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Michel

I'd owe Him something afterward

About Me

I am Michel-he who shortly after his wedding nearly died of tuberculosis. He who recovered only through the ministrations of his wife Marceline and his sudden ruthless determination to live a life unincumbered by God or values. Surrounded by splendor and death I feel happiness to close and the surrender to it too constant. I want to take a fresh start. I want to get rid of what remains of my fortune; I live here on almost nothing. I was fifteen when my mother died; my father reared me, sustained me, devoted all his passion to my education.

My Interests

LIFE, traveling, farming and harvesting, survival, spending time with children, trapping, horseback riding with Charles, seclusion, sexual experimentation, I used to enjoy lectures and scholarly work, telling stories...

I'd like to meet:

Anyone who wants to live without letting themselves be held back by other people. Someone who is in the here and now. Someone who does not concern themselves with the past. People who say YES!

Music:

i don't enjoy music

Movies:

i don't enjoy movies

Television:

i don't enjoy television

Books:

I used to enjoy reading about history, but now books bore me. They are in the past and of the past and my only concern is present.

Heroes:

Menalque, Those who overcome the triviality of society

My Blog

The End

I have finished telling you my story. Marceline lies buried at El Kantara, in the sade of a private garden she used to like. What alarms me, i confess, is that I'm still quite young. sometimes it seem...
Posted by Michel on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Mareceline

Sickness had entered Marceline, henceforth enhabited her, marked her, soiled her. She was a tainted thing. Thus i tried, and once again, to close my hand over my love. But what need I of calm happines...
Posted by Michel on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Menalque

How lucky Menalque is...owning nothing! It is because I want to save things that I suffer. What does it all really matter?
Posted by Michel on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Home

I returned home, for Marceline's sake, and soon afterwards began giving lectures. In my lectures I expressed my view that "Culture, born of life, ultimately kills life." For this I was criticized
Posted by Michel on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Happiness

What would be the description of happiness? Noting, except what prepares and then what destroys it, can be told.--and now I have told you all that had prepared it.
Posted by Michel on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

My Studies

We proceeded from Tunis to Malta, then to Syracuse...When, in Syracuse and later on , I tried to resume my studies, to immerse myself once more in the detailed inspection of the past, i found that som...
Posted by Michel on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Last Night

Today we are leaving Biskra, but i will always remember last night. I wanted to mark that night, to impose its memory on my mind, to hold it fast; uncertain what to do, I picked up a book from my desk...
Posted by Michel on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Moktir

I am almost completely well again. This morning i had a curious revelation about myself: Moktir, the only one of my wife's prteges who didn't annoy me was alone in my room with me. I was standing near...
Posted by Michel on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

I am feeling better

It seems to me that until this moment i had felt so little by virtue of thinking so much that i am astonished by a discovery: sensation is becoming as powerful as thoughts. I say: it seems to me; for ...
Posted by Michel on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

God

This morning, Marceline went to Mass, and told me upon her return that she had prayed for me. I looked into her eyes, and then, with as much gentleness as I could muster: "You shouldn't have prayed fo...
Posted by Michel on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST