hey whuts up...this is the one and only miss arielle dior!!! lets see a lil about me...im not an easy person to figure out...im prolly the opposite of most people or females...i dont really care for the easy road but the more difficult. rite now at this point in my life im looking out for me and nobody else. itz all about me and thats how itz gonna be till i reach my pinnacle. if u cant put up with that then dont try to be apart of my life. i have no kids...and if u havent read this u will think othewise becuz of whut my background says.but yea im not all evil there is some nice in me...it just has to be brought out .anythin that requires detail just ask me and i will answer...we were just friends
although in my world
i was his girl
and i would pretend to be his wife
sayin shit like
"there's only so many years in a woman's life..."
so i have him three
yet he had the audacity
to step to me on some donnell jones
"where i wanna be" type shit
it wasn't supposed to be like this
he hit me with the forehead kiss
told me life was a journey
and that he was ready to explore this shit
i was pissed
to me he was a hypocrite
like a fake preacher in a pulpit
and he left me sick
no he didn't choose me
and that doesn't make him right nor wrong
and i made him the epitome of my life that doesn't make me wrong nor right
like i said
I WAS HIS FRIEND, NOT HIS WIFE.
and maybe had i acted
within that capacity
this would've been "just one of those things"
instead of a fuckin' tragedy.
and all that time i spent mad at him
I SHOULD HAVE BEEN MAD AT ME.
after all i was the one that gave him keys to my house
and let him hang things in my closet
just in case we went out
not to mention washin all his dirty clothes
just to make a full load
and lettin him finish all the leftovers
so the food wouldn't go old
for the times that we raw dogged
cuz he lost all the rubbers
and cuz i showed him more support than his own
father brother sister and mother
and just cuz those same people dial my number
when they tryna get in touch
and cuz he receives mail at my address
cuz he be here so much
got total control of the remote control
to the TV, dvd and radio
and even though his name is not on my lease
he got shit in my house that's off limits to me
like his side of MY BED and his stash of weed
BUT NONE OF THIS OBLIGATES HIM TO ME
because not once did we exchange vows
and IF I KNEW THEN WHAT I KNOW NOW
i probably would've listened
when he said it was some shit he had to
get up out his system
but i was too busy bitchin
jumpin bad like i was gon' hit him
cuz in the back of my mind
all i could fathom was how bad i was gonna miss him
but just because i'm cryin doesn't mean that i'm the victim
just means i was scared to let him go
cuz some other chick might get him
and that was my fault cuz it was my decision
I SHOULD HAVE NEVER PUT MY HEART IN MY MIND'S POSITION
but i couldn't shake him
he was like a bad habit
AND ALL THIS FOR A NIGGA WHO WAS JUST AVERAGE
DOING AVERAGE NIGGA SHIT
like talkin' out the side of his neck
and thinkin with his dick
but i must admit he was the one i wanted to commit to
so either i wasn't living up to my potential
or i was just the average chick
but i choose to believe i was a woman
caught up in a feeling both physical and emotional
who was way too willing to give her all to a man
and though it may sound stupid
I WOULD DO IT ALL AGAIN
JUST NEXT TIME, FOR MY HUSBAND AND NOT THAT NIGGA I CALL MY FRIEND. fantasy layout @ HOT FreeLayouts.com MyHotComments + MyHotQuiz
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