About Me
I am Mary. I like laughter which sounds like you are mad, distorts your face into a mush of features but makes your eyes ALIVE, live music that makes you crackle&burn, other places which aren't where I reside just to shake it up yeah?!.. allsorts of poetry. people and the wonderfully arresting things they have to say.. the kindness they surprise you with which makes you momentarily reconsider the world. I want Change, big juicy change like everyone else, but do pitiful amounts to help those worse off than me, something i'll rectify..soon. am a lazy youth but not proud of it. I don't take freedom for granted. I think friendship is amazing, distracts you from the greed corruption and self indulgent bullshit circling everything. It's not just a distraction though, you clearly learn so much from your mates, so many beautiful times are had :-) Common passions and ideas, comfortable silences and being able to voice your fears.. don't know what I would do without some people. I think forgiveness is important, as is not being a pushover. I find it hard to balance logic with morality and emotion. Solitude is gorgeous, I wouldn't cope if I was always with people, I enjoy my own company alot not because I'm self obsessed, (although I do enjoy the odd natter with oneself, especially when cleaning..) but cause the peace I find when alone is precious- it's the calm which comes from nothing and everything. My perspective enlarges.. there is more room. The sky gets bigger. I like drugs in moderation, but go through phases of preferring different ones, or doing none. when I'm on it hard, its usually a pick n mix situation.. I think it helps to get utterly mangled every now and again, have all of the fun and craziness OUT and then have to methodically cope with the real world afterwards. And I definitely am aware when to stop and give my system and mindset a spring clean. often for months. I always attempt to do interesting lively and creative things when spangled..to keep it all active tho, otherwise it's a bit of waste having a clear head, looking after your body with delicious foodstuffs and not doing anything to nurture the rest of you.. sitting on your arse the whole time isnt going to make you feel great. i also think its bloody pointless getting so fucked you all look like zombies, facedown, not talking. disassociation is not for me. ketheads are not for me. obv no one Needs to get out of their heads..but i recognise that its tempting sometimes. i am addicted to spontaneity more than anything. travel, stories, adventures.. i like making plans to go somewhere faraway at the last minute. have been all grounded and got jobs and things of late. Feel so much better! I write a lot. I read more. Walking is one of my favourite pastimes. I adore the morning. Sometimes I even get up early enough to see it.....hhjfgbjajkbgjbgjlguhghjg
