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About Me

hi world. "You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty."-mohandas gandhi i'm different than anyone you've ever met. i am full of love. i don't give up. and i will never hate you. i have an amazing life and i cherish every moment of it. i would not be who i am without the people who surround me. each day is an oppurtunity to get better- and i plan to do that each and every single day. i try very hard to be an optimist but i am a huge worrier, its hard sometimes. i need someone to teach me how to breathe :]. i have many things that are more than i could ever ask for and i'm so thankful to be where i am today. i have my moments and i cry- i'm not like inhuman, but always always i remember to keep my chin up. this is thanks to my friends, they remind me they love me, and it helps me not give up on myself. i'm so lucky. yes in the aspects of my friends- i am very blessed. i'm very open and i'm always willing to help. ALWAYS. don't hesitate to ask me for something i'll gladly do my best to help you achieve whatever you may need. my hands are for helping- helping whoever you may be. i've learned to grow up, not give up, and hold on. i learned things don't always seem perfect and they aren't, but things will always be okay. no matter what. as long as you DON'T give up. i've learned to take each day one step at a time, to always be prepared for the worst, but hope for the best, and above all i've learned to trust, to love, to hold, and to cherish all that i have. i've learned that life is what you make of it. and i've learned that my life is wonderful.
these girls are my life
leave me your love ♥

My Interests

life isn't perfect. it is imperfect because you cannot fully appreciate its perfections untill you have faced its imperfections.

things i have a Passion for
dandelions
streetlights
dance drill
frienship
the stars
butterflies
polaroid pictures
singing loudly
the orchard
notes
doing stuff i don't usually do
big rock
meeting new people
staying out all night
sleepovers
Kurt halesy art work
smiles
liquid eyliner + fake eyelashes
wishing at 11:11
ripping straw wrappers
giving presents
cuddleling
learning new things
art
jones soda
ballet
peace signs
looking at the way people dress
forgetting about stress
BKKN
solving problems
standing in the ocean
roadtrips
rawrs. gurrs. mybaby.
goldenspoon
initializing
p.s.imy.
sunglasses
tops
drifting
allnighters
myfriendsaremyfamily.
the list goes on and on ♥

this is bkkn. a close knit unlucky group of my bestie friends & my favorite place

phahaa

I'd like to meet:

someone honest. someone with integrity. someone who realizes their mistakes and tries to fix them. someone cheerful. someone kind. someone brave. someone who won't take things for granted. of course i'd like to meet new people- i'd like to meet some that fill my life with joy and diminish my sorrows and stresses...

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Music:

indie
hardcore

anything.

obsessions currently: the rocket summer. chiodos=always. saosin. ronnie day. lovehatehero

i'm on a jones soda bottle!!!

Movies:

white oleander. grease. girl interuppted. dandelion. INTHELANDOFWOMEN. phantom of the opera
august rush

Television:

i don't really watch tv. but i guess so you think you can dance. america's next top model family guy :]

Books:

smack. gossip girls series. harry potter :] the perks of being a wallflower cut harold and the purple crayon.

Heroes:

my friends are my family. they make up most of me. these are some but NOT all of my friends. they give me air to breathe and help me breathe it
god
brandon davis: its been a good long while since i've known you and have been so close to you. a big part of everything. thats what i alway said you were my hero for. for being a big part of my everything. for knowing that we'll be best friends always. promise. for teaching me how to be happy and helping me be happy. for listening. for understanding or trying to understand who i am. for taking in many considerations. for trying so hard. for making me realize many truths about life, people, and friendships. for being my baboo. when friends walk other ways we've got eachother when time and confusion collide... i hold it all when i hold you. best friends forever.
Nicole Zimmerman: for bringing more laughter than i could ever ask for. for bending over so i can reach your shoulders to cry on. for driving to del taco, last minute because i'm sitting there crying. for smacking my butt haha. for always and forever being strong, faithful, giving, and honest. i love you more than you know. in all honesty i've never met anyone with so much to give and so deserving in my life.
Jennifer Chin: for showing me how to smile each day. for giving me someone to talk to, gossip with, and study with. for being sunshine on a rainy day. and for being Jen Knee Chin Elbow :]
Sydney Vanhorn: for putting up with everything. for going through life and being tough. for always helping me. for copying us notes for me to re-write. for taking me to disneyland! for taking me in as your sister.
Ryan Kishi: for being part of bkkn :] for hanging out with me and nicole and bran. for letting me call him bitch :]. for listening to me cry. for always giving me advice even when you're not sure how to or what to say. for giving me amazing reassurance. for helping me see the other side. forrrr being a good roadtrip driver and future roadtrip. for being my number 2 best guy friend.
kyle gilster: for always listening to me. for always explaining to me everything i ever wanted to know. for trying so hard to be a good person. for always helping me make the right decisions and helping me figure out all my problems. for just being there. for reminding me not to change who i am. for reminding me to be strong. for keeping promises. plus driving the big yukon :] and being my number 3 best guy friend.
sean nugent: for always sharing his emotions. for listening to me and helping me with many situations that i have come across in my life. for giving me more comfort than i could ask for. for caring about my goodmornings. for being one of my bubbles of happiness. for being seanily :].
aaron friedson: for always telling me the truth. for helping me learn. for always hugging me when i need comfort. for taking me into your home and offering me such a great friendship. for being my other bubble of happiness. for being honest, open, and willing to listen to me.
andrew walker: for always making me smile and for taking me to prom. for being such a great brother. for always loving me no matter what. for cracking jokes to make me smile through the hardest times. for reminding me that everything will be okay.
danny perez: for being the funniest boy i know and one of the sweetest. for trying everyday to make someone else's day brighter.
boris: for being a super genius. for introducing me to your great friends. for being super nice, but always standing up for what he believes in. for working so hard in school- i look up to him. for being logical.
abhinay appanagari: for buying me a rubix cube. for coming to starbucks because i dont like studying/being alone.for explaining to me peoples tendancies. for driving me in his car leah :].
nick hermantzis: for helping me keep my head up. for always being there- even though its usually just sitting there and me pretending i'm okay. for hanging out with me on halloween just like he said he would.
nick flowers: for teaching me how to live.
gerry padilla: for being there. always.

My Blog

its always hard.

its always hard to find the right words to say- but remember that you cannot give up. this life we lead has many complications; however, those complications should not complicate our relationships. li...
Posted by butterfly ♥ on Tue, 20 Nov 2007 04:04:00 PST

hmm. just thoughts.

you know, i never really believed that life was about growing up or giving up. i always thought it was about staying young and holding on. but i was wrong. its a bit of both. sometimes we must give up...
Posted by butterfly ♥ on Thu, 23 Aug 2007 09:24:00 PST

my heart in life.

hello darlings. Utah. remember that list of things i had to do before i die? i think i've accoplished 30 or so out of the 50. but i lost the list. so lets make a new one today. its almost christmas. a...
Posted by butterfly ♥ on Sun, 24 Dec 2006 01:19:00 PST

editions.

When we've lived, loved, and lost. It all comes down to one thing, our memories. "Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the memories we've made" I grew up in the land of beauty, ...
Posted by butterfly ♥ on Wed, 30 Nov 2005 08:27:00 PST

i found it <3

What do you think of my.....ass?pants?shirts?eyes?face?body?hair?Do you....want to make love to me?want to go camping with me?like me as a friend?as more than a friend?hmm?Would you ever...Kiss me?Hug...
Posted by butterfly ♥ on Fri, 10 Nov 2006 10:56:00 PST

these are my thoughts written down on paper.

"try and find your better half nowopen your eyes and find yourself now." whats it like to be someone,to not taste sorrow on your lips,to not hold failure at the edge of your finger tips? [i doubt my s...
Posted by butterfly ♥ on Wed, 04 Oct 2006 09:24:00 PST

inspiration for my day.

beauty is in your soul. && love is in your future. things to remember. "fate only takes you so far its up to you to do the rest." there are things you dont want to happen but you've got to...
Posted by butterfly ♥ on Tue, 01 Aug 2006 05:31:00 PST

A wAlk Down MemOrY LanE ?

The Story of Our LivesBy Kim Nguyen For Evin BrackenFebruary 2005A boy and a girl. Together caught in the whirlwind of love. They were but young only 14 and 15 however love does not care how old you a...
Posted by butterfly ♥ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

& i've missed alot of my life but i'll recover

Breathe in, Breathe out.take a moment to realax, to think, to realize what you have. Seems like times are getting tougher, we're only wishing we were younger and still all the memories become the epi...
Posted by butterfly ♥ on Sun, 26 Mar 2006 12:10:00 PST

sigh, i cannot pretend any longer.

i haven't had the motivation to write this untill now. i can't lie anymore and pretend the world is glorious. utah is falling apart. i went back last time, and its just so different. the scene is dea...
Posted by butterfly ♥ on Wed, 08 Mar 2006 07:38:00 PST