chad

Hey there my name is chad and im a alcohalic.just kidding im not. So anyways im 5"10 240 pounds italian with a pretty awesome natural tan. im just a simple guy yet im so very complex. i like to keep em guessing it keeps em wanting more. Anyways um i was in the navy seen many places and things got married(because im dumb) then i left . i got 2 beautiful little girls. their mommy has them and there isn't a day that goes by that i don't cry because a big piece of me is with them right now. sometimes i find it hard to keep on living. i hate life and starting over to try to find someone to be with. i think perhaps i wasn't meant to be with anyone or maybe i don't deserve happiness. I like to write poetry abbout pretty much anything but I havent wrote any on the account of not having anything to inspire me besideds hurt,regret,betrayl and dishonosty but thats almost all poems out there. I like to color but i prefer markers. I am a adult but still watch cartoons and play video games and doodle. I love clam chowder and chicken fingers and nachos and cheese.I tend to be naive and consider a lot of people my friends even though they may not be. I am very kind and gentle and offer advice and help when i can. noones there to return the favor. I don't sleep well. sometimes i don't sleep at all. I had a troubled childhood ive been neglected abused bruised picked on mollested kicked punched and yet somehow i can come back for more. Im good with little kids and I often like to date women who have kids this way I can be reminded of mine. I want love im tired of having it then letting it slip away or thinking i have it and it was never there. I read a lot. I find myself researching things that interest me constantly. I am very intelligent and sometimes it makes me appear cocky but i only have good intentions.If I fall in love it is always 100% real even if its with someone who can't love me. I am never judgemental yet i thought many times of suicide but most often i cry. Sometimes i cry for no reason just to see it. I am very passionate about things i hold dear to me. I love my family. friends count too.Get your layout at MySpaceMusicVideo.com