...I will be rewriting my profile in the near future...
For my Friends
When you’re happy, I shall stand behind you in the shadow and smile with you.
When you’re sad, I will make you smile again.
When you cry, I will step out of the shadow, and hold you in my arms to comfort you.
When you fall I you’ll feel my arms around you keeping you on your feet.
When you’re world is falling apart around you, I will stand by you, and carry you to safety...
For my Inner Circle
You’re the one who stands behind me.
You’re the one who sees the man behind the façade.
You’re the one who’s shoulder I cry on.
You’re my strength when I am weak.
It’s your arms I feel around me, when the ground I walk on, falls from under my feet...
For my Beloved, my Companion,
the One that I hold Dearest... my Soulmate
You forged my heart, in the heat of passion and the flames of Hell.
You are the one, who makes my heart soar, high in the heavens.
You are the only light, in my Darkest Night.
You are my Strength, when I am weak.
You are the Beauty, in the eyes that I behold.
I can walk this Earth alone.
I can Fight my own Battles.
I can Live this Life, for just myself.
I do not need you, but I do want you by my side...
About Me
Prelude
Before you add me, I don't care if you read my profile or not. But I WILL READ YOURS! Just so you know. :)
Also, I will give everyone a chance to get to know me. But do yourself a favor, and READ my profile first and decide am I the kind of person you want to get in touch with. If not, then don't bother. I am not desperate to get in touch with people, I rather have qualithy people, who're interesting, than large numbers of people who're boring, or can't handle the way I am...
Introduction
Welcome... to my profile. Make no mistake, after you have read this profile, you don't know me. You will only have had a taste, of what is waiting for you... should I let you enter my Darkness. The only way in, is through me, speak to me, and be nice... Hahaha, yes that would be the only way to really get to know me... Any other way is only an illusion... So if you would like a taste of it, read on...
Birth
Every single one of us, has lived a thousand life times. Every one of us, will die and be reborn. Only few, have the honor, or being reborn in a lifetime, reborn to their true home.
I was born into this world on November 12th, 1978 in Velp... I was reborn to Darkness, December 11th, 2004 in Arnhem. It was on that very day, that I found the place where I belong... in the Darkness... One could say, I was... Touched in the Dark (I know, private joke) ;)
My Signs
On the day I was born, nov. 12th, the sun was in the constelation of Scorpio, the 8th house :) The moon was in the constellation of Aquarius. This means I am a Scorpio with the facade of an Aquarius :)
As said, being born under the sign of Scorpio, means being born in the 8th house of the Zodiac. The 8th house is concerned with such things as Sex, Death, Rebirth and other people's money (now I leave it to your imagination what that combination could mean).
What I am, is Scorpio... What I show to the world, is Aquarius :) (Hehe, you see Aquarius, you GET Scorpio :) Oh baby, you're SOOO in for a surprise :)
According to Chinese Astrology, the year in which I was born 1978, makes me a Horse, or more Specific an Earth Horse :) Meaning, I am still wild and free, but the elemental Earth kinda, calms it down a little :)
Accomplishments
I am a Second Degree Initiate, Reiki Healer
I have a 4th Kyu Grade Jiu Jiutsu (Orange belt)
Believes
My believes are myriad, and I like to think I am an open minded person. Only just closed enough minded in order to keep my brain inside :) I do not like to think within the "normal" boundaries in which most people think. I'm... what one may call... a free thinker... by others also called, a dreamer :)~ I am willing to believe a lot, but above all those things.... that can potentially be put to the test. I have a conciously chosen not to follow any... premade religion. Think about it, ANY religion that claims to be, "the only one" is telling blatand lies. Religion is a believe, not a fact. If one claims their's is (historical) "fact" then mmm... I'd love to see the evidence. REAL HARD evidence. Course... to a certain extend, I will still believe, but I am one, who choses experience above faith. Faith is flawed and makes you vulnerable to abuse by other HUMAN beings. I have yet to meet the first deity who's going to dictate me a book, or grands me so many wishes. Ofcourse when this should happen, I'll make it known to the world, and ofcourse you'll all have to follow me blindly *WEG*
Attractions
Right, when it comes to women, I tend to be first enchanted by their eyes, no set preference, but eyes are important I think, makeup included in this. Secondary, I really like to watch women wear corsets and high heeled boots :) I wouldn't go as far as saying I have a boot fetish, but I do love boots and corsets :) And ofcourse I am attracted to natural beauty :) Or something that I would define as such. But a decent intellect is just, if not even more, important. In the end of the day, we'll all grow old and ugly. I know there's those who grow old and beautiful, but mostly... beauty fades... and all that remains, are memories of time long gone. Pictures of beauty lost. If only... we could preserve it some how... But either way... to get to the bare bone basics... when we're old and sex is less important, there'd better be something to take it's place... And I like to think... it's nice if we start practising our old day activities on an early age. So you know what you'll have later ;)
Messengers
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Death
The one guarantee in life, the one thing that is sure after you're birth, is Death. Though I think my ideas of death may not be that of the mainstream. Death to me... is not the end. In fact, I am not even sure if there really IS an end at all. Though us human beings might have a hard time comprehending such a thing as a void or eternity. If you look around you, and see, not watch, but see... then it might occur to you that nothing seems to ever end. The seasons, one after another, always come again, time after time. I do believe it is the same with one's soul. One's... immortal soul. Time after time, we are born and we die again, or rather, we are born into this world to leave it again after some time. Some time in which we are not flesh. A time, in which, we can learn the lessons this lifetime has tried to teach us. While being in the flesh we might, let's say... be too distracted to oversee life's lessons. As such neither do I believe that Death is a state. It's not, Death is a means of transition, a such as melting is the transition from a solid state to a fluid one. So is Death only a transition from the flesh back to one's original spririt form.
My personal beliefs on Death, is also that those we percieve as Dead, are still amongst us. And I also believe that those we love (and also those we do not love for that matter) who have passed before us, will stay amongst us. At least for some time, don't ask me how long, I am not a damned priest you know. With this comes my idea, that it should be possible to... contact the other side. Things always work both ways, if the dead can come back to haunt the living, well let me put it this way. I still do have some, unfinished business with some beloved friends who have passed before their and my time. And I ain't going to sit here and wait until they come to haunt me... I will leave it up to your imagination what I mean by that. Still I believe it is possible to contact the other side. Though I do not intent to use such things for this as Quija boards either.
Also I believe it is possible to visite the spirit realm. Though I have as of yet not accomplished this in this mortal life, practice makes perfect :)
In case you have not yet caught on to it yet, yes I have a deep fasination (if not obsession) with Death. However, do not confuse this with a deathwish or being depressed. I love and live life with the same passion with which I seek to uncover the secret of Death. For I personally believe that in uncovering the secret of Death, I shall find the secret to life eternal. :) And life eternal is exactly what I need to study all the things I seek to study in this life time :)
