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About Me

I am the master of self deception and the destroyer of dreams. Somewhat confident, slightly dangerous, completely confused, and apropriatley scared shitless. A twenty eight year old little boy who has to learn to live like a real live grown up. Life has been the definition of unmanagability although some things are starting to fall into place. The mountains I have created in my mind have turned out to be the molehills. Now I am being faced with the true problem, Myself and my twisted thinking.I no longer have the luxery of feigning ignorance to hide from the world. My path has been chosen for me and I must walk it. My lightning bolts have been many and now it is time."The path to the unknown eternal begins here, There are no returning footsteps"

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

BECAUSE NEIL FUCKING SAYS SO! Our Mistakes show us who is important. Time and distance prove friendships. The ones that matter survive the hardships of pain and distance. The others fall out of your life as quickly as they came in. People come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. At the time we don't have the luxuery of knowing for which. We can only make the most of the relationships while we have them, and then wait to see how they fit into the plan. I can never force anything again. The square peg will never fit into the round hole. Someday the round peg will come along, but until then I look forward to the triangles, squares, and hexagons that enter my life. I learn something from them all. Pieces of who I want to be , and pieces of what I don't

My Blog

Time to fly.

I lost myself somewhere along the way. I cant pinpoint the moment but I can say with certainty I know the reason why. So much time spent fixing the mess in my head; so much time spent fixing the mess...
Posted by on Mon, 22 Jun 2009 08:42:00 GMT

Jail is AWESOME!

As my first small period of incarceration is drawing to a close, I pause to reflect on the lessons learned in the past month. After all of the angst and worry of the past year it seems very insi...
Posted by on Wed, 07 Jan 2009 17:28:00 GMT

Crossroads

Why do I feel like I can never quite put it together? I feel as if the answer to it all is right on the tip of my tongue but I just can't get it out. There is a constant feeling of knowing somet...
Posted by on Mon, 22 Dec 2008 18:17:00 GMT

Awareness

Life sometimes get better before our messes are cleaned up, Things get easier bit by bit and things start to get a bit more managable. Or maybe my mind is just becoming more managable. It'...
Posted by on Mon, 09 Jun 2008 18:53:00 GMT

About me from 90 days ago

The last few months, a blur of confusion and pain. Complete devistation for the ones I loved the most. I destroyed everything I thought mattered. A demon caged some time back, ripped through my ...
Posted by on Sat, 10 May 2008 22:36:00 GMT

FUCK!

A new chapter unfolds, seems as if I've been here before. The wreckage of the old life coming through and haunting me in the new. It's a shame we really don't get to start over. We don't g...
Posted by on Sat, 10 May 2008 22:20:00 GMT

Inspiration

Inspirational I am told. Over and over by those that stand on the outside looking in. Those that stand beside me understand. They have lived my hell in their own lives, they have the...
Posted by on Mon, 14 Apr 2008 19:22:00 GMT

Fires

Living for today, difficult with so much to fix. It’s hard not to get into my head and want to fix all the problems all at once. I have to constanly evaluate what problems I can fix ...
Posted by on Tue, 25 Mar 2008 18:37:00 GMT

Happiness

We break ourselves against the things we put in our lives. The things we own end up owning us. We grow up with our parents examples. We learn from them...
Posted by on Thu, 20 Mar 2008 20:39:00 GMT

In between

Unrelenting mediocraty, So this is the middle I’m supposed to be finding. Not sad, not angry, not happy just.....here. This is the part so many addicts can’t stand. Everyt...
Posted by on Sat, 15 Mar 2008 13:50:00 GMT