i love to feed the noggin with lots of useless info. sometimes, when i sleep, i lay books on top of my head hoping that i'd learn through osmosis (and for u nerds, i know that it would be technically diffusion if it actually worked, but osmosis sounds better =P). I'm down to try pretty much anythng once. im definitely an adrenallin junky and i love to get out in the sun to sweat some bullets and get the heart goin. humor me and you'll make me a very happy man. nothing can define life as well as a good laugh and a smile on your face. as cliche as it mite sound, life's short, so enjoy it while it lasts =]
*update* 4-17-07 - "why i'm going to start writing these corny blog things..." (don't bother reading if you're not reading the blogs, it would be a complete waste of time =P)
after a string of events this last week (by no means serious or life threatening), i came to a moment of enlightenment. with the help of an old friend and a new, i've been reminded of how blessed my life has been, through the hard times and to the good, i see where i've been, and where i am now. i've realized that its time for me to look ahead and put my future in my grasp. i suppose you could say its time for me to earn my keep, after 25 years of being on this planet, and being so lucky to have the ppl in my life as well as all the people i've ever met to shape and nurture me into the man i'm now (both the bad guys and the good guys), i think its about time to give back and show what all that hard work has been worth.
i've been laying around these last 2 or 3 years just being content and floating on by through life, only reacting to what ever the world threw at me, knowing that i could do so much better if i tried. so this last week, i met with a friend which i've known for 15+ years now, he tells me the same story that i've always heard (he probably tells this to me everytime i see him, which is good, seeing how i need a kick in the ass...). the story goes along something like..."khoi, wth are you doin, you can do so much better then that..." and then i go... "i know i know... i'll do it next week". i can imagine most of you probably say the same thing, or have said it at some point in your life. but this time, it was a bit different, just 2 days later, one of my other long time buddies comes up with a new friend of his. i know this guy for all of 2 little hours. when he first gets here, he walks in, looks around, and goes "whoa, nice pad." he notices all the toys that i have that i simply take for granted. then he takes a look at my book shelf and starts reading the titles and what not. not being the shy type, he asks me how i can afford the pad i'm at, how i got all this stuff and what not. i give him the canned answered of me being a computer nerd and blah blah blah. normally, the conversation would just stop here and we would continue the drinking and partying, but no, he asks me something along the lines of how i arrived to be the self sufficient man that i am now. after a few drinks, i find myself telling him exactly what my friend has been telling me i should be doing, i mean, the words are almost identical. i tell the guy that you have to be self motivated and driven to explore the world around you to find out what you're here for and what you can do and blah blah blah (i know i've told many of my friends this in a drunken rage, but this time was a little different, which i didn't realize until the next morning).
i wake up the next morning a bit hung over but still with full memory of the previous night's conversation (and thats pretty rare with me...). i go to the bathroom to wash up and i look in the mirror. i suddenly feel extremly humbled. i think back to the previous nite's events, a complete stranger that i hardly knew told me how much he admired me and all that i've accomplished in my life so far, to the point where he wants advice on his own situations. at the same time i feel much more confident but guilty at the same time. i've taken for granted all that i have and now i need to take a step back and acknowledge all of that. 2 people, one that i know, and one that i don't, have told me in the span of 2 days or so what type of ma that i am. the only difference between the two descriptions is the one thats known me for so long knows exactly what i'm capable of. i have to stop for a second and think about how lucky i am to know what i know and have the people around me to drive me to my fullest potential. so now, i think i'm finally going to get off my ass and start doing this. i've just written down some daily and yearly goals that i'm going to accomplish by this time next year. and to keep track of my progress, as well as to keep me from dropping this off like another fad of mine, i'm going to blog it pretty much every day so i can see where i stand a year from now.
the reason why i had to explain why i write blogs is because most of the blogs are going to follow my goals, and they probalby won't make sense to the random reader that comes accross them. most will probably be about things that i've learned that day (one of my goals is to learn soemthing new everyday) or random rants on particular subjects about my goals. anywho, if you made it this far, you're on myspace too much and need to take a break =P hah!
