Music, Work, Family, Internet, Photography. Not neccessarily in that order.
God, everyone else seems to be finding him these days. Haha.
First off, Music is my defining point. Music is not only defined by the artists, it is defined by the people who listen to it, write about it, photograph it, read about it, live for it, and die for it. Music is my meaning to life. It has saved me. It drives me. I can do impossible things in the name of music. I can reach no boundaries through music. I can sit here ALL DAY and list bands that I like. But there are just a few that I will mention because it has had a devine impact on me.
Songs that have saved my life in times of suicide. these songs inspired me to stop having suicide attempts and suicide thoughts:
1. BLUE OCTOBER!!! SAVING MY LIFE SINCE 1999!
2. Under the Bridge - Red Hot Chili Peppers
3. Whats this Life For - Creed
Songs that help me relieve feelings of rage:
1. PANTERA...any song
2. KoRn...Shoots and Ladders
3. Slipknot...any song
Songs that give me an overwhelming sense of selfish pride:
1. Tear Away - Drowning Pool
2. Darkest Days/Everything I Touch/Save Yourself - Stabbing Westward
Songs that make me happy and carefree:
1. California - Phantom Planet
2. Revolution Man - The Union Underground
3. The Decemberists - any song
This next song changed my whole life and the direction it was going to go. I can originally remember listening to country music as a young kid. As I hit 12-13 I switched to a love for rap(Eazy E, Snoop Dogg, ICP, Bone Thugs were my favs back then) One day while I was sneaking on MTV at my moms house(my dad would not let me watch MTV) I saw this video which changed my life forever. It hit me like a brick wall. I felt like I found my place in life, like I belonged. Like I was somebody, and I had a billion other somebodies to get my back. It wasn't that the song was about sex...I didn't even realize it when I was watching it...but I felt it. I felt the song. For the first time, I discovered ROCK. The video was Korn - Adidas. It blew me away. I mean I listened to classic rock...the stuff my dad liked...and I like it...but this was totally different. Not even comparable. This was metal(at least post-grunge metal!) The video of Days of the New - Touch Peel and Stand. I was hooked. My life was never the same. I live my life only because of music.
The Boondock Saints, Donnie Darko, Elephant, Super Troopers, 28 Days Later, Resevoir Dogs
Kill Your Television!
Angels & Demons by Dan Brown
MAYHEM...to my biggest hero ever with the biggest heart ever. If you don't know Mayhem, you missed out. He paid the ultimate sacrifice while trying to save Dimebag Darrell. Heaven always needed a bodyguard. Shit, with all the concerts Dave and Dime are having up there, they need you more than we do. To a friend...HAIL MAYHEM!
RACHEL BLASINGAME...you taught me so much. You were truly an angel here on Earth, and now you are my angel on my shoulders. I miss you so much!