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Hey to anyone bored enough to read this. I'm Lay, I'm generally classified as a goth, although there's a lot more to me than that. My style changes a lot, I don't just wear black, but I don't mind the term 'goth' because I love reading gothic literature, looking at and creating gothic/dark art, and I like music that generally falls in the subgenre, as well as things from a variety of other genres. I have a huge music and movie obsession. I write a lot of poetry and play bass (badly). I'm also focused on developing my ability to write short stories and novels, but I find myself easily distracted. I love anything by Stephen King, books or movies, my favourites being Carrie, Insomnia, IT, The Dark Half, Rose Red (mini series), Misery, Cell and Pet Semetary. I love the Rocky Horror Picture Show, Shock Treatment, Cry Baby, Cannibal the Musical, Little Shop of Horrors, Captain Invincible, Hairspray... and basically any other odd musical. I also love making clothes, especially pretty dresses. I'm a vegetarian, although not because of cruelty, because meat made me throw up. I believe the only reason for killing is for food, the way other animals do, instead of for fun like people do. Killing is not sport, unless it's people hunting! How fun would that be? In my mind one night I created peopling while watching the fishing channel... you know how they catch fish and make them suffocate on air, then throw them back... Why don't we do the same to people? Catch them, hold their heads under water and make them think we're going to kill them... then let them run free. The reason we don't do it... We'd go to jail for attempted murder. I'll shut up now before I go on a rant. I LOVE TROMA! Lloyd Kaufman is a genious. I would love to work with him one day! I like moonlight, full moons are so pretty! I like walking in the rain when it's not ridiculously freezing, and hugging and kissing in the rain... how cute?? I love to dance outside in the rain. I love to dance anyway, in clubs (although I don't really club often) or at intimate gigs or parties or pubs. I also like piercings and tattoos; I have my ears pierced twice, my nose pierced twice, my lip pierced twice, my cheeks pierced and my bridge pierced (except that's grown out now). I also have 15 tattoos technically, except I've been to the tattoo studio numerous more times because I'm constantly extending them, so I can't accurately keep count any more. I love my high heels and clothes! I love anything PVC, especially cute short dresses and basques. I absolutely love dressing up, for any reason, even if it's just to go down town. I have loads of fancy dress outfits, just because I can't resist buying them. I like standing out in a crowd. I'm addicted to shopping online, I'm constantly buying new dresses. I love my friends to pieces, they know who they are, and they're awesome. They have helped me through many a bad time, and I want to thank them for it. I'm very opinionated, even though sometimes my opinion doesn't seem to make sense to others... it usually makes sense to me.
VOODOO GIRL by Tim Burton
Her skin is white cloth,
and she's all sewn apart
and she has many pins
sticking out of her heart.
She has a beautiful set
of hypno-disk eyes,
the ones that she uses
to hypnotize guys.
She has many different zombies
who are deeply in her trance.
She even has a zombie
who was originally from France.
But she knows she has a curse on her,
a curse she cannot win.
For if someone gets
too close to her
the pins stick farther in
RANDOM STUFF ABOUT ME!
I love glitter
I prefer to be cold than hot
I'm envious
I hate marmite
I prefer candle light to sunlight
I'm always searching for perfection
When I think perfection is there, then I look for flaws
I want to know how everyone eats their Cadbury's Creme Eggs!
I collect gothic/dragon ornaments
I collect tiara's
I'm addicted to strawberry jelly and ice cream panda pops
I probably wish I was you
I'm insecure, yet I model
People touching my neck makes me tingle all over
I lie to myself
I'm constantly quitting drinking then starting again
I waste money
I love buying things for people I care about
I buy new books and DVD's whenever I can afford to
I love dressing like a fairy
The bottom of my back is really sensitive
I'm not ticklish
I know more than you think I do
I'm not trusting
I hate how I look, but I love taking photos of myself
I make clothes
I Love strong women
If I want something I'll get it... then I'll get bored of it
My Rockwood Pro bass guitar means more to me than I do
suicide girls accepted me, but I haven't done my shoot yet
I poke people just coz I can
I can be manipulative
I love candy canes but I hate Christmas
My Birthday is May 1st, which also falls on Walpurgisnacht (30th April - 1st May), one of the biggest Satanic holidays
I'm not religious but I love reading about religion
I used to be a Wiccan
I love being naked, but hate looking at me naked
I love candyfloss but generally refuse to eat it
I love halloween
I rush things, but try to make them perfect
I'm never satisfied with what I do
I love writing poetry
I'm messy, but when I start I clean obsessively
I have millions of scribble books
I don't remember what I've written in most of them
I'm agorophobic, I haven't left my house alone in years
I like going out on a leash
I have a tendency to self-sabotage
I fake smiles
If you get close to me I'll probably push you away
I make no sense to most people
I'm generally more attracted to girls than guys
But sometimes a guy slips through and drives me crazy!
I cry a lot
I love the taste of blood
I love eyeliner
I'm very high maintenance
I love painting
I'm obsessive when I like someone
I'm accident prone
I find really random things funny
My personality can change from one second to the next
I'm completely sadistic
I chainsmoke when I'm depressed
I love suspenders and stockings
I laugh during horror movies
I have no ambition
But I keep trying to find some
I love taking photos, but haven't sorted out when I'm doing proper shoots for model friends of mine yet
I love lollipops
I spend a lot of time alone
I have a lot of opinions, I just sometimes cant say them outloud
I'm fascinated with serial killers and criminals, I want to know if they think how I think
So many people turn to me with their problems, and I will always be there for them
My therapist told me I should be a therapist
I find beauty in every day life
But there's more ugliness that overpowers it
I'm scared of trusting people
I get scared when people shout at me
My mind keeps me awake
My thoughts are always so intense that they give me migraines
The doctors can never find out what's wrong with me, because its something new every few weeks
I'm scared of being alone, but most people I avoid
I talk a lot of nonsense!
Otep - Blood Pigs
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HE WANTED MORE,
WANTED A SILENCED WHORE,
YOU WERE MY LIFE,
KILL ME NOW AND BURN MY SOUL
I FEEL LIKE A HAMMER,
I FEEL LIKE A NAIL,
I FEEL LIKE I'M GUILTY,
I FEEL LIKE THE WRIST THAT IT IMPALES.
