So...there comes a point when you realize that the things you want to control most in life, you in fact can't. You can wear yourself out trying to make everything fall in place according to your 5 year plan, but in short, you can't micro-manage life...why, you might ask? It's quite simple really. Because life is more than the present...it has to be. In me [and I refuse to think that I'm the only one], there is a longing for something more than the stuff we have right now. There has to be!
So, yea, I'm talking about God, and the forgiveness and comfort found in a relationship with Him. I'm talking about finding satisfaction and hope in a being that is all-knowing, compassionate, and all-in-all a pretty good architect [ok, for the sake of my own profession I had to toss in that last little part :) ]. But above all, God is just! In our wordly minds, He might not always appear fair, but then again, we're not the only ones with plans. God has one too [and since were living in His creation, His plan probably isn't too bad of a thing to consider.]
In short, although I went to church a lot as I was growing up, it was just that...church. It was routine; it was predictable; it was expected. But nowhere in that was a true desire. It wasn't until I was in college [after I had been broken by coursework, long hours in studio, and things just not clicking in life] that I discovered Christianity to be anything BUT routine. It wasnt a do this, dont do that sort of thing...it was about admitting failures and recognizing that I needed something more in life.
When I finally started listening to the whispers, I found there to be more than I ever imagined; I think that even in my own little messed up world...I found God.
So...I consider myself to be pretty easy going and am currently finding time to enjoy life [now that I'm done with college]. It's sad, but even with a full time job + overtime I still have more free time than I did in school. Northeastern PA is home for now so if you ever find yourself visiting NYC, drop me a line and I'll meet you in the city for a weekend.
I draw houses. Yep, you guessed it...I draw houses that look like a stereotypical third grader rendition. One front door, two second floor windows, and a chimney on top with a little smoke curly-q. Ok, that actually couldn't be further from the truth. Check out my firm's website @ BCJ if you feel so inclined.
