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About Me

Hey, my name is Ryan..and that's exactly who I am, just Ryan..
Basically I spend my time trying to keep myself busy and not focusing on the things missing in life. If you focus on what's missing, it's impossible to see what's there and really there is WAY too much to ignore.
I spend a lot of my time reading, playing guitar, or playing around with the pen and the paper. I constantly have new and innovative ideas (in regard to just about everything, my mind is a rampant train station), but rarely have the wherewithal to follow up on them (A.D.D. + PUSSY = SUCK ASS). My way of coping with that is to just toss them aside and focus on something else.. For the better or worse.
I'm trying to exercise my blog more frequently to show people where I'm at and what I'm thinking, because I know I'm distant most of the time. I'll apologize for that now as I'm sure I've issued a plenty of excuses to cover it up. ..and I know that sometimes sorry just isn't good enough and I'm sorry that it isn't. It's just something that, over the years, I've grown accustomed to. Being distant, avoiding commitment, hiding from plans, and everything else that is remotely similar.
When I'm gone (physically or mentally) I'm in thought. I see landscapes, horizons, sunsets and rises, clouds, the moon, impossibility, probability, trees whispering in the wind, words never spoken, and every last one of my mistakes. ...there cannot be a past without a future and without mistakes there cannot be correction. So, my focus isn't necessarily entirely negative and I really try to keep it that way (sort of middle of the road). I'm generally in search of answers and beauty when I feel it's been lost. It's a never ending process, thank god for a world with so much beauty.
I'm definitely artistic, but it's taken some time to really awaken it, and I'm still working on it. I haven't spent enough time involving music theory or artistic theory (in reference to drawing/painting/etc). So, expect some more writing, thought provoking entries, and the like posted in my blog. I hope to later in life improve on the quality and quantity of my artistic endeavors.
I'd love to end up an author/musician/artist or anything else that would allow me to live life by my own tune. Bottom line is..freedom allows me to think and I simply cannot think freely when it's being orchestrated by someone else. So, I guess I'm really independent.

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My Interests

My interests include:

Hanging out, games (all of the above), friends, writing, stuff, anatomical orientation (do the math), guitar, listening to music, uh and anything else I left out- not that you would know what that is, because..I..left..it..out.

I'd like to meet:

I want to make as many friends as possible and by that I mean a real friend. Someone who is there and remains there..like belly button lint (can't seem to get rid of that shit...wtf). --and yeah, I wash it, thanks..Anyway, friends are a true blessing who can change your life. I've had a few over the years and I'd gladly add another great one to my roster.

Anyway, if you're cool, thoughtful, intuitive, considerate, elaborate...or remotely similar to any of the above. Hit me up. Push up a chair and enjoy the ride.

So, with all that in mind. I'd like to meet anyone genuine...I would like to meet people who are going to enlighten me and make me better for knowing them and hopefully the other way around.

AND I DON'T WANT TO MEET PEOPLE:

..that have hooked on phonics on the "must read" literature list..
..that are completely belligerent/ignorant/stupid/etc.
..who don't think for themselves.
..who repeat quotes without actually having any meaning for them themselves.
..who give advice ALL THE TIME..AND are complete douche bags..without ANY moral/ethical understanding of life.
..that like to fight (in a non-endearing way).
..that are gossipers and shit-stirrers.

If you answered YES to any of the above criteria..FUCK OFF!

If that doesn't sink in, then I have a sure fix for it. Follow these simple instructions:

1.Find/purchase/steal some sort of saw (powered or otherwise).
2.Go outside (with the fucking saw).
3.Search the horizon for the LARGEST tree.
4.Spend the next six hours of your useless life "sawing" it down.
5.When the tree starts to lean, quickly, run toward it's path of descent and examine the trunk of the tree closely.
6.Before the tree teeters toward your general direction, proclaim loudly for all to hear,"I'm a fucking idiot!"
7.You really are a fucking idiot.
8.I've just indirectly and undeniably proven that ONE PERSON can change the world for the better...Maybe you'll start a trend.

I assume no legal responsibility for people that follow the above instruction, but I sincerely DO thank you for your time. Have a nice day.

p.s.: I'd like to meet one of about 10 guitarists that I idolize- Mark Tremonti heading the list. Don't worry if you don't know who he is...you're just not cool enough yet. (Tremonti's name is a link..check it out.)

Music:

I'm a rocker through and through. I like some heavier things, but I'm more of a Rock Alternative kind of guy. Actually, some of the bands I like have been coined as part of the genre Nu-Metal. Hey, it's kind of catchy, right?!

Some of these bands include: Creed, Nickelback, Disturbed, Staind, Papa Roach, Hoobastank, Linkin Park, Alter Bridge, Shinedown, Chevelle...you get the picture.Other than that, I have some wonderful people in my life trying to broaden my horizons, which I love. Number one being, my wife. (u should talk to her, she's cool)

Movies:

I'm a big fan of the Terminator, Matrix, and Blade "series'es". I like action movies typically, but I'm open to some suspense/mystery, and some other random things I come across.Some of my favs: LOTR Terminators Matrixes Big Daddy Happy Gilmore Click Pursuit of Happiness Wedding Crashers Perfect Storm Alexander Spyderman/X-men/Ghost Rider I Robot Underworld[s] Resident Evil[s] The list goes on...

Television:

I like reality tv, for some reason it's entertaining just to watch people live. It's hard enough when you do it, but it's "entertaining" to watch other people do it.Anyway, I'm into the typical FOX comedies like Family Guy, Simpsons, That 70's show, King of the Hill, etc..Another really good show I regularly watch is CSI (miami, vegas, ny, etc)..

Books:

Heh, game strategy guides most of the time...Once upon a time I was recorded with my face being stuck to my chem book three times in one week. (my all time high)

Actually, I've read every Harry Potter book known to man.. I recently read Eragon. ...and I'm trying to delve a more into literature, but it's hard. I have several books on the "to-do" list, but I haven't gotten to it yet.

Heroes:

I don't necessarily have any heroes. I don't look up to anyone, but God and Jesus, so I guess he would qualify as my hero. The one and only.

As a generalization, I have a mad amount of appreciation for people with drive and determination and know what they want out of life. The ones who actually go out and get it done are that much better. We could all learn something from them.Again there are some guitarists I'd consider revolutionary and I idolize them, but they aren't really my heroes.

My Blog

Collateral Damage?

Collateral damage Things falling apart Life was long, but living was too short Can I wake up This morning With an answer Can I see myself For who I really am Ca...
Posted by Ryan on Tue, 04 Mar 2008 03:43:00 PST

The line..

I can't see it, but I know it's there. There's a gentle tug toward the center. Toward the center of my reality and of yours. Somehow indirectly bringing us all together..repetitively. It's not cognit...
Posted by Ryan on Sat, 01 Dec 2007 06:11:00 PST

To the sea, the land, and the air; my love.

The gulls chime above me to signal land is near. It seems so unlikely considering my bobbing far and near. Lost at sea, and of heart and mind. Long ago I realized I wasn't in control and there was so ...
Posted by Ryan on Sat, 03 Nov 2007 12:59:00 PST

Something like another song:Dependence.

INTRO/CHORUS1 Are you? Dependent? Have you? relinquished? Are you? dependent? Have you? Given in, to this? VERSE Dependence, is the excuse. ..to relinquish ourselves and our reason. the...
Posted by Ryan on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 04:31:00 PST

Something like a song: I hate(this in)you.

PRE VERSE We hide ourselves behind computers, lies, ignorance, and excuses. Continually fortifying ourselves with all that's useless. At the end of each day, remind yourself, I love you. ..and ...
Posted by Ryan on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 04:15:00 PST

I'm scheduling you in.

I can't believe it some days. A life so short and a schedule so empty. I mean, in reality, I often feel like I'm running around aimlessly. Such a big world, but to me.. It feels so small. I see people...
Posted by Ryan on Mon, 12 Mar 2007 09:40:00 PST

In my mind, in my soul.

I'd like to think each day, that I'm closer to something. That I'm closer to anything, really. Throughout my life, I've sent soft skipping stones across the face of this world. Sooner or later, I will...
Posted by Ryan on Wed, 21 Mar 2007 01:45:00 PST

Tonight, is a new one...and yet still the same.

Why am I alone, late at night I wonder. It is because I can't sleep or, because of something else? We all offer a variety of things in this life and some will be taken for granted. ..and those that ar...
Posted by Ryan on Sat, 17 Mar 2007 11:13:00 PST

Fuck you, you think you like music?! So, do I!

My playlist..set on random..enough energy for fucking russia to pwn.Control-puddle of mudd3 days grace-i hate everything about you3 doors down-when i'm goneadema-giving inbreaking benjamin-so coldchev...
Posted by Ryan on Fri, 16 Mar 2007 12:31:00 PST

late night ramblings, alone

Dear God..dear Jesus, I exclaim. Bring an end to this madness and all this pain. Too much love for another and in such an endeavor, not enough 'humanly' to gain. Bring me up, when the moon is out..bri...
Posted by Ryan on Fri, 16 Mar 2007 11:43:00 PST