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OpenTheFiredoor

No safety without risk & what you risk reveals what you value.-JW

About Me

Profile Edited by Html-Codes.com MySpace EditorNOTICE: I LOVE MAKING NEW FRIENDS SO GO AHEAD AND FRIEND ME BUT IF YOU DO AND YOU MAKE NO ATTEMPT TO TALK TO ME, COMMENT ME OR WHATEVER "I WILL DELETE YOU"... NOT TRYING TO BE HARSH. I'M TRYING TO BE REAL. AND I DON'T NEED 500 FRIENDS THAT I DON'T KNOW AT ALL TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER ABOUT MYSELF.. P.S. THIS MESSAGE IS PUT HERE WITH ABSOULUTE LOVE I JUST CAN'T TOLERATE STUPIDITY.....All I am is what I never was which is what you wanted me to be. Trying to mold into a faded creature, some distant form of reality. And I danced to make you laugh. And I ran to show you pain. Growing out of someone else’s shell I was never the same. Never the same person twice. I took on a different role each day. What face do you remember most? Eyes shining dark and gray. I left when the sun moved far into the sky. Arms wrapped around your body I said my good bye. And I’m sorry that I wasn’t all that you wanted. I wasn’t all that you made me out to be. But all I am is what I never was. And what I never was is me.

My Interests

I’m going to start this in the middle Somewhere in between the color of your eyes And my long awaited dream Things seem so similar I think that I knew this before After the several times we tried we still wanted more I awoke in the morning to the soft smell of your skin You opened your eyes Hello... How are you??? Would you like to come in???…

I'd like to meet:

What if I could just sit here and blink the words away? Will you pour yourself back into my mouth like in the days when we were teenagers? You resisted the taste so long before I had you. You used to melt into my hands on the days when it was cold. But that is all over now…

Movies:

Scents remind me of that day we first met. Your lip-gloss, Chap Stick Smells just as fresh as the day that I first tasted your lips, Soft and sweet, When will we meet again? I ended with you telling me not to go. You ask, why can’t I just stay? There’s just so much more of the world too taste And, I’m just not full yet today…

Television:

I used to suck in caffeine and nicotine And all of the teenager that I could get out of a girl like you…

Books:

Most of the time I’m clear focused all around, Most of the time I can keep both feet on the ground, I can follow the path, I can read the signs, Stay right with it when the road unwinds, I can handle whatever I stumble upon, I don’t even notice she’s gone, Most of the time. Most of the time It’s well understood, Most of the time I wouldn’t change it if I could, I can make it all match up, I can hold my own, I can deal with a situation right down to the bone, I can survive, I can endure And I don’t even think about her Most of the time. Most of the time My head is on straight, Most of the time I’m strong enough not to hate. I don’t build up illusion ‘til it makes me sick, I ain’t afraid of confusion no matter how thick. I can smile in the face of mankind. Don’t even remember what her lips felt like on mine Most of the time. Most of the time She ain’t even on my mind, I wouldn’t know her if I saw her, She’s that far behind. Most of the time I can’t even be sure If she was ever with me Or if I was with her. Most of the time I’m halfway content, Most of the time I know exactly where it went, I don’t cheat on myself. I don’t run and hide, Hide from the feelings that are buried inside. I don’t compromise and I don’t pretend, I don’t even care if I ever see her again Most of the time. -Bob Dylan


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Heroes:

my father (he's the man), my mom (she is stronger than anyone that I know), my sister (for being an amazing friend and an inspiration to my life), Jeanette Winterson, Ani Difranco. "I owe my life to the people that I love"-AD

My Blog

Fast....

So I am going to start something. Start something like this. Maybe a little story. A way that it all went down, in my head at least. Seen through my eyes. The night was long but too short. It went by ...
Posted by OpenTheFiredoor on Mon, 04 Sep 2006 01:07:00 PST

1872-The life and death of Sarah (my past life)

My name is Sarah. I am nineteen years old. I have no known parents. Or, at least I cannot seem to remember their names. I dont know exactly where I came from and I dont know exactly why I am here. But...
Posted by OpenTheFiredoor on Mon, 04 Sep 2006 01:00:00 PST

TOWER

I am a towerMy body- a buildingInsides made of glassWindows swinging and breakingIn between the time you rushed into meFar from the time your body weighed me down and took my breathThe air just passin...
Posted by OpenTheFiredoor on Fri, 01 Sep 2006 02:54:00 PST