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I Do Not Want 2 Die Inside Just 2 Breath In

as i put this tarnished blade to my pale skin,i think to myself.who will miss me?who will forget me?

About Me


Amy LeeAmy Lee

Music can lift us out of depression or move us to tears, it is a remedy, a tonic, orange juice for the ear. But for many of my neurological patients, music is even more,
It can provide access, even when no medication can, to movement, to speech, to life. For then, music is not a luxury, but a necessity!

EVANESCENCE - Tourniquet
i tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
i lay dying
and i'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
i'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
i'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
i want to die!!!
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will i be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide
Lyrics provided by CompleteMyspace.comEvanescence - Missing
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll have woke up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"
You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
[CHORUS]
Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
Shudder deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
[CHORUS]
And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...
[CHORUS]
Lyrics provided by CompleteMyspace.com.."0"
I wish I wasent here
I wish I wasent born
Things Are hard for me now
Things Are Difficult
I've Been Through Alot
And i can never let anything go
i can never put things behinde me
there always infront of me
and i have to push myself to get through it
but everytime
it hurts me
it kills me
it feels like knives stabbing me everywhere
i bleed so much
but i'm still alive
why?
i dont want to be alive anymore
i've gone through so much pain
and i dont want it anymore
i dont want anything
i just want to be alone
alone in silence
alone in the darkness
i want to be nothing
i wish i wasent here
i wish i wasent born
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PoetryThis is CalledNot MeI Lie awake in bed. Looking up at the ceiling. And I think to myself, "Why am i not asleep?" "It's 3:00 in the morning" And then it hits me, I sit up, Look around for a bit, I reach for something. But i don't know what I'm reaching for, And then i see it... This tarnished blade in my hand. "Oh No!" "It's back" "I need to stop" "This is not me" "This is someone else, Taking over my body" As i take the blade to my pale wrist, I scream out loud. "STOP" This isn't me, This is not who i really am. As i watch the razor scrap across my skin, All i can feel is pain. I try to stop myself, But It's too late. I can feel the blood rushing out of my body. I know its far too late to go back. All i can think about is how it wasn't me. It wasn't the girl i knew. It was someone fake. She lived in my body for so long, and now she finally let go. She let go of the pain that was inside of her. She let go of the fights. She let go of the screaming. She let everything go. She let her life go, and mine too. And now i know how she really felt, She felt trapped, She felt hopeless, She felt like no one loved her. So she took her life away, And she brought me down with her. 3:31AM. Thats when everything ended. Thats when everything went away. Thats when everything stopped. Because of someone fake, Because of someone who thought no one loved her, Because of me.
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Music can lift us out of depression or move us to tears, it is a remedy, a tonic, orange juice for the ear. But for many of my neurological patients, music is even more,
It can provide access, even when no medication can, to movement, to speech, to life. For then, music is not a luxury, but a necessity!

My Interests

-My Name Is Lucy -I'm in 10th grade At Herndon High School -I Love Monster(Energy Drink) -I Have A Brother (Dima)(16) -I Have A Sister (Masha)(20) -I'm 100% Russian -I Have Alot On Friends -I Love To Swim -My Favorite Person Is Amy Lee HartzlerPoetryits called "Nothing"I'm sitting in the darkness, nothing surrounds me, no one is there, as i put this tarnished blade to my pale skin, i think to myself. who will miss me? who will forget me? who will still love me when i'm gone? as those thoughts run through my mind. i have already cut too deep. as i become nothing, as my blood covers the floor on my room. all i can think about is you. all i could think about was how you lied to me so many times. how you broke my heart. how you left me dangaling there cold and lifeless. how i was a speck on the ground that you liked for a little bit and then you threw me back on to the ground. all i ever was to you was an unfinished book that you had forgotten about. god, i was so stupid for ever loving you. and now i know the real you. you are fake. your not real to me anymore. your nothing to me now. while those thoughts start to fade away. i am dead. i am silent. am i nothing. i have faded into this perfect death. and you know what? its all because of you. arn't you just the lucky one. you made my life like this. and you have yourself to blame for that.~R.I.P. Lucy~she will be missed.................by no one.

I'd like to meet:

i would like to meet any one who is cool liek not boring or mean cuzz mean peopel are dumb so i dont want to meet themVille Valo Being Funny! .. width="425" height="350" ..
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Music:

'N sync, 12 stones, AFI, A Life Once Lost, A Thorn for every heart accept, American nightmare, anti-flag, Armor for sleep, As hope dies, as i lay dying, Avenged sevenfold, Alanis morissette, alien ant farm, all-American rejects, Antonio banderas and eddie Murphy, audieoslave, autopilot off, axel f, backstreet boys, blue October, blink-182, the break, breaking Benjamin, Bukethead, bon jovi, bowling for soup, boysetsfire, Britney spears, Bullet For My Valentine, the calling, cascada, chevelle, Chris Tomlin, counting crows, Coldplay, crown of thornz, the crown, Creed, Crossbreed, Crossfade, dana glover, DDR dixie chicks, drowning pool, rob zombie, eddie Murphy, eels, eternal tears of sorrow, endo, enya, Evanescence, everlast, everclear, faith hill, fall out boy, film dialogue, finger eleven, flyleaf, the fray, frou frou, foo fighters, frantic bleep, from first to last, fuel, Gloria gaynor, Graeme revell and mike einziger, Green Day, guns N' Roses, harry gregson-Williams and john powell, Hilary duff, HIM, Hinder, hoobastank, jason wade, jennifer saunders, jet, john debney, jojo, kelly clakson, the killers, korn, leahy, led zeppelin, leslie carter, linkin park, living sacrifice, lynyrd skynyrd, madanna, maroon 5, mushroomhead, MXPX, my chemical romance, matchbox twenty, the matches, nickleback, N.E.R.D. New Found Glory, Nirvana, panic! at the disco, paloalto, papa roach, pete yorn, pink, pink floyd, the proclaimers, revis, rise against, refus wainwright, saliva, seether, seether Ft. Amy Lee, Amy lee, shakira, shinedown, simple plan, smash mouth, staind, sugarcult, switch foot, system of a down, three days grace, within temptation, yellowcard, dragonforce, bleeding through, weezer, goo goo dolls. Nocturnus, Pig Destroyer, Pixies, POD, Queen, Rage against the machine, Relient K Senses Fail, Shadows Fall, Six Feet Under, Smashing Pumpkins, SwitchFoot, Taking Back Sunday, thrice, tool, the used, van halen, with broken wings, American Nightmare, The Break, Buckcherry, Buckethead, Crown of Thornz, The Crown, Eternal Tears of Sorrow, Hawthorne Heights, Living Sacrifice, Lynyrd Skynyrd, N.E.R.D., Nocturnus, Pink Floyd, System of a Down, Fort minor, Yellowcard, The Early November, The Vandals, Thousand Foot Crutch, Suicide Note, Suicidal Tendencies, The Misfits, Mindless Self Indulgence, Kill Hannah, The Juliana Theory, Atreyu, The Kinks, Sum 41, Bowling For Soup, Chixdiggit, Mest, Americam Hi-Fi, Alkaline Trio, Guttermouth, Reel Big Fish, Gunpowder, Bad Religion, H2O, The Explosion, Minor Threat, Story Of The Year, The Starting Line, The F Ups, Send More Paramedics, Allister, A Handgun Romance, PenKnifeLoveLife, The Distillers, Go Betty Go, Sublime, Suicide Machines, The Sex Pistols, The Who, The Clash, Unwritten Law, NOFX, Matchbook Romance, Boys Night Out, Trivium, From Autumn To Ashes, The Fall Of Troy, The Full Effect, Alexisonfire, The Blood Brothers, Death Cab For Cutie, Plain White T's, Hidden In Plain View, Finch, UnderOath, The Birthday Massacre, Hellogoodbye, A Static Lullaby, The Hives, Hawk Nelson Silverstein, Trust Company.

Movies:

Pirates Of The Caribbean:Curse Of The Black pearl Pirates Of The Caribbean:Dead Man's Chest Pirates Of The Caribbean:At World's End Harry Potter And The Order Of The Phoenix No Reservations Ratatouille Rush Hour 3 The Simpsons Movie Stardust 300 Pathfinder The Host Ghost Rider Bridge To Terabithia Spider Man 1 Spider Man 2 Spider Man 3 Children Of Men Eragon Casino Royale Mission Impossible 1 Mission Impossible 2 Mission Impossible 3 V For Vendetta Hot Fuzz Mr.& Mrs.Smith Shanghai Noon Rush Hour Kill Bill Vol.1 Kill Bill Vol.2 The Bourne Identity The Bourne Supremacy The Bourne Ultimatum Night At The Museum Happy Feet Finding Nemo Chicken Run Cast Away Catch Me If You Can Minority Report World Trade Center The Perfect Storm Titanic Holes The Interpreter Disturbia The Messengers Hannibal Rising Saw 1 saw 2 saw 3 Sings

Television:

Moonlight, Viva La Bam, Rock Of Love, Rock Of Love 2, Prison Break, NCIS, Alias, Xena: Warrior Princess, Dog the Bounty Hunter, Miami Vice, The Accuser, American Idol, CSI, CSI:Miami, CSI:NY, Crossing Jorden, Emergency, Heros, House, Lost, According to Jim, Ace of Cakes, The Amazing Race, Americas Funniest Home Videos, Americas Most Smartest Model, Americas Next Top Model, American Chopper, Bionic Woman, Boston Legal, Boy Meets World, ER, Everybody Loves Raymond, Extreme Makeover:Home Edition, Fear Factor, The First 48, Friends, Ghost Whisper, Grey's Anatomy, Hannah Montana, Hell's Kitchen, Hogan Knows Best, Iron Chef, Iron Chef America, Invader ZIM, Invasion, Jackass, Braceface, Buffy the vampire slayer, Cash Cab, Cashmere Mafia, Celebrity Rehab, Celebrity Deathmatch, Chuck, The Closer, Cold Case, Criminal Minds, Dead Like Me, Desperate Housewives, Dirty Jobs, Dirty Sexy Money, The Ellen DeGeneres Show, NYPD Blue, The O.C., October Road, The Office, Oprah, Paranormal State, Pimp My Ride, The Practice, Prime Suspect, Private Practice, Project Catwalk(UK), Project Runway, Punk'd, Pushing Daisies, Kim Possible, The King of Queens, Kitchen Nightmares, Law & Order, Law & Order:Criminal Intent, Law & Order:Special Victims unit, MADtv, Miami Ink, MTV Cribs, MTV Movie awards, MTV Unplugged, MTV Video Music awards, Mythbusters, The Nanny, Nip/Tuck, Numb3rs, The Real World, Samantha Who?, Sex And the City, The Shield, South Park, SpongeBob Squarepants, Survivor, That '70s Show, TNA Impact, Top Chef, Ugly Betty, The Unit, Without A Trace, Wildboyz, Will & Grace, The X-Files,

Books:

Vampire Books,Where The Red Fern Grows, The Cay

Heroes:

Alex O'Longhlin Amy Lee

My Blog

Self Harm [Trigger Warning]

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Nothing

"Nothing"I'm sitting in the darkness,nothing surrounds me,no one is there,as i put this tarnished blade to mypale skin, i think to myself.who will miss me?who will forget me?who will still love me whe...
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Spring Break!

O My Gosh! Spring Break is finally here, I’m so Happy..I’ve been waiting for this for so long, and its finally here!! well what i’m going to do for my spring break is... on tuesday m...
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My Birthday

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Forget me

As I walk alone the crowded street  No one dares to look at me  No one even glances  Do they even see me? Or am I just a shadow they can’t see  As I keep walking I bump into...
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Drip Drip Drip

My mom calls me for dinner  I run downstairs  I sit down We start to eat  Everything was fine until,  My mom brought up the subject  I knew it was coming  But I didn&rsq...
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