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About Me


The Name Is Becky St. Hilaire
I Live Everywhere...
Not A Gypsy, But I Tend To Run A Lot.
Waiting To Go Home To My Father On Withlapopka Island In Floral City.
I Used To Live In Chicago,
And Moved Here With My Mother In April '06
Cept She's A Crackhead, So I Don't Live With Her Anymore.
My Bestest Friend Of All Time Would Be Mallory .. Zies
(I Would Put Her Middle Name But She Would Kick My Funky Ass)
She Lives Up In Illinois, But We Talk All The Time.
My Closest Friends Down Here Would Be:
Joey, Jakob, Brianna, Janell, Beth, And All The Other Islanders.
I Got Kicked Out Of Citrus High School Because I'm A Bad Girl,
And I Ditched School So Much.
DITCH BUDDIES::
JANELL && BETH!!
I'm A Very Open Person, & Will Tell You What I Think.
I Love To Party With My Friends.
And Most Definately, I Love To Break The Law,
Which Is Never Really A Good Thing,
But I Love It Anyway.
My Best Friend Is My Sister, Leah St. Hilaire.
She Is My Little Sister, And I Would Do Just About Anything For Her.
She Means The World To Me.
Most People Don't Like Her,
And They Say She's A Slut,
But I Think What Is Really Going On, Is They Are Jealous.
(Those Bastards)
Cause NO ONE Can EVER Be As Lovely As My Lil Sister.
If You Wanna Know Anything Else,
My Screenname For AIM Is BeckySayzzs
Feel Free To IM Me Anytime.
Cept Please, If You IM Me,
Don't Be One Of Those Creepy Guys Who IM Me All The Time.
Mmkay??
kthnx!
BECKY ST. HILAIRE LOVES JOE NAVARRE
My Best Friends
- Mallory
- Janell
- Damir
- Kelly
- Carlos
- Audrey
- Brad
- Katie
- Josh
- Leah
- Bethany
- Marshall
- Joey
- Jakob
- Beth
- Chelsea
- Yashia
- Joe
- Nick
- Megan
- Sam
- Sara
- Joshy
- Sandra
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I hope the ring you gave to her Turns her finger green I hope when you're in bed with her You think of me I would never wish bad things But I don't wish you well Could you tell By the flames that burned your wordsI never read your letter Cause I knew what you'd say Give me that Sunday school answer Try to make it all okayDoes it hurt To know I'll never be there Bet it sucks To see my face everywhere It was you Who chose to end it like you did I was the last to know You knew Exactly what you would do And don't say You simply lost your way She may believe you But I never will Never againIf she really knows the truth She deserves you A trophy wife Oh, how cute Ignorance is bliss But when your day comes And he's through with you And he'll be through with you You'll die together but aloneYou wrote me in a letter You couldn't say it right to my face Give me that Sunday school answer Repent yourself awayDoes it hurt To know I'll never be there Bet it sucks To see my face everywhere It was you Who chose to end it like you did I was the last to know You knew Exactly what you would do And don't say You simply lost your way They may believe you But I never will Never againNever again will I hear you Never again will I miss you Never again will I fall to you Never... Never again will I kiss you Never again will I want to Never again will I love you Never!Does it hurt To know I'll never be there Bet it sucks To see my face everywhere It was you Who chose to end it like you did I was the last to know You knew Exactly what you would do And don't say You simply lost your way They may believe you But I never will I never will I never will Never again

I thought I saw a man brought to life He was warm, he came around like he was dignified He showed me what it was to cry Well you couldn’t be that man that I adored You don’t seem to know, or seem to care what your heart is for I don’t know him anymore There's nothin' where he used to lie Our conversation has run dry That's what's goin' on Nothing’s fine I'm torn I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed Lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed Into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn You're a little late I'm already torn So I guess the fortune teller's right I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light But you crawled beneath my veins and now I don't care, I have no luck I don't miss it all that much There's just so many things That I can't touch I'm torn I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed Lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed Into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn You're a little late I'm already torn Torn... There's nothing where he used to lie My inspiration has run dry That's what's goin' on Nothing's right I'm torn I'm all out of faith This is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed Lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed Into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn I'm all out of faith This is how I feel I'm cold and I am ashamed Bound and broken on the floor You're a little late I'm already torn Torn...

She's got green eyes and she's 5'5 Long brown hair all down her back Cadillac truck So the hell what What's so special about that? She use to model, she's done some acting So she weighs a buck o 5 And I guess that she's alright if perfection is what you like Ooh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm not Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed I remember way back when you use to look at me that way Tell me what makes her so much better than me? (what makes her so much better than me) What makes her just everything that I can never be? What makes her your every dream and fantasy? Because I can remember when it was me And now you don't feel the same I remember you would shiver everytime I said your name You said nothing felt as good as when you gazed into my eyes Now you don't care I'm alive How did we let the fire die? Ooh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm not Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed I remember way back when you use to look at me that way Oh what makes her so much better than me? (what makes her so much better than me?) What makes her just everything that I can never be? ( i can never be) What makes her your every dream and fantasy? Because I can remember when it was me That made you smile (me) That made you laugh Me that made you happier than you have ever been, oh me That was your world (me) Your perfect girl Nothing about me has changed That's why I'm here wonderin' What makes her so much better than me? (what makes her so much better than me?) What makes her just everything I can never be? (i can never be) What makes her your every dream and fantasy? Because I can remember when it was me Oh what makes her so much better than me? (what makes her so much better than me?) What makes her just everything that I can never be? (i can never be) What makes her your every dream and fantasy? Because I can remember when it was me When it was me When it was me When it was me

Right now, He's probably slow dancing with that bleach blonde tramp And she's probably getting frisky Right now, He's probably buying her some fruity little drink 'Cause she can't shoot whiskey Right now, He's probably up behind her with a pool stick showing Her how to shoot a combo And he don't know... I dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped up four wheel drive Carved my name into his leather seats Took a Louisville slugger to both headlights Slashed a hole in all four tires Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats Right now, She's probably up singing some white trash version of Shania karaoke Right now, She's probably saying I'm drunk and he's thinking that he's gonna get lucky Right now, He's probably dabbing on three dollars worth of that bathroom polo And he don't know... I dug my key into the side Of his pretty little suped up four wheel drive Carved my name into his leather seats Took a Louisville slugger to both headlights Slashed a hole in all four tires Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats I mighta saved a little trouble for the next girl 'Cause the next time that he cheats Oh, you know it won’t be on me No, not on me I dug my key into the side Of his pretty little suped up four wheel drive Carved my name into his leather seats Took a Louisville slugger to both headlights Slashed a hole in all four tires Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats

I've been waiting all day here for you babe. So won't you come sit and talk to me, And tell me how we're gonna be together always. Hope you know that when it's late at night, I hold on to my pillow tight, And think of how you promised me forever.(I never thought that anyone)Could make me feel this way. (Now that you're here boy all I want) Is just a chance to say:Get out (Leave) right now, It's the end of you and me. It's too late (Now), and I can't wait For you to be gone, cause I know About her (Who?), and I wonder (Why?), How I bought all the lies. You said that you would treat me right, But you was just a waste of time (Waste of time). Tell me why you're looking so confused, When I'm the one who didn't know the truth.. How could you ever be so cold? To go behind my back and call my friend. Boy you must've gone and bumped your head, Because you left her number on your phone. (So now after all is said and done)Maybe I'm the one to blame, but (To think that you could be the one) Well it didn't work out that way.. I wanted you right here with me, But I have no choice, you've gotta leave, Because my heart is breaking With every word I'm saying. Boy, I gave up everything I had On something that just wouldn't last. But I refuse to cry, No tears will fall from these eyes... Get out! Get out (Leave) (You and me) It's too late (Now), (Too late) (You...)About her (Who), (Why). You said that you would treat me right. But you was just a waste of time (Waste of time)

Hey Boy, Is she everything you wanted in a girl? You know I gave you the world, You had me in the palm of your hand. So why your love went away, I just can't seem to understand.. Thought it was me and you, baby, Me and you until the end But I guess I was wrong. Don't wanna think about it, Don't wanna talk about it, I'm just so sick about it.. I can't believe it's ending this way. Just so confused about it, Feeling the blues about it. I just can't do without ya.. Tell me, is this fair? Is the way it's really going down? Is this how we say goodbye? Shoulda known better when you came around, That you were gonna make me cry. It's breaking my heart to watch you run around, Cause I know that you're living a lie. But that's ok baby, cause in time you will find. What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way, back around. Yup(let me paint this picture for ya, baby)-- You spend your nights alone. And she never comes home. And everytime you call her, all you get's a busy tone. I heard you found out, That she's doing to you, What you did to me. Ain't that the way it goes? When you cheated, boy, My heart bleeded, boy, So it goes without saying that ya left me feeling hurt. Just a classic case scenario.. Tale as old as time. Boy, you got what you deserved. And now you want somebody To cure the lonely nights. You wish you had somebody That could come and make it right, But boy, I ain't somebody. I'm out of sympathy. See.. What goes around comes back around.. I thought I told ya.

Tryin’ to forget about Ordinary things, typical, predictable;; Baby, I knew the end before we started. You got me feelin like I own you somethin, Cause you were there in times when I had nothin. But you threw it all away, With the shady things you do. Baby, please forgive me For what I’m bout to say and what I’m bout to do: I can’t take no more.. I know you ain’t been true, ain’t got no love for you. You’ve been cheatin and tellin me lies. You’ve been creepin while I’m sleepin at night. And you’ve been chasin every girl in sight. You’ve been messin around and I ain’t down, it’s over now. I don’t buy intuition, And pass it off as a suspicion. But you were just so bold- You kept puttin it in my face: I can’t deny I let you hurt me. When you were down I helped to pick you up [But you didn’t appreciate love]. Instead you came looking for the one [Hopin love could take her place]. When all the while what you were searching for was in front of your face. Just forget it, you’ll regret it. It’s really over now, just turn around and watch me walk, I’m gone. And you’ve been cheatin round and tellin lies and creepin round. And you’ve been messin round and let me down when I’m around. And you’ve been sleepin round and fuckin round and messin round. And you’ve been messin and fuckin round and messin round.I know you ain’t been true, ain’t got no love for you. You’ve been messin around and I ain’t down;; IT'S OVER NOW..

I want you to know that I´m happy for you, I wish nothing but the best for you both. An older version of me.. Is she perverted like me? Would she go down on you in a theatre? Does she speak eloquently? And would she have your baby? I´m sure she´d make a really excellent mother, Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn´t able to make it enough for you to be open wide, And every time you speak her name, Does she know how you told me you´d hold me Until you died?? Till you die, But you´re still alive. And I´m here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away. It´s not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me. You oughta know- You seem very well, things look peaceful. I´m not quite as well, I thought you should know- Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity?? I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner. It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced. ARE YOU THINKING OF ME WHEN YOU FUCK HER? Cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me, And I´m not gonna fade. As soon as you close your eyes and you know it, And every time I scratch my nails down someone else´s back, I hope you feel it... well can you feel it?

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i love you, but not enough to turn him down.

i don't know if this is the right thing to do. however at the moment and given the status of our relationship and the way it is turning out, i think we have gone about as far as it will ever go. i don...
Posted by I waited so long [[IT FINALLY HAPPENED ♥]] on Mon, 21 May 2007 11:25:00 PST

these medical records-- top notch confidentiaity.

so the cops were here not even 10 mins ago looking for me. they JUST left. they decided to stand outside the house for 15 mins and talk to the wonderful physcho bitch across the street, who knows...
Posted by I waited so long [[IT FINALLY HAPPENED ♥]] on Wed, 02 May 2007 10:00:00 PST

my fault? perhaps. your right? i don't think so.

..> ..> jamie writes: Sunday, April, 29, 2007 9:56 AM lilly---- Your post shows ignorance. You validated everything Doug said. My daughter is 17 1/2 years old and I just brought her for an ab...
Posted by I waited so long [[IT FINALLY HAPPENED ♥]] on Sun, 29 Apr 2007 09:44:00 PST

aww he loves me

U KNOW I LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART AND I WILL NEVER LOVE ANYONE AS MUCH AS I LOVE YOU AND U KNOW I WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH YOU....THESE PAST 5 MONTHS HAVE BEEN AMAZING...EVEN THROUGH THE R...
Posted by I waited so long [[IT FINALLY HAPPENED ♥]] on Sat, 28 Apr 2007 11:38:00 PST

yes and no's... a new update. better read.

just so everyone knows-- yes, i did get an abortion.no, i will not tell anyone who brought me, nor will i tell anyone where it happend. yes, kevin and i ARE back together.no, i am not ashamed, nor wil...
Posted by I waited so long [[IT FINALLY HAPPENED ♥]] on Tue, 24 Apr 2007 09:45:00 PST

angel

See it's been five months since you went awayLeft without a word and nothing to sayWant to wil' out want to up and leaveSee it's all about you it's not about meBreak me down from in and out See I knew...
Posted by I waited so long [[IT FINALLY HAPPENED ♥]] on Thu, 19 Apr 2007 10:11:00 PST

a QUEEN

`Cus babyy girls a QUEEN* I love it how she breathes booze in the mornin'Man, it's so sexy how she can't remember last nightI made a fatal mistake letting her drink againBut who the hell am I to tell ...
Posted by I waited so long [[IT FINALLY HAPPENED ♥]] on Wed, 18 Apr 2007 07:23:00 PST

BORING!

man... so life is exruciatingly broing these days. i about have no life, and everything is going down the shitter. just thought i would let you all know....
Posted by I waited so long [[IT FINALLY HAPPENED ♥]] on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 12:46:00 PST

mm hmm whats new

so i suppose that now everything is workn out for me now. here goes. ok so i am 6 weeks pregnant and i told kevin. and he broke up with tiffany (or, she says she broke up with him but whatever. n...
Posted by I waited so long [[IT FINALLY HAPPENED ♥]] on Tue, 27 Mar 2007 05:21:00 PST

the stress

i am so fuckin tired of running, but i don't know what else to do. i don't want to turn myself in, but i don't want to keep doing this to not only me, but to kevin, to daddy, to leah and tony, and to ...
Posted by I waited so long [[IT FINALLY HAPPENED ♥]] on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 12:25:00 PST