nessy.nervous [cellophane.]

A s an I’d like to say that I’m one of those persons who think myspace (especially some people here) can be very annoying. The whole myspace-thing has become much too overrated and many people start exaggerating it. I’d like to meet someone without a myspace-account. I’m not really sure what for I’m still here. As a pastime I think. And because I’m unfortunately still addicted to myspace. But not as much as in the past. I have tried to delete my account a few times, but somehow I haven't been able to. I need it to have the possibility to keep in touch with some people I really like. And sometimes I need it for a kind of self expression. However.. although I often just can't stand myspace with all its shitty shit, it is part of my life. And no, I don’t feel awful about this & it’s not pitiful at all. So shut up, please.
I’m also not sure what for I’m writing this. Because for one thing I’m doubtlessly not the best in English & for another thing I think most people are fed up with this kind of 'about me'-sections. Which is understandable somehow. Hardly anyone is still interested in them. Hardly anyone still reads them to the end. So.. uhm.. I don’t know, probably it might be the best if I stop here, but uhm.. you know, self expression and blah.
S o firstly, call me Nessy, please. My real name is quite insignificant for now. I'm a girl at the (tender) age of 18. I'd like to be 16 or younger again. Growing-up is hell. I live in Lower-Austria since I can remember and it is a bit boring, but quite okay here. I can consider myself fortunate to live in such a orderly, quiet country. I'm kind of small and without fail not the prettiest one. I silently admire every pretty person.
A t the moment I'm happily taken and the whole myspace-world shall know it :) I guess the things I’m trying to describe in the following paragraph sound extremely corny, writing them down might be superfluous and even a bit embarrassing, but.. uhm.. screw it! My boyfriend entirely means the world to me. There is hardly a thing I wouldn’t do for him. He gives me such a good feeling. I enjoy spending time with him, almost every moment with him cheers me up a bit. He helps me forgetting the world around and everything just goes hazy when he's by my side. He is one of the things that keep me alive. I can’t imagine how my life would look like if I hadn’t met him, I can't imagine my life now without him. Whatever comes I’m sure I can count on him. He accepts my whole personality, even tolerates all of my cumbrous moods and bad qualities, which I think is quite adorable. I’m surely not easy to handle, but he is still by my side. I love him for this. I love him for his patience for me. It wouldn't be difficult to list more things I love him for :)
All I want is making him happy. Fuck.. I hope so hard that I can make him happy. And I hope that our relationship will last a long, long time, so that I have the chance to make him happy for a long, long time. Wah asdjklsaösf ._. 'Great luck in love' oida! [ 21 . 01 . 2007 ]
O ne of my dreams is being invisible. Even if it’s pure imagination most times, I hate the feeling people sizing and eying me up. It’s a bit queer, but I hate people’s glances, I can’t endure them. I hate people watching and staring all the time. Staring at me, staring at each other, staring with this special kind of expression in their eyes. By hook or by crook I just hate it. Unfortunately I 'hate' many things in life. Okay, this sounds quite stupid of course and some of you may say it's for a kind of style, which nowadays seem to be very popular, but...no. I’m deadly serious. I’m not good at joking. By the way, to get too involved with a certain style means a loss of individuality in my eyes. However. I think 'love' and 'hate' are strong words and I don’t like using them too often. People use to say that I know how and in which situation to be a good listener. I just care about you, even if I don't know you personally. Usually I tend to care too much about my fellow men. Please don't take advantage of this or so. It's not funny at all.
Ok, I enjoy writing. But unfortunately (?) I'm too lazy now. Tomorrow or the day after im going to continue & hopefully will be able to finish the 34592nd 'about me'-section you are faced with. Mhh. Till then bye & all the best.