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About Me

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Horror Pictures at satanspace.comThere is no restoration, no help or salvation for me or my broken body, mind and spirit. I am lost to the eyes of the pure hearted and righteous, unseen by the higher beings of a greater plain. I am a shadow, lost to light. Unable to love or be loved, all that is left for me is suffering, doomed to be alone for all time."I would speak, but my voice has been stolen. I would cry, but my tears have been taken.By Matthew Carroll
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My Interests

Horror Pictures at satanspace.comgoing out and having fun, hanging with friends. most of all being with my kids! they are everything to me, and with out them there wouldn't be me... I also like to write poems, mainly dark and depressing poems, they're my only way i can express my feelings.

I'd like to meet:

GOD so I can tell him off for making my life as shitty as he did.... well I had some help with it but he's the one who started it first...hehehe
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Music:

I like all music except for classical and opera. My favorites are Heavy Metal and Alternative. Like danzig, slayer, evanescence,green day, linkin park, queensryche, system of a down, & so on.. But one of my all time favorite songs is the ASS HOLE Song from jimmy buffet, because were you born an ass hole or did you work at it your whole life?
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Movies:

i love comedy movies like Anchorman, Sweetiest Thing, and Half Baked. I also like watching the classics like Scarface, the Godfather, the Casino...
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Television:

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my favorite show is FAMILY GUY
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Books:

porn magazines.. hehehe just kidding
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Heroes:

my mother is my hero. even when she was on her death bed she still didn't let anything get in her way. also my children are!
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My Blog

missing her

Mother is dying by FallenforeverMother is dying,Daughter is crying,They’ve both lost hope,Without a way to cope,Pain has taken over,Both their lives,They hurt so much,There’s no disguise,...
Posted by the dee-ster on Fri, 14 Mar 2008 09:09:00 PST

I'm not okay

I promise you that I'm not okay,You may think I am,But that is one thing,That I'll probably never be.With the sadness I'm feeling,And the pain in my heart,My wrist are bleeding,And I'm falling apart.E...
Posted by the dee-ster on Thu, 30 Nov 2006 09:43:00 PST

one of those moods

this is one of my favorite songs for evanescence "Missing"Please, please forgive me,But I won't be home again.Maybe someday you'll look up,And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:"Isn't som...
Posted by the dee-ster on Thu, 16 Nov 2006 09:55:00 PST

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Dear Mommy,I miss you dearlyWhy did you have to go?I need you here Without you I fell so low.Today's your B-DayI hope you didn't spend it aloneI bet you have lots of friendsAnd heaven feels like home....
Posted by the dee-ster on Mon, 03 Apr 2006 09:58:00 PST

time to go

Couldn't have given you moreGave you everythingShould've leftBefore the sufferingWhat made me thinkThat you loved meI was blindTo blind to seeNothing will ever changeYou'll always be the sameWhich cra...
Posted by the dee-ster on Thu, 16 Mar 2006 11:51:00 PST

torn

I'm alone with all this painit's flowing thru my veinsits night where I'm atalone in the dark I sattorn all apartwith my broken heartwhat am I to dowith all this sh*t I've been thruhow am I supposed t...
Posted by the dee-ster on Thu, 16 Mar 2006 11:49:00 PST

a poem

Hate by Deanna I can't stand you, Why do you exsist? No one will cry over you, You won't be missed. Don't flatter yourself, No need to cry. For tonight, You sh...
Posted by the dee-ster on Mon, 13 Mar 2006 11:52:00 PST