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Bucky

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About Me

So, it's been awhile since I updated this about me and I no longer wonder what it is about me...I am what I am...a dork, a freak and an ass and after that what does anyone have on me?..not a fuckin thing..it's easier to believe the bad than the good so take what they say and make it work for you and realize they're just stupid. I'm sensitive and strong....a contridiction which makes it very hard to understand me...My strength being my weakness and my weakness is my strength..but it's how I'm built. My faith guides me to where I'm suppose to be and in that, seeming mistakes are made but they aren't mistakes...that's why seeming...they're meant to be...a seed of hope for people that life is fucked up but it really doesn't matter cuz life is shit and you just have to fight through it and if you listen to your heart...and not your mind...cuz God knows that's where all great mind fucks are created...then you can't go wrong. I've always had one dream for myself in my life...has nothing to do with anything bullshit material...I'm not baggin on anyone who has things as they're dream, but I came from material...houses, money, cars....all of it and I knew it wasn't me...my dream is to be in love..always has been since I was little and a few months back...I was surprised when I got EXACTLY what I wanted and at the time had given up on my own dream...I was actually willing to sacrifice feelings...I'm meant to take away chaos not create it... and when Bradly said no...a few years back..I listened...heard..wasn't going to argue..he said no. But then....something changed along the way and we ended up together and now...I have it all...now I have everything. He's always done everything for me. Never asked anything in return. He thinks that I'm mooshy sensitive. But that's also why he loves me too. Do I want for anything else....again EVER?....nope...I'm good....got my dream...my coffee, smokes, and fuel...I'm a happy Gurl!...I'm out...Laters....B


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Disturbed - Prayer
..These moonless, foreign skies keep me in thrall. Dark whispers echo in the night, and I cannot resist their call. I am light. I am dark. My life is not my own. I must give my life to serve: not even death can release me.a href=

I'd like to meet:

I work overnights for CVS and that, in and of itself, I have met some really cool fuckin people. Then there's the ones that were already there and that I trust with my life, heart and soul. That I would die for. They cared enough to take the time to love me so that I could see that they will always be there for me. Mostly tho, Ern and Bradly hate just about everyone else....LOL...so if they took that sort of time for me....well..it must mean I'm a whore....LOL! There's Jax who I just adore and love to death. A beauty all by herself...one that even clouds can't compare. You want to know more...hit me up in an email...Laters.

Music:

I fuckin love to listen to music. Helps me fight, throw people under the bus and well all in all HEAL...so here's a few bands that I love...Staind, Good Charlotte, Fall Out Boy, Taking Back Sunday, Switchfoot, Green Day, My Chemical Romance, The Used, Motion City Sountrack, Thrice, Disturbed, Nickelback, Seether, Anberlin, Eight Fingers Down,Evans Blue, Korn, Three Days Grace, 30 Seconds to Mars,The Killers, Garbage, Papa Roach, Irrational, Rob Zombie, Linkin Park, AFI, Bush, Plain White T's...and for now..cuz I'm so fuckin tired...that's pretty much....IT! and a new love for me!!!!.....Johnny Cash!...holy crack smokin hell where' the fuck I been?....

Movies:

I'm a chick flick girl. I love the movie A Walk to Remember! Totally hot ass movie!The Man,Boondock Saints, A Beautiful Mind, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Legends of the fall, The Edge, Requiem for a Dream, Elizabeth I *part one so far*, Saw, Constantine, Seven, Planes, trains and automobiles, Blade, Jarhead, The Fugitive, V for Vendetta, X-men, and one of the movies I want to see coming to theatres soon....23 with Jim Carrey *it's a total thriller!*...that's it for now...

Television:

I don't watch tv much but when I do, I love to watch CSI...*Grisom mmmm YUM DROOL* Been watching Dexter, South Park *can you say R Tard?* hehe....and then....I channel surf...love to watch Court tv stuff late at night too...all that criminal shit...Investigative reports and all that fun happy shit...I watch some rag mag tv on E!, Ghost Hunters...and well, for now...that's it.

Books:

Bradly is sending me books to read so that I can learn some criminology stuff. I love to know what makes people tick...learn something different...That said, Ern and Bradly are giving me books to read so I can learn more about other things BESIDES life....I already know about that instinctively...now I'm learning history and about writing and all sorts of other things....so one of the books that I've started to read is Marine! The life of Chesty Puller, and a few others he sent me are Odd Thomas, Seven Pillars of Wisdom,The Daily show with Jon Stewart "America", Starship Troopers, Shogun, and Ern gave me V for Vendetta to read....so it's a start in reading for me...oh oh oh wait! Bradly also sent me...LOL....the new baking book! as if I'm gonna do any damn baking...LOL....

Heroes:

God is my Hero. Then I would have to say that anyone who stands up for what and who they believe in. Strong people. I find that the weak ones usually are the strongest. Or if you have ever been weak in any capacity of your life, that you are strong and a survivor too. I believe that anyone that gives of themselves without asking anything in return are heros. The people who struggle in life are my heros too. The ones that just never give up and see life as a fun thing even though we all know it's just fucked. Bills are bills and cars break down and people cheat and people hurt others but fuck we have to move on and learn from it. Those people....that learn from heartache and heartbreak....heros! Shit I could go on as far as heros are concerned. But I think you get what I mean......

My Blog

Love so strong that he walked away....

A kid was born and grew up too fast....damaged and an innocence lost to him. He had a chance to be a kid. To laugh and have fun...to live and to be understood. Respect he deserved because he has integ...
Posted by Bucky on Wed, 14 May 2008 04:40:00 PST

so many things I see...feel....hear...

I see so much right now....feel so much....hear it all.....and it's nothing to do with what's goin on in my own life. It has to do with others. Time is precious and short....life is the same. You grab...
Posted by Bucky on Mon, 12 May 2008 09:49:00 PST

faith light and hope

So now that I've gotten my Bitch on...lemme say a few things...why am I not someone you want to fuck with? Because I'm a woman who works in the night...in the dark with those on the edge of fucke...
Posted by Bucky on Mon, 05 May 2008 05:25:00 PST

EVERYBODY DOWN!!!! I"M COMIN AROUND!!!

So you want to fuck with  my family...my friends heads?...Cockwhores! You'll have to go through me too and you don't have the SLIGHTEST idea who you're fuckin with in me....so play with them you'...
Posted by Bucky on Mon, 05 May 2008 05:55:00 PST

The mirror of me...

I've heard that I'm hot and beautiful and pretty...all the bullshit...all bullshit actually....what I see isn't what you see....mostly what you see is light anyways....but from my point of view...the ...
Posted by Bucky on Thu, 01 May 2008 08:33:00 PST

Happiness is bliss

This idea was posed to me a few days ago...and I've thought hard about it...for me...with my faith and what I do as far as my purpose in life...well...I'm  happy....and with that I'm blissful...b...
Posted by Bucky on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 04:34:00 PST

Loving in order to let go

Life? Death? Living? Dying?....Gray areas that aren't understood?.....Blaming your faith when something doesn't go your way and not being thankful when you  have what you do have....My asst manag...
Posted by Bucky on Tue, 15 Apr 2008 03:54:00 PST

GAWD a 15 year old gets it....hmmm....

Why would we choose a road of misery if we have things in our lives that are so good for us...?....What makes the pain so beautiful that it causes us to do things that are bad for us?....What makes us...
Posted by Bucky on Sun, 06 Apr 2008 09:24:00 PST

So why bother....

I have accountability for my actions and reactions and am very careful to not hurt people and should I do that...which I’ve been known to do from time to time and been called on it.....I figure ...
Posted by Bucky on Sat, 29 Mar 2008 04:32:00 PST

Back and ready to fight!!

Taken from the song by Nonpoint.....EVERYBODY DOWN CUZ I’M COMING AROUND!....Look out bitches cuz I’m ready to take on anything fucked up..... Who said a vacation wasn’t good for som...
Posted by Bucky on Wed, 19 Mar 2008 04:36:00 PST