As of April 2, 2008,
My nickname is Kat. I am a single mom to two wonderful (and challenging) sons, Justin and Tyler. One is a teenager and the other is almost 11! I am also a very proud Auntie to Dakota, Montana (my brother's girls), Vanessa, Jacy, Ethan and Cloe (my sister-in-law's kids). Being an Aunt is the second best thing in the world! In some ways it's better than being a parent, only in the aspect that you can spoil them rotten, have fun with them, be the "fun" relative (which usually means favorite LOL) and then give them back when you are tired!
What I do…
I love to scrapbook but unfortunately this year I found out that my son was being abused at school and was also being improperly educated according to his disabilities. Therefore, I spend almost all of my time advocating (fighting the school system for a proper education) for son who has been diagnosed with PDD-NOS and ODD which is an autism spectrum disorder. (Pervasive developmental disorder). Between therapies, doctor’s appointments, meetings with the school, the district, the special education department, lawyer; it is pretty much a full time job at the moment. I also am in charge of my teenager’s homeschooling which he does online due to his own medical issues. Each day is like a 24 hour work day. Life with a special needs child is exhausting but a gift that words cannot explain. Most days it doesn't feel like a gift, but it truly is.
My youngest son is an awesomely talented skateboarder and my oldest son is learning to dj (scratching/mixing; or something like that!).
What I hope/dream of…
My hopes and dreams for the future are that my sons grow up to be healthy, happy and GOOD MEN. Not like most of the men you meet now-a-days. It is such a difficult job to do this especially as a single mom but it is the main focus of my life and I will never give up! Their education is the most important thing I want for them (second only to their health & happiness) and the public school system does not make that easy for children here in our state.
What I fear....
(Other than the big important stuff involving my loved ones…The biggest thing I need to overcome in my lifetime is fear. I live with an overwhelming fear of vomiting/nausea, it's a phobia called "emetophobia". It invades every single area of my life and has been kicking my ass so far but I'm working on it.
What I think about life and after...
I believe in God, but not in the way others do. I do NOT believe in sin or fearing "God", or needing forgiveness or salvation. I believe God is Love, he is the whole of which each of us is a part. I believe in reincarnation and I believe we all choose our life plans before we are born into each life. (Sometimes I think I must have been high when I chose mine! lol) I believe we are supposed to learn specific lessons in each lifetime and if we don't, we come back to learn them again in another. I believe in what goes around comes around. (Eventually anyway)
Things I like and don't like...
I like popping bubble wrap, sun showers, thunderstorms (although we don't get those here in Washington), things that make me laugh, a clean house, scrapbooking, animals, knowing my boys are healthy and happy, thrift store shopping, reading, seeing all the girls chasing after my sons (lol), watching my younger son overcome an obstacle that I was told he would never be able to do, writing, did I mention shopping? I also like warm, neutral and light colors, soft things, fireplaces, floating in a swimming pool, organizing, doing things for others, spending time with my nieces and nephew, coupons (shopping again!), being single and not having to depend on a man for anything, creating (anything), my individuality and uniqueness, looking at my calendar and realizing I have nothing scheduled on that day (which is very rare.
I do not like one of my ex husbands (lol), sleeping, pain and illness, mean or inconsiderate people, laundry, mopping, cleaning my son’s bathroom (lol), cooking, the fact that some people who think that their religious beliefs are the ONLY “right†beliefs and that you MUST not be happy or are “doomed†to suffer for eternity because you do not have the same religious beliefs as them (I don’t dislike those PEOPLE, just their opinions regarding this subject). I also do not like disregard for others, loud people who like to hear themselves talk, someone who feels the need to be the center of attention, close mindedness, ignorance, judgmentalness, impatience, unhappiness, hot and muggy weather, not having air conditioning (lol), when my kids are sick or unhappy, getting older, watching those I love get older, losing a friend or loved one, and not having enough money to be comfortable.
My favorite quote:
"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration I will face my fear I will permit it to pass over me and through me And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain." (I think Angelina Jolie said that)
Too bad that thought doesn't work when you are afraid of throwing up LOL
