friends, best friends, ppl that i have loved, they know me for who i am. I'd like to find someone to love, that will love me back. I want someone to think I'm wonderful, that I'm their comfort, I'm their home. Even when things are bad, awful, makes you want to fall to your knees, I want someone to know I'll be there, that i want to be there. Someone that i can argue w/ and love in the same day. I'd like a partner in crime, if that makes sense. I want someone on my level, at the same point in my life.* I'd like to find a friend that would love to just come by and cook w/ me and try it and not be afraid to be critical, because food is one my passions and i have to know if it's good. I'd love to find trustworthy friends, friends that aren't afraid to tell it like it is, but still lie when I'm not feeling too great for the truth. I'd like those who understand my odd tendencies. I want someone that i can make fun of and that is willing to make fun of me. And i want to find out who i am, because even though I'm w/ myself everyday, i still don't know everything or enough about myself.*Thanks Kris

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Music:

Michael Buble, Hinder, Dave Barnes, Matt Wertz, Ella Fitzgerald, Rat Pack, Miles Davis, Brad Paisley, Keith Urban, Andy Davis, John Legend, Rascal Flatts, Robin Thicke, Billie Holiday. Someroads. Music is like a drive inside of ppl, it is for those that understand music that feel it move someone, feel it move themselves,and not just say wow this is a great song, but feel it. How can i explain it myself?

Movies:

I love Breakfast at Tiffany's. Audrey Hepburn is a Goddess. When Harry Met Sally! Hell Yes Mr and Mrs. Smith. Honestly a sexy movie. I'd have to say Rocky all 5 and possibly 6 when it comes out because my brother was named Rocky! Born a month early, barely making it at 4 lbs and my dad decided to name him Rocky so he would fight his way n live. Awesome. (weeks later) OO i watched Rocky 6.

Television:

Grey's Anatomy and its great. I love Food Network, the history channel, and speed channel! hell yeah I'll pay the extra cash! And only if they would perfect smell 'O Vision i would be all over that! My friend might possibly get me to like football...not that i kind of understand it and the violence and the art of it? ahh...awesome awesome! "

Books:

Cook books. What if? It's a book by several historians that tell what would have happened if for instance Napoleon died young, or if the pope had said something about the holocaust. etc. Really really great book. too bad it's fatter than the bible and weighs like 3 phone books w/ size 8 font. I know I'll be blind when I'm done w/ it. ( So I'm done and yes...w/ knitting, i think i need reading glasses...ahaha) Now I'm reading The Time Travelers Wife. So far its amazing i can't wait to finish it...It's so awesome, its about how love can survive n e thing, even time...maybe i should invest in books on cd so i can knit at the same time...

Heroes:

My parents are my heroes. My family isn't into the holidays as much as I'd like them to be n one of my brothers would rather just have his presents now, but! i said no. I tried to get them to set up the tree n they didn't want to help, but my Dad, who i just started get along w/ again, helped me set up the tree. Even if it is silly, he supports my silly habits, especially the knitting...Got to love it! My brothers are there too...I remember being their age and i don't know how i went through such a tough time getting to know myself better. My baby brother Kevin, I love him because he's still the innocent little kid that is unbelievably smarter than I ever was at his age, and what he says sometimes to to say it, to make me smile and laugh, makes me believe in love. My best friends, well what can i say? We've been through a lot, Love u!

My Blog

I am sooo daymn bored

How long does it take to get to know someone? Can you really invest that much time? Because we all live in this fast pace world and everything passes by like a blur...so how easy is it to get to know ...
Posted by Tina Beans on Thu, 11 Jan 2007 04:44:00 PST

new video

check out my new video! its so daymn funny...
Posted by Tina Beans on Thu, 04 Jan 2007 10:29:00 PST

ill admit it, i'm lonely

The  more i spend time by myself, the more i spend time w/ the ppl i love, the more i spend time w/ ppl i barely know, the more i realize what is important, the more lonely I am. I'm grateful for...
Posted by Tina Beans on Wed, 20 Dec 2006 10:40:00 PST

Xmas is almost here

Went to my parernts yesterday n had a Great time! Sunday has been "famly Day" for a while n i'm glad i have the time to do that. So yesterday I couldn't even wake up i was so tired and by the tim...
Posted by Tina Beans on Mon, 18 Dec 2006 09:29:00 PST

This guy is awesome.

This guy is awesome. He can really really sing. Wow. Thats all that i can really say...a voice like that? wow...This guys voice makes me want to fall in love. I know that sounds weird. but for some re...
Posted by Tina Beans on Sat, 09 Dec 2006 12:32:00 PST

yeah

I'm pretty close to my family. and i thought that i could deal with everything, always fix anything. But when you see someone in ur family that you love a lot, consider a best friends, cry? it's so he...
Posted by Tina Beans on Wed, 08 Nov 2006 08:42:00 PST

kart racin

we had a meeting today and it was at RPM kart racin and it was great. I got my ass kicked and had a shitty lap time but man i still had a great time. Also we had 2 Subaru STIs in our group driving to ...
Posted by Tina Beans on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 07:58:00 PST

I can already smell the holidays in the air

I love the holiday season. I can already feel it coming and i'm excited to see what happens this year with so much going on in the past few months bein so negative, i hope good comes, especially with ...
Posted by Tina Beans on Mon, 16 Oct 2006 09:04:00 PST

Went to a wedding

I just went to one of my first of many weddings. Everyone i know is in a commited relationship or is engaged, pregnant, already married. So today when i was at the wedding. I was thinkin when single p...
Posted by Tina Beans on Sun, 15 Oct 2006 06:15:00 PST