About Me
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As a child, I ever so often wanted to see you. I wanted to breath you and to hear your warm voice that i just knew was sound to my heart. I sought the touch of love and care, from a man that would love lil ol me. Someone that would talk to me after my game, show me the right moves to make on the court, or simply attend my shows. I had motive. The game to beat was to get to you. I moved closer and closer to the finish line each year by achieving goals and setting new ones, to prove to you what i could accomplish anything. Only odd thing was that as i accomplished them, i got weaker! Tears ran down my eyes, " what am i doing this for, ill never win". But still i kept going, with faith and hope that one day i would accomplish my ultimate goal of, Winning! Mom, always did what she could do to keep me well grounded. But it just wasnt enough! I still longed to win, this semed to be unbeatable round of the game. Tormented by the thought of what could have been, or would be if i won tore me apart. It just seemed that i longed for so much and wanted to win so badly that it was eating me. Christmas mornings mom would set up the tree and there would be three gifts.One for me, Oby, and Toby. Mom did everything she could but, i always felt like it wasnt enough. Then growing i began to take my anger on Ma, cuz i was hurting and longing to win this game. Then one year happiness raged my heart! I WON I WOn I Won, I won, i ... won, but i really didnt. One call to you and a promise of a call back from you after a single hi to you, is all i recieved. Here i was right back at squre one. Pain, oh no i couldnt describe what i felt! I didnt want to go back to school or hang wit the girl or talk to anyone. It was me against the world until i reached you! Then the year of 2006, i get great news. Avis, were going to Nigeria. I was so joyful and eager to go. Now i really did win. But i didnt know that a couple of months later i would recieve the news that you were gone. A heart Attack! What i was in so much pain.Not only could the game nbe won now, but it would be won with an ultimate ending. I have reached you, but your gone. The sight of your face still lingers in my mind. Questions, answers, excuses still lost and never to be found. Why my pictures and birth certificates were all over you house, but not one call? A mystery in its self! Did you love me, cuz although you werent there, i always love you and longed to love you more."The game of finding dad had been done at your funerol had been accomplished" I thought as tears rolled down my eyes!Its over now HAHAHAH, so whats next. Just agony and pain over the next couple years and random thoughts! Still a question in itself i my life goes on! I LOVE YOU DAD! RIP KENNY OVOSS OCT 2006
