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Drama queens, suicide, self destroying happy meals, Jesus, circles, lying, thinking about life, wholes, bullets, triggers, china, gravity, oil, sound, mazes, rabbits, hand-cuffs, white flags, falling, bee's, money, opera, singing, war, Monsters....
I have really high standards, I always think im going to meet a hot girl, but i know I wont, its kind of fun to think this because it makes a night fun thinking that I might meet someone, but then it ends up like every other night when i meet no one and think maybe next time, even tho in my mind I know it wont happen. Im not to sure why I do this, Im just really fucked up I guess, I know that Im never going to be famous and Im never going to be rich, but I still think I will be. I know that I have a really fucked up mind, it makes me laugh sometimes because I can think of some of the dumbest shit possible and somehow I laugh at it, its really fucked up but I dont care. I havnt learned a lot in life because I cant pay attention to anything that bores me. Im the definition of "dumb" and a lot of my friends know that. they sometimes think im just messing around so they laugh at it, but I really am just that stupid. Its funny to just sit and think about all this, i just sit here and laugh at myself like Im not me. Sometimes its hard to believe that I can walk out my door and actually think that Im a cool person. Im a fucking retard and I know this is true because I have about 4 to 5 friends depending on the day and I usually dont hangout with anyone else. i dont care tho. Life is really weird if you really think about it. no one really knows whats going to happen next, but they like to think they do. no matter who you are you are going to fuck up sometime in life and it sucks. But then there is always other people to blame for why you fucked up to make you feel not so dumb. I'd like to see someone actually take the blame for what they did and not make up some dumb excuse. I've fucked up a lot and almost every time i blamed it one someone else, i didnt want to take the blame for it cuz who would? life gets even funnier tho, because there are people out there that actually think they are better than me...hah that really makes me laugh, what makes you better than me? I would like to know...its kind of obvious in some places tho because Im not tall at all, but I manage, I dont have what people like to call "talent" the only thing I can really do is play the drums but not good enough. It sometimes occurs to me that Im really not what people are looking for and that Im kind of annoying. I would do sometimes about this if I could but I cant. I sometimes wonder if god is really watching over me and hearing all my thoughts because he would be pretty pissed at some of the things that go threw my mind. i do believe in god but I dont go to church and I dont read the bible. maybe i should I dont honestly know, but if im supposed to they would have told me to in school right? My life is mainly based off money. I have very little of this so i dont have much of a life and I think thats where all my problems start. Im the kind of person that would find a wallet, take the money out and put it back where I found it. Kinda fucked up aint it? oh well not my problem until I lose my damn wallet but it hasnt happend yet so im good so far. I usually think that if I had money all my problems would be solved, but I dont think thats really the case because money would get my a hot girl, but that bitch would cheat on me and not even care. i wouldnt find out about this but I would always think it was happening. i wouldnt give my money to anyone. I guess im just really selfish like that but what can ya do? there are people who act like they are nice people because they give money away..well guess what, they just want the attention and they want people to think they are nice. Some of them are but I dont care. since no one will ever read this I can probably say about anything I want about anyone and no one will care right? Well fuck all of you because thats what im going to do. I have to say that Randy and tim are probably the coolest fuckers I've met. Lucky me. and then there is my two good friends erik and jared. Erik is really stupid because he is in love with this dumb mexican bitch who thinks she is really a princess. that is my definition of a dumb bitch. and then we have jared. Everyone loves this kid but for some reason he thinks otherwise. It seems weird that at any time we could die or kill our selves. its as easy as picked up that gun or walking infront of that car. Im not suicidal I just think about that a lot. how easy I could die and why havent I died already? is it tomorrow or in 10 minutes? I dont care either way. this is another reason why life is fucked up. Ive heard of people killing themselves over money or over girls. People handle shit differently so we could try talking someone out of it but it wouldnt matter. we cant see inside their mind to find out what they're really thinking. The way I think is that no person really likes me. Its all pretend. Is it true? I dont know but its how I think and no one has ever changed that. im almost sure girls airnt attracted to me because they never just come up and talk to me. I dont know why I expect them to just come talk to me but its how I think. Anytime I see a really good looking girl I figure she is a stuck up bitch that wants nothing to do with me, its what I've learned in life. right now I am thinking about music because thats almost all I ever do. I have a very simple mind so dont confuse me. I really wish I could know what girls are thinking when they look at me. It would make life a little easier if I knew they didnt want to talk to me. Maybe they do I dont know but none of them ever have except for a waitress but I think she just wanted a good tip, which she didnt get, sorry I dont give out money. if you want a tip say hey, can I please have a tip. I'll probably leave one then. I have big issues with trying to act cool. what is cool? not talking and being shy or being loud and pissing people off? Im the second one. I love when people I dont know get pissed at me. The only girls ive been with seem to always have other guys. I dont usually find out until someone gets pissed at me but then once again I get to laugh. I laugh a lot even tho ive tried cutting back. no one likes to see a red head with freckles laughing all the time. So im going to grow my hair out and dye it black again. I dont care if I look dumb at least I wont be a damn ginger. Well if anyone reads all of this your fucking stupid but thanks i guess it means nothing to me and never will, because i try and act like a hardass even tho im not so comment if you agree with me, I never get comments and Id almost like to.
AS I LAY DYING, TOOL, APC, MOTOGRATER, DAVE WECKL, DRY CELL, SEETHER(for when im depressed), MUDVAYNE...
I cant watch scary movies because I always think it will happen to me...
House, that 70's show
Dont read
Broken Lizard, Norm, That guy.