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.. ~~A Eagle Can Never Be Caged or Inprisioned for to do so the Eagle would Wither and die-These Wings will NEVER be Bound or tied again -For an Eagle Must feel free to Dance with the Wind ~~
Be who you are and say what you feel, Because those who mind don't matter, And those who matter won't mind. -Dr. Seuss
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☠ ☠ (( Also Known by Shahenna~☠ Captain Raven BlackWing☠ ~Silvermyrsbeloved~Toredor~Bitch~ and many other names))
..... ☠Hello first off (LoL) I wasn't going to do the myspace thing even though every body wanted me to,including My Little sister..(Sigh~~~ why not)..
{{But if it were'nt for Myspace I would not have found SO many of my dear Ole' friends I have been looking for-for years now as well made new ones-and I do have so much fun playing with the graphics and layouts}}
☠ I love my family No matter what problems, no matter how warped we are,How understanding or nonunderstanding,How functional or disfunctional we are.
No matter what family is just that were ment to always be there for each other.
Just like all familes thay all have there goods and bads But were family and we look out for each other or we try to and that will never change,Im protective over the all of them,
☠ My daughter Many people say she is just like me,BUT yes we have many similarities but we have several differences as well.We are Different.She sometimes hates bieng compared to me. she is far more warped,mature,creative,responsable,stubborn,attitude,protect ive,tanacious,Sneaky,Loves to make people smile,Crazy as hell, and intellegent than people give her credit for. She has a huge love and luster for Life and the extreme.Definitly a Wild heart n Spirit!!I hate it when people look & talk down to her that is a huge mistake, she will always be MY SUNSHINE..
☠ My son very sweet,extremly silly and goofy a heart of gold,shy at times,bashful,crazy,Extremly sneaky at times,Inquistive,hard headed,curious as hell,good at figuring things out,specially gadgets,(loves to tear them apart)Unusual.also a joyful luster for life.Loves to learn,trys to do what he can to make others smile even if it is putting on a goofy show... protective,stubborn,attitude,intellegent,Sneaky,lives to make others happy,what can I say He is My little man and MY BRIGHT EYES.
☠ Both kids love to sing,dance,draw,eager to help others,be creative,out going and laid back.cause mischief..
☠ My Niece n Nephews (JR,SR,CR)
There Crazy warped Kids,I love them dearly,I love them Like they were my Own children and Like my own kids I would do anything in the world for them. There the Only kids I know that are bigger Mischief makers than my own kids,They were raised with my kids and so they treat each oher as if there brothers n Sisters.They Love to hate each other,But heaven help anyone that picks On the other cause as much as they cause each other trouble they would protect the other with there life If they had to
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~Spirit Eagle~ Has been there for me since I was about 19/20 years old has always been there for me even when I did not realize it!There when I needed someone as well as protected me,fought for me,stood up for my honor, when I needed it,I somtimes did not even Know he was going to bat for me and fighting for me, Saw the Invisible tears when no one else did and found me when My heart was beaten,broken,in coma and practically dead,Somehow managed to bring it back to life again... Showed me there is more to life than pain,that ones heart an be happy ...(has always there for me even when I did not see him there)who hasWe have always cared about one another but did not realize the others feelings ( But over all the years Neither one of us dared crossed the Line ).Started off as a deep and caring Friendship that led to a even deeper Friendship and now (the Timing is Finally working in our Favor) we are together and so TRULY TRULY Happy!! Im glad we're Finally together and by each others side!!He Loves me for me,Unconditionally with no strings attached Just wants to be with me and by my side.If saw you crying would ask who is getting there ass beat for hurting n making you cry,would give his coat just to make sure your warm,will carry anything just so you would not have too,even go as far as gladly do house chores with out even been asked just so you could have a break from it.. Would literally do anything for the kids and I ,without fail.. Loves and protects my kids as if they were his own ~ would let NO harm come to them or me even if it ment risking himself!!!!!!
Try's to hide behind a tough guy front but fails Miserably !!!! ( oops did I say that out loud whoopsy- Oh well )I Will Never Ever Leave his Side!!!!
~I Love Him!~
☠ My parents.. ☠ My Dad Dad and I do not always get along reguardless he is a Loveable,Talented,Likes to play acoustic guitar,hard working man and does what he can for his family,he and I have the same Hard headed stubborn temper......
☠ My Mom , Mom n I Get along well,She is,Extremly loveable almost like a sister to me,peaceful,strong,patient,Sneaky,caring,Very Talented,sensative,sophisticated,charming,Loves life,her children,a mom of moms of sorts..
☠ My 2 Siblings
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My Lil Sis Her and I have alot in common,For most of her life I have looked up to her, I know so long as she continues to stick to her dreams and lets nothing get in her way,continues in her education she will make it alot further than I could ever could.She is Extremly talented
☠ My brother Vert wheeler
what a suprise Much younger than I, very creative and growing up so fast.Quiet,Bashful,Loveable and stubborn, Hard to believe He is just a little older than my oldest daughter. It's a little bit to early, But I know My brother will go very far as well.He is very helpful. and creative he loves his hotwheels,he is also very curious about just about every thing.But me thinks he will do something with cars and art.
☠ There are many many many others In my family I would Like n Love to brag and tell about but I have a huge family but I love all of them and they all know how I feel about them.Special thanks to the BlackWing crew,MONKEY,Wicked Jester(HBC3),Lord Blame,Crow,Sharezz aka Tanaria, for you guys who have Always been there for me in a time ofneed,I will always love each and every one of you and you guys willalways have a special place in my heart,thankyou for everything~~☠-<3 This Special thanks is posted on my Private Myspace account I wanted to post it here for all to see
☠ SHAREZZ AKA Tanaria BlackWing is an Awesome first mate. This lady always trys her best to be there even if it mean sacraficingand putting her life on hold for someone. stresses out easily but does not let that get her down she still goesabove and beyond been close to her for many years now.sweet andunderstanding but be for warned if you piss her off then you have todeal with the both of us. Her and I If someone pointed a gun at us we would actually argue over who would take the bulet for who o the point the person would probably say Fuk it and take the bullet instead just so not to have to deal with usw ( RLMFAO ) we are at each others back pretty much at the becking call. when in times of trouble she is there. she is first mate and adopted sister.with out her I would not havemade it this far and mentally be able to handle life. this girl isawesome and I would never give her up for anything.plus she has to be ( Love ya Sis ) one hell of a first mate to put up with a bitch like me Lol.any one who can deal with a Bitch like me is one hell of a personreguardless!!
☠ lots of Love to Monkey
Special person, That has a Huge and Enormous n fierce heart,sometime your misunderstood by many,But alot of times Hides behind a tough guy persona,Is far sweeter than people actually knows(whoops don't think I was suppose to mention that part)that is helping me achieve thethings I need to achieve,person who believes in me accepts me forwhom I am.that wants to help me fix my life and get it back on the right track ( even if His Methods are sometimes a bit Harsh and Misunderstood at times)Has stood by side in the worse situaions,was there when I needed someone as well as protected me,fought for me,stood up for my honor, when I needed it(has always there for me even when I did not see him there)who hasalways saw me when when I was Invisible to every one else and noone seemed to care,Saw the tears that one else saw- cares about me unconditionally for me ask for . He oddly enough helped me, to not me so dam modest when there was no need to be..nothing in return.- Just wants me to be me, He truly Believes in me.. I know him better than he thinks I do !!!! Thankyou for Bieng the Shadow that was/is always there and showed me the way though a vey dense fog....Sweetest Man Ever !!AND is so dam silly it is almost impossible to I know you better than you better than you think I do! One of those guys that if it were snowing outs side would give you his coat to wear so to keep you warm. That If you tripped and fell would laugh his ass off at you and with you as he is picking your but up off the ground.Don't even think about bieng sad and depressed when he is around causewell He is a monkey. LOL..
"" love you my pysco monkey"""MANY memories we made I will forever cherish and treasure n never forgotten.

☠ Also-Not Mention Freeking F'Rick sweet guy,One Very Lovable Crazy Person will gladly embarass himself and be the fool just to make others smile..~HOT STUFF~Helped me From falling apart when I wanted to just fall to pieces so bad!! we were each others emotional crutch, Help me to stay strong when I wasweak~Is definitly of those guys that if he saw you crying your eyes out would ask ok Now who ass and I kicking today or hurting you!!!!! always at least a phone call away and there when ever one needs some one to talk,vent too so!!MANY memories we made I will forever cherish and treasure n never forgotten."Love n Muah To F'Rick"
☠ Wicked Jester (HBC3)-Was always there for Me back in the day ~Much More than a friend~ Helped me to break a shell that needed to be Broken and Gave me faith and Hope again You broke the cage I was in and helped me to shatter the thick mask if lies I was hiding behind for so many years that had blinded me,helped me to find my self again and hlped me to truly LIVE life to thr fullestonce again!! Many MANY memories we made I will forever cherish and treasure n never forgotten.~Opened My eyes~"Love NHugs n Kisses forever-To Wicked Jester"
.helped bring out a side of me I missedso very much and thought was long forgotten.He truly Believes in me.. Will always be in my heart and never forgotten always will be rememberd,will always be here for you, maybe life will be kind and our paths will cross again. no matter what wrong you feel you have done,will always be forgiven, """ Love you blue ~ eyed angel """☠ Wicked Crow also sweet,somewhat patient,pain in the butt(lol!)does what he can for me,was a nice room mate-he puts up with me and that is not an easy task cause over all I know I'm a Bitch- thanks hun...
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☠ Robert S Jankowski Been with Him since 93 and currently married to him since 94'
(WE ARE NOW DIVORCED SEPT 23,2009,3:15PM)
☠Have 2 kids by him and he is sometimes far more warped than me Like All Marriages They have there ups and downs Some last and survive others dont.We have had our ups and downs,we have many memories I will always cherish and treasue-some times Likes to have the last word at just about every thing and hates it when someone gets paybacks on him mostly when joking around and practical jokes/games~'Heck it takes one hell of a man to put up with me and heaven help him !"LoL" He was going to school to better his computer skills, he used to be in the military He can be a great father,But he is still a sweet pain in the ass at times.
☠☠ Hmm! About me AS you can figure I LOVE my friends and family, I'd be nothing with out them.. My Kids ARE My life and my World evolves around them.. My friends and Family They are my greatest treasure to me,and I cherish every one of my friends and family..Most of my friends are as well adopted family.Im a Kid at heart I have a heart of a teenager alot of the time,my big heart gets me into trouble but at least Im not a fake or a phoney,I have a bit of a wild side,Picky at times,out going n laid back,crazy,warped,Love to help others but can't stand it when people try to walk all over me.I try to be as Independent as possibe,Strong willed,Hate to be treated like a charity case but will except help if I need it..Hate it when people Think they Can control me or think of me as weak,Im a Lover and a Fighter,I hate to be lied to specially those that tell me REALLY tall tales and think I'm stupid enough to believe them,(If you think that I am stupid enough then who is the one that is truly Niave)Just be freeking Honost,and Loyal I ain't got time for bull shit like that I have better things to do with time than to listen to lies and dishonosty-I hate it when people think I am only good for one thing,I hate to be taken for granted,Intellegence undesetimated,taken advantage of,used Like an Old shoe,Abandoned,(I do not abandon people so Please Do not do that to me)
I Love Life,Strong willed,Loyal an Faithful Respect those who deserve it,Some what patient,Wild Spirited,Im Protective of EVERYONE around me,or related to me. I become a real Bitch from hell when anyone hurts any one I consider family or friend. and YES!I'm Proud to be A BITCH!!! but I can be a very dear friend if your on my good side cause I will always get your back and be by your side no matter what !!!!
☠ My friends and family adopted or by blood
I cherish each and every one of them.
I will stand up and protect them help them be there for them I do what I can for all of my family and friends.
I dont like to put up with No CRAP !! or freekin Drama
I can be your best friend or your worst enemy .
I guess--
Well the best thing I can figure to say--Not meaning to offened any one
But Accept me for WHO I am and what I am ,Not for what you want me to be and NOT- What I used to be.
Dont try to change me (I can do that on my own if I choose to)
Im not the person I used to be. If one can't do that then there in for one HELL of a suprise !!
Specially the ones that think they know me but Truly Do not.I HATE TO BE JUDGED by people who do not know and don't bother to try to get to know me but think they do.I do MY absolute best not to Judge,I try to get to know people and accept People for who they are.
I am Me,Accept me for who I am or you dont have to be around me and you know where the door is!!No skin off my nose cause I no care !!!!!!
☠ I am who I am! ☠
☠~ I love to do arts n crafts-draw-write poetry-sew-Glass etching-Paint Ceramics-WoodBurning art-Some photography,Minor in interior and exterior decorating and design,Seamstresss,minor make up artist,costumer,bead work,singing,music,watch movies,Played flute from 5th grade up to High school,I have a few years of Modeling expierence as well as Bakery and Cake decorating expierence,Minor in Air brushing,I like to Develope things On Imvu,Make Layouts and gaphics for Myspace,(My hopes is to someday be able to afford to g o scool to learn computer graphics,computer prgramming and web design also to be a Tattoo artist),I play Dungeons and Dragons n Vampire the Masquerade, and play daoc ..roll playing games,spend time with my kids and watch them grow up and see Life through their eyes,Learn new things, Roller skate,Rollr Blade,Ice skate,Horse Back ride (etc...)hang with friends and family,Have fun and Live life. ((It's one thing to have a life but why Have a Life if you can't truly LIVE it and enjoy it every now and then)) pretty much I like to make things and be creative. Right now My main passion is friends n family second is Belly dancing I LOVE it and have been doing it for awhile now. most of my family, not all ,dont understand why I like it .. When I dance its when of the few time I truly feel free !!!! it's my freedom,stress release,meditation,talking a whole new language and expressing a kind of art,and sometimes even telling a story it is many things to me ,but dance in general it is an exention of me and who I am.With out it I would not be me for it is literally a part of me.. When I dance is one of the times I truly Spread my wings and I feel so free I feel Like I can fly ...
anything else you want to know simply ask
~~~~** ☠ Be sure you can live with the consaquences of the choices you make in life for the choices you make have a life long affect and above all make sure it is the right thing to do and try not to let your choices change who you are ~ be true to your self and BE your self do not live behind a mask of lies-Be who you are and not what everyone wants you to be. ☠ **~~~
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~**☠ Dark Silver Adventurers ☠**~ and **~ ☠ Angels and Avatars ☠ ~**
I am founder and a Guild Leader of 2 guilds on DAOC- Dark Silver Adventurers-AND-Angels and Avatars.~ .. ..
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☠ I have created a myspace websight for the myspace backgrounds/layouts I like to make so go check it out ☠
""Work like you don't need the money, LOVE like you have never been hurt, and DANCE like you do when nobody is watching.""
.. For those that really want to know here is my Christmas/Birthday list
Click here for the list I hope the link works
How to make a Little Eagle
Ingredients:
3 parts attitude
4 part luster for life
5 parts bitch
3 parts strength
6 parts demented and crazy
2 parts courage
Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add playfullness to taste! Do not overindulge! ~ warning addicting
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Personality cocktail
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I CAN NOT STAND DRAMA!! There is absolutly no room in my Life for drama... Life it to short to have to deal with DRAMA BS. What little drama I have currently in my Life I am trying to get rid of.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The mini video below is of my daughter in N.C Goldsboro christmas parade-Eastern Wayne High School"ROTC-Behind the Band" I know the quality is not that good I apologize-but she is carrying the banner and calling cadence-she is one on the far side that had issues with the flag behind her and waved to someone"I AM VERY PROUD OF MY DAUGHTER
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here is just a small part of my family~My Family has it goods and bads like all families do but none the less I am VERY-Proud of my family n honored to be a part of it!
this video made by my cousin carol