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Just Cholly

I am here for Friends and Networking

About Me

One who never dreams never really lives.
Yes, I am a narcissist. I do not apologize for any of my faults. I am an imperfect human being that just so happens to be more in love with herself and her daughter than any other being on this planet. It's who I am now, it's who I was then, and it's who I will be until the day I die. May as well get that secret out of the way right up front.
FYI!!!! I am NOT in search of love. I have love. I AM in search of friends from all over. FRIENDS ARE GOOD!!! Any messages I receive other than that will not be responded to and you will also be blocked. You will also receive this same treatment if I feel that you're using fake pictures. Mine are real and I can prove it. Can you?
Yes, I am ALREADY adding to this novel, so if you've read it in the past, you might wanna read it again! People change more and more each day and it would be silly of me not to reflect it here!
Ummmm... NO, people, I still DO NOT have MSN. I didn't get the memo saying that all the cool cats hang out there and I've already got my lifetime membership to Boohoo! 360..
. so I guess I won't be a cool cat after all.
(This is all still very true...) **Disclaimer: The author of this profile can be, has been, and occasionally still is a bit of a B*tch (edited for the children). She feels that her sarcastic wit and tendency to be a bit rude when it comes to truth are endearing qualities. There are two types of people in this world... Those who love Cholly and those who HATE her. I mean that whole-heartedly. The editor in chief (aka Cholly) tends to think the writer (aka Cholly) is a bit whacky, zany, cute-crazy, and completely a contradiction. You'll understand what that means after getting to know her or consuming large amounts of psychedelic shrooms. You're probably better off with the shrooms. Read on if you're A. Crazy B. Open-minded C. Have a sense of humor D. Have the uncanny ability to laugh at yourself F. All of the above or, G. You noticed right away that I forgot about E.
Scratch all of that... I AM a bitch. I make no apologies for it. I am only a bitch when provoked. Yes yes.
YOUR definition of bitch MAY BE very different from mine. Keep this in mind before you misunderstand something. I explain enough *cough cough* here, I don't need to go into minute, descriptive detail about EVERYthing I have on my profile.
Do I?
I think not.
There are so many things I could say here... They give you plenty of space and I'm using the hell out of it! But here's the thing... How does one describe themselves? (Easily, apparently.) That seems to be the problem. (Heh.) I am patient, but impatient (yep). I am happy when I should be sad and sad when I should be happy (this is not so true anymore... I'm usually blissfully happy like ALL the time and it's starting to get on people's nerves. Not that I mind.). I am a mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend. I am an enigma, a conundrum, a contradiction of all things that others think I should be. I have one sister, a mother, a father, and an amazing daughter that I cherish more than life itself (none of this has changed either.). I am perpetually single (by choice, I might add) and better off for it because most people are selfish (I'm probably afraid of finding someone who isn't selfish because I wouldn't know what to do with him/her). I am a prankster, a joker, a counselor, and personal assistant. I have goals, yet none that are note-worthy (in other words, I'm just not telling you.). I have feelings that I can shut off in the blink of an eye if need be, yet I am over-run by them most of the time (It's part of being an empath. If you don't know what an empath is, google it. Welcome to the wonderful world of blocking and shielding! Go me.). I recently discovered that no one can make me feel anything I don't want to feel. How I feel is my own personal choice. You'd be better off learning that yourself. (Those lines are still very, very true. If you are the one who makes you happy, only you can take it away from yourself, but if you depend on someone else to make you happy, you give THEM the power to take it from you. Not cool, people. Just not cool.) I tend to laugh out loud for no real reason and cry for just about the same (I hardly EVER cry anymore. Usually it's over sappy commercials on television. I'm a chick. It's permitted.) I don't get embarrassed because everyone makes mistakes. I never judge because I realize that no one is perfect... Least of all me. I smile at strangers and watch people for my own personal intel. (You can spend HOURS of amusement sitting in a shopping mall just watching people oblivious to the rest of the world meandering by and doing some quite silly things. People amuse me.) I love to learn new things and I realize once you stop learning, you're probably dead. (If you don't get this, you're dead already.) I over-analyze. (What I mean by this is instead of looking at things from ONLY my POV, I try to see it from all other possible POVs that I can come up with. (Get this... I'm TOO busy to type out "point of view" but I can type out all this other shite like there's no tomorrow. I amuse myself sometimes...) I also try to predict every possible out-come for each scenario. I'm usually pretty good at it. It's another empath trait.) I try to figure people out because I'm usually good at it. However, answering for my own hang-ups is nearly impossible for me. I'm getting better at it, though! Much! (What I mean by getting better at it is that I'm getting over my hang-ups instead of hanging onto them.) I love other people's quotes because I believe you should never say something when someone else has said it better. (Unless, of course, you actually say it better. It would be silly to not be original now and then...) I love to read, write, dream, and sing in the shower and I'm pretty decent at all of these things (at least in my own mind, so shaddup!). I am a woman of many talents, yet none that have accomplished much for me (YET!!! I'm working on it.). I am witty, sarcastic, mean, and opinionated, but sweet, caring, devoted, and kind. I am not afraid to admit when I am wrong or if I'm the one who screwed up. After all, I'd rather have truth over pride any day of the week. I am loyal to a fault and that has gotten me into as much trouble as it has forged deep friendships with me. I'm HORRIBLE with smalltalk. I am a VERY strong believer in the "rather silent and thought the fool than speak and remove all doubt" concept. It's a good tool to live by. So is keeping friends close and enemies with dirt closer. Heh. So, how would I describe myself? I am me. A woman who makes perfectly no sense at all 99.9%of the time. And I'm okay with that.
I get me. :)
I have begun to notice the older I get, the more anti-social I am. I'm pickier and pickier each day about who I let in to see the real me... The things that are deep inside that only I know about...
We are all our own novel that no one else has yet to read... And I know for me, there is so much writing left to do...
As for a personality profile summed up sweet and cute, I am an INFJ. It's pretty spot on. I'm also a libra. And guess what? My Moon is in Pisces. That means I am... Tenderhearted and sympathetic to an unusual degree, I have an understanding of other people's feelings and needs which borders on being telepathic. I am extremely compassionate and cannot bear to see any fellow creature - be it human or animal -suffer. Because of my kindness and nonjudgmental attitude, people in pain or confusion are drawn to me for help, which I readily give. Sometimes my softheartedness is taken advantage of. I am a gentle, poetic soul and have a great love and affinity for music. Because many of my feelings are nebulous and vague and I cannot easily verbalize how I experience life, music seems a natural language for me. I am also tremendously romantic and often "in love with love". That's definitely spot on as well.


Blatant self-promotion here, bitches. You know you wanna click it.
And in case you were wondering what an INFJ is...

.. -- --t--My score on.. -- --/t-- The strangely accurate personality Test :

INFJ
(You scored 76Introversion, 75 iNtuitiveness, 69 Feelingnessand 60 Judgingness!)

INFJs are great counselors, artists, and motivators. Unlike their ENFJ cousins, they are very interested in self discovery. Unlike the INFP, the INFJ is more prone to judging the self in terms of morality. INFJs love to put the inside on the outside, so they might wear strange clothes, say awkward random things, or do random stuff that seems to well up from the id. On the other hand, INFJs are very cautious about revealing their true selves. This might make them seem very aloof. Like the INFP, INFJs are different and they want to make sure that people know it. It is hard for an INFJ to blend in, and this can make them seem like extroverts, but in reality, it is just an extension of an internal difference that INFJs feel. Like all NFs, INFJ's intuitively understand people on an almost psychic level.Introvert: You are internally focusediNtuitive: You are abstractFeeling: You use feelings to make decisionsJudging: You primarily use your internal imagination to create yourself

.. -- --t--Link.. -- --/t--: The strangely accurate personality Test ( .. -- --t--OkCupid Free Online Dating.. -- --/t-- )

My Interests

Reading, Writing, Singing, kissing, playing, having fun, goofing off, video games on my kick-ass computer, forensics, profiling, criminal psychology, people, empathy, serial killers, sexual deviants, the minds of all, reiki, shibari, hinduism, buddhism, most religions in general, and most of all... spending time with my baby Troll. ;)


And, of course...
That's right. I'm rockin the e b a y . You know you wanna stop by and check it out, don't you.

I'd like to meet:

Intelligence, conversation, and intellect... I want to meet someone who stimulates my mind. I want to meet someone who speaks to my soul without ever saying a word. I want to meet people that make me think, feel, move, and desire to be a better person. I want to meet everyone left that still has a heart...

Music:

Listen here, or...

If it moves me... Emotionally, spiritually, or physically... I'm into it.

outcast, goo goo dolls, the cure, tool, james blunt, one republic, mary j blige, apc, eminem, 50 cent, jewel, fiona apple, 30 seconds to mars, beyonce, missy elliott, lisa loeb, alanis morrisette, erykah badu, lauryn hill, rick ross, panic! at the disco, fallout boy, sublime, aaron neville, madonna, cyndi lauper, foo fighters, akon, dr dre, snoop, swirl 360 (who recently became echo jet, but I'll stick with 360 since I can remember a time when they DIDN'T suck!), and far too many more to list...


Movies:

Boondock Saints, American Beauty, Swimming With Sharks, The Usual Suspects, ALL of them! I'm not crazy about SciFi, but I'll watch it if I have to! I really like action movies... and zombie movies. Milla fuckin rocked! in Resident Evil! When is the next one coming out? Anyone know? I should look that up. I will. Eventually. I know. I'm procrastinating. *yawn* I'll stop doing that. Tomorrow. Or something... Heh.


Television:

The Sopranos, CSI, Family Guy, Comedy Central Presents, Chapelle Show, South Park, 24, OZ, Lost, NCIS, Criminal Minds, Scrubs, Heroes, Prison Break, Burn Notice (Meowsa!), The Closer, Intervention. I like media. All forms of it. Music, movies, television... It was a dream of mine for a long time to be in it. I'm not cut out for it. I don't like people enough. I'd stay in the tabloids. Make Paris look like a lightweight. Heh. I have an appreciation for art of all forms. Self expression IS the key!!!

Books:

I LOVE to read and write. I prefer true crime, horror, and anything that has a tendency to make you want to sleep with all the lights on... I've recently been getting more books on *le gasp* self-help and Spirituality! (For shame!) I've always been a closet fan of those Chicken Soup for the Soul books. Heh. Design books, too. Like Home-Improvement shit. (That sounded intelligent! LMAO!) I like books. I love the smell of a library... Of an old, used book store where the books have been on the shelves forever... That smell! Just the smell of books... *enter content sigh here*

Heroes:

Those who can dance for no reason, sing to the top of their lungs as they sit in traffic, smile at a perfect stranger JUST BECAUSE, love like they've never been hurt, dream out loud, stay true to themselves, and prosper just because they are capable.

My Blog

Even during the turmoil...

It’s a lovely day.  It’s been one since 7 this morning. I finally admitted to myself it’s true what they say about some people only being temporary in your life. ...
Posted by Just Cholly on Tue, 08 Apr 2008 12:43:00 PST

Freakin’ A, man!

If I get one more person trying to save my soul!!!  I swear!   LMFAO!   Is anyone else getting invites from guys that swear they’re Christians wanting to save your soul, but the o...
Posted by Just Cholly on Tue, 08 Apr 2008 06:36:00 PST

That must be it! I’m ready...

I’m staying in one place... for too long.  For far too long. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t be just content with what I have. When you’re content, you don&rsqu...
Posted by Just Cholly on Sun, 30 Mar 2008 10:57:00 PST

Yes, I’ve posted them before...

Life.  Yes.  My life.  In my own words. Remember... the more it tells you... the less you know.   Infinity is Gone Quiet the wonder, quiet the shame, quiet the one who knows o...
Posted by Just Cholly on Sat, 29 Mar 2008 09:50:00 PST

Friends.

In real life...   What a crock of shit. I’m so sick and fucking tired of the way people are when you have to deal with them on a day to day basis.  It’s bullshit.  Everyone...
Posted by Just Cholly on Wed, 26 Mar 2008 11:51:00 PST

I can no longer deny it...

The heart has a power all of her own.  She is not to be deterred nor ignored.  She follows no ones direction but her own. The heart is a force to be reckoned with. And you can guarantee...&n...
Posted by Just Cholly on Sat, 15 Mar 2008 08:10:00 PST

Hard to hold onto...

Yes, that would be me...  In any media.  I don't know why.  It is what it is.  I suppose I should look into the why part, but I don't have a problem with it, so I don't care to fig...
Posted by Just Cholly on Tue, 11 Mar 2008 01:40:00 PST

Emancipation (300 blogs!!!)

letting go of what i know letting go of you banishing thoughts of wonderment not knowing what to do   i'm happy within myself it's why i'm not devastated by the loss of something great i know&nbs...
Posted by Just Cholly on Sat, 01 Mar 2008 10:29:00 PST

Oh really...

There are times when I truly appreciate my ability to be a complete bitch and not even have the slightest bit of remorse. Is that a woman thing or am I just lucky?  :)
Posted by Just Cholly on Mon, 25 Feb 2008 11:08:00 PST

Shivers...

I've spent so much of my adult life in search of the kind of love that I know exists...  It was so important to me to find it because it gave me purpose.  It gave me a reason. And now... I'v...
Posted by Just Cholly on Sat, 23 Feb 2008 07:36:00 PST