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embrace the entropy

she's comming down hard now.

About Me



My Interests

give me a beginning.
a honeymoon phase.
a routine schedule and agenda i can break.
entropy.

i am an artist

i am an old soul, or so i've been told, obsessed with the human mind and stretching it's limits.

i am in love with
Stephen Paul Helgeson
and i spend most of my spare time with him.

my days are filled with love, school and work.
i guess i just figure i should work hard now
so i can play later

i like to talk to strangers who i will never see again
and listen to their ambitions and hopes
and maybe share mine

i would like to live someplace small and peaceful
a place that allowed me to ride a bike everywhere
to maybe teach my passion

i study drawing and painting in school
and shocked everyone who knew me with this change of majors
everyone that is, besides my mother.

i am inside the many books that i read.
i am everywhere through six people. through six people i know everyone.

under my present occupation you would call me
Miss C. Private Tutor

i am twenty years old
and have no boss but myself

i am young in years and wise in mistakes, for i have made many.

this site asked me to create a summary of myself. the fact is that it is impossible.

i work towards making my life simple in a separate sort of peace.

I'd like to meet:



My Blog

Forgiveness is a Tricky Thing

It's not something that comes easilyIts better,so says your brain,to hold and hold onto this painNow you have ammo for the next BIG DEALyou won't be unpreparedyou keep your shit list in your headgoing...
Posted by embrace the entropy on Wed, 30 Apr 2008 08:11:00 PST

Stream of Consciousness

Last Friday something very scary occurred... this is the story: As many of you know already, I am self-employed as a private tutor. As part of my job, I pick up an 8th grader from school and drive him...
Posted by embrace the entropy on Tue, 08 Apr 2008 12:40:00 PST

just try and keep up

overwhelmedyou can never run away from your mistakesthey track you down with a letterfinalas are fine and dandywork is oppressiveno one can appreciate a good deali am faced with rejectionhow can i not...
Posted by embrace the entropy on Fri, 07 Dec 2007 09:19:00 PST

irritating emotions

I have this tremendous deep- rooted sickness that feels like it will never go away. No form of drug- legal or prohibited can take it away, for they only let you borrow their rose-colored shades. No a...
Posted by embrace the entropy on Wed, 21 Mar 2007 03:28:00 PST

just scream as it envelops you.

stress hurts. no matter how hard you try to ignore it, it only effects you more. with my job, schooling, friends... i feel it i see it i taste it it's my once narrow waist ballooning up it's my hair l...
Posted by embrace the entropy on Sun, 11 Mar 2007 11:50:00 PST

carry me in your pocket

let me tell you a little secret it's not much but it's there find the one you care about and hold onto them fast throw out the television set and watch each other's eyes instead leave your wallet at ...
Posted by embrace the entropy on Fri, 08 Dec 2006 06:33:00 PST

my first dream since april

i had a dream this morning while my meds were wearing off i was in trouble of some sort and went over to your place it was kinda a mixture of the old one and the new but everything was orange and yell...
Posted by embrace the entropy on Sun, 29 Oct 2006 05:33:00 PST

close your mind... your very thoughts are your biggest enemy

so i teach a sunday school class... yes i am one of those people, and i came to a conclusion: if we are constantly prompting our children to do what we feel fit in what particular assignment or proje...
Posted by embrace the entropy on Mon, 18 Sep 2006 05:05:00 PST

two steps behind you, a little to the left

sometimes jimi i wish six was nine i wish you would show me your other side i offered up the key to my heart but you rejected it don't blame me for their mistakes i wish you could open up your eyes an...
Posted by embrace the entropy on Sun, 03 Sep 2006 05:10:00 PST

blow me tender blow me slow

fold me up in a neat little square and put me in your pocket i'll be there when you need to brush away a tear and blow your nose after too much laughter. pull me out when you need to wipe your hands e...
Posted by embrace the entropy on Thu, 24 Aug 2006 02:22:00 PST