lola rose [hottest thing since the wii]

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so you people really want to know about me, huh... honestly, besides being ridiculously inconsistent, always late & always losing my things, no bullshit, my worst flaw is probably that i'm a lazy fuck, ill motivated. i really just fluctuate from high strung streaks of energized schooling & sporatic church attending and then hard core partying & expert-bullshittin. i'm seriously bi-polar with this sort of inconsistence. i can't help it. like with school, for example, i'd just sit there while everyone learned how to research & experiment with successful progression in education. i think the only thing i learned in school was the correct way of going about research papers otherwise, i never really cared too much. i let myself settle with mediocre efforts. teachers, family, strangers preaching about how 'smart' i am or how much 'potential' i have but really when you break it down, haha i just don't try. i had too much weight on my shoulders to focus on fuckin bullshit homework. that's my rationalization. i rationalize a lot, it makes me feel better. i don't like conformity, i don't like routine, i don't like learning about shit i'm uninterested in, i don't like grades unless they're A's because i most likely crammed & didnt try for shit & seeing that A or B makes me chuckle with evil laughs. i don't have enough greed. i just HATE school. i read & write like hell about what interests me. i'm obsessive with words. i don't know why i write so much about shit, perhaps i have this underlying need to be understood but i tend to explain things too verbally, i.e. written or spoken, i like people knowing everything. yea it's probably a complex. not to mention, i'm nosey as fuck & i gossip entirely too much. i just like knowing everyone elses business. it's one of my many other flaws. it's something i try so desperately to control, but can't. i don't understand numbers. i need a calculator for everything. and i lose everything so i don't buy many accessory type stuff. i don't understand people who are always worried about their future & stressing about numbers whether they be on checks, papers, transcripts, ids, whateverrr... i think it's useless but they probably don't understand laid back people like me who rest assured in heavy doses of spiritual faith that the future will be pleasant without my striving to be some dollar crazed mogul. whatever, i know im gonna be alright & im gonna make it because i got what many don't have & i'm not even being arrogant, maybe a lil cocky but if u know something, u know it. & yeah with money, i can spend better than i can make but as much as that c-note talks, there is other shit that makes the world go round & i know this. i'm so domestic it's unreal. all i want to do is get married, have some kids, decorate the house, take my husband surprise lunches in his office in sexy lingerie, host dinner parties, participate in oprah's bookclub, do the church & pta thing & live quietly in my palace with my family & God as the centerpieces. but i know girls who haven't hit 25 & getting divorced with a kid & i mean that's them & shit happens so i'm gonna take my time to try to prevent from becoming a statistic. fuckin north carolina... i don't know what the fuck i'm doing here, i hate this place, i never felt right. i'd seriously pack up my shit, bound for bright lights & speed & just go wherever life takes me with no particular confirmation of success. i swear if it happened, i could be hollywood's juiciest tabloidized superstar or travel the world in servitude of humanitarian agendas but the only reason i won't is because i owe it to my parents to do this school & work shit. everybody says it's all cognitive so i guess i'm trying that out & staying my ass close to home until i get ballsy enough to jump in frigid waters. i got other shit to worry about like ME... & i need lots of refurnishing. i'm a lil spunky, a lil reserved, a lil crazy but so are you & your momma is too... we all got issues & recovery to undergo... if you think you're normal, you're fuckin crazy. yo you can't even begin to understand the spectrum of my complexity so i'm just gonna fast forward... .

Music:

¬ 50 cent
¬ a perfect circle
¬ american hi-fi
¬ amy winehouse
¬ augustana
¬ avril lavigne
¬ beyonce
¬ blue october
¬ bobby valentine
¬ brian mcknight
¬ buckcherry
¬ chris daughtry
¬ christina milian
¬ cold
¬ coldplay
¬ crime mob
¬ cyndi lauper
¬ cyndi thompson
¬ dave matthews band
¬ eminem
¬ everclear
¬ fantasia
¬ fergie
¬ foxy brown
¬ gary allan
¬ gym class heroes
¬ hinder
¬ hollywood undead
¬ huey
¬ india.arie
¬ jim jones
¬ journey
¬ juelz santana
¬ justin timberlake
¬ juvenile
¬ kaila yu
¬ kelis
¬ keyshia cole
¬ lifehouse
¬ lil boosie
¬ lil john
¬ lil kim
¬ linkin park
¬ lit
¬ lloyd banks
¬ mariah carey
¬ mike jones
¬ mims
¬ mos def
¬ mya
¬ nas
¬ nirvana
¬ paramour
¬ paul wall
¬ pearl jam
¬ pitbull
¬ porcelain & the tramps
¬ puddle of mud
¬ rascal flatts
¬ rasheeda
¬ richboy
¬ stephen speaks
¬ sublime
¬ sugarcult
¬ t.i.
¬ the birthday massacre
¬ the dresden dolls
¬ the fray
¬ the spill canvas
¬ young bloodz

Movies:

¬ 200 cigarettes
¬ 40 year old virgin
¬ a bronx tale
¬ a christmas story
¬ a walk to remember
¬ american beauty
¬ american history x
¬ anchorman
¬ beerfest
¬ blow
¬ boondock saints
¬ breakfast club
¬ bridget jones diary 1&2
¬ cool hand luke
¬ crash
¬ disturbia
¬ donnie darko
¬ drop dead fred
¬ edward scissor hands
¬ ferris bueller's day off
¬ garden state
¬ good will hunting
¬ goodfellas
¬ goonies
¬ grandma's boy
¬ groundhog day
¬ happy feet
¬ harry potter 123&4
¬ heathers
¬ hostel
¬ joeâ€™s apartment
¬ just like heaven
¬ legally blonde
¬ love & basketball
¬ mannequin 1&2
¬ monster squad
¬ mrs. doubtfire
¬ my cousin vinny
¬ my super ex-girlfriend
¬ national lampoonâ€™s xmas vacation
¬ number 23
¬ office space
¬ old school
¬ phsycho
¬ pretty in pink
¬ robin hood: men in tights
¬ robots
¬ rush hour
¬ say anything
¬ scarface
¬ secret window
¬ sixteen candles
¬ stand by me
¬ steel magnolias
¬ thank you for smoking
¬ the black dahlia
¬ the departed
¬ the lost boys
¬ the ring 1&2
¬ unfaithful
¬ uptown girls
¬ van wilder
¬ waiting
¬ walk the line
¬ weekend at bernies 1&2
¬ wild hogs
¬ x-men 12&3
¬ you, me & dupree

Television:

¬ cold case
¬ csi: las vegas
¬ csi: miami
¬ er (in the old days)
¬ even stevens
¬ grey's anatomy
¬ hannah montana
¬ heroes
¬ house
¬ i ♥ new york
¬ judging amy
¬ law & order: svu
¬ lost
¬ miami ink
¬ missing
¬ the contender
¬ robot chicken
¬ simpsons
¬ ugly betty
¬ ulitmate fighter

Books:

¬ hot water music
charles bukowski
¬ are you there vodka?
chelsea handler
¬ my horizontal life
chelsea handler

Heroes:

¬ my dad
¬ david caruso
¬ seth rogen
¬ chelsea handler
¬ mitchell white ♥
¬ everyone fighting in iraq!