wuddup bitches ehhh..well i dont have that much to say. a first i think. this is just gunna be pretty much how i think feel what i like love hate annoys me so on and so forth.. pretty much the essence of Michelle, as it stands. i'm a shore girl through and through just moved back to middletown. i have a three old brother sister and a 3 1/2 yr old niece which i love more than life itself. imma fuck up. but somehow i manage to trudge through and smile, cause i'm the eternal fucking optimist. i currently work waaaaaay too much but such is life. music is my life. i'm a nature girl, fuck i'd rather go camping on an island with a boathouse than go stay at a nice hotel. i'm so cynical towards love, but really, its all i wantto do is be head of heels in love w/ someone who feels the same. i have a truckers mouth, and talk a lot shit, but like the song says, i don't like to fight but i ain't scared to bleed. i think its sad that my shoe size is higher than george w.s i.q. and the state of this country is pathetic cause we all just sit back and let it happen. i'm a great mix of confident and insecure, opinionated and open minded, the warmest hearted, but oh so cold hearted at times. i believe fully in the right the speak your mind, i like smoke more than air, and i have a great theory on how school is the root of all evil and then i'll leave ya hangin ... you go to school to gain knowledge, knowledge leads to power, power leads to eventual corruption, and of course corruption is evil. but yeah im gunna go cause high rambling is fun but enough is enough i'm an emo bitch laugh it up... when high tide rises, i'll stand in the sand bar wait for the water to rupture my lungs drowning feels better than feeling your bitter lips fill my veins with this miasma sweeter than rotting from the inside every second i share the air you breath another piece of me falls off dead if im swallowing your lies i'll just as well grind up glass and drink it with a shot of whiskey let me bleed internally. better than letting you bleed me eternally.......... Here's another lovely poem.....if all I ever see is - black skies, bitter lies, and dead, empty skies, Whats left for me but to realize Theres nothing more then a slow demise with no escape, no compromise. I'll relate from these lips only the barest of sighs, which hardly implies all I meant to criticize, what even the hell-born decrise which only begins to belie what really lies deep inside- A bitter vengeful heart as another's hope suddenly dies............ And yet another.................Choke myself of all emotion. Never feel again. Don't have to shudder when your hand slides down my cheek. Dead inside, its what you wanted, right? If I'm empty you can't feel my disgust. Kept in bitter silence, my lips will cease to tremble with rage. Broken, beaten down, bloody utterly useless case of human flesh.
