Sorrow rebuild me as I step out of the light.
Misery strengthen me as I say my goodbyes.I heal my wounds with grief
And dream of you.
And weep myself alive.
the Struggle between Love and Death.
I just can't seem to get it fucking right.
Here I am again, another day, another fight.
If I truly cared about you would I take myself out??
So you wouldn't have to listen to me cry, complain or pout??
The pain of this life is slowly breaking me down.
Every night I ask myself why I'm still around.
Is it for you, because I still have hope for us??
Do I stay here because I feel that I should or I must??
Maybe I believe that one day you'll love me too.
That you'll realize I'm the one who's really meant for you.
I wish I could get that silly thought out of my head.
IT WOULD MAKE IT SO MUCH EASIER FOR ME TO BE DEAD.
This struggle between LOVE and DEATH
Is constant, I feel it with every breath.
I want to give everything up and just let it all go.
But in the same thought I think of you and I say "NO."
Even though I know in my heart things'll never change.
I know that it's the end and there's no one left to blame.
Will you be happier without me??, I think that you might.
I tried with all I had to make you smile, you know that's right.
I guess it just must not have been enough.
I gave you everything I had, every bit of my love.
You pulled away, yet you still lead me on.
Do you expect me to forever be so strong??
"Persistance pays off", you would always say.
That would keep me hanging on for yet another day.
When will it pay off??, I can only take so much.
You know your driving knives in my heart with every touch.
All this has to end, I know, but I don't want it to.
I feel I will never be happy if my life is without you.
So I'm giving you my life and all I ask for is one last kiss.
WHEN I SAID I'D DIE FOR YOU, my love, I NEVER MEANT LIKE THIS.....
My dreams are infected with the words you used to say..
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