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Athenais

The Empress of Nerds

About Me


I can swear in 13 languages. I cried when George Bush was re-elected. I stand up for myself and I am more than likely going to stand up for you as well. I have a nearly five year old pint-sized hellion of a daughter who frequently teaches me all over again how fresh and amazing the world is. I love more passionately than I could ever hate. I am an idealist and I believe that random acts of kindness can cure if not all, then quite a lot. I am an artist, though I don’t often show my work to anyone. This is not because I am frightened of someone’s opinion but simply because no one has ever asked. I am a writer. I am a soprano and singer since I was 5, and began classical training from 7-20 years of age. I am quite blunt, please don’t take that for aggression. I simply say what I mean and mean what I say. I think violence as a solution to a problem is much like a stomach ulcer. Eventually it will eat away the lining you throw up to protect yourself from it and cause great damage to yourself. Think about that the next time you vomit blood. I get bored easily. My heart still hurts when I see starving children on TV and I think this is a good thing. I have several pet peeves. People who whine about how their lives suck and who don’t lift a finger to stop the suckage. People who troll my blog looking for my miseries to capitalize on. I’m going to wear red at my wedding because I can. I believe myself to be intelligent and kind with the knowledge that there are many more people who are kinder and more intelligent. Some people wonder why I consider being called a bitch a compliment. If you’ve ever read the book Cunt by Inga Muscio you would understand why. But I’ll leave it at this: it really IS a declaration of independence. I believe that sex is sacred and only meant to be shared with the ones who consider the heart and brain behind the breasts and quinny to be sacred as well. I am by no means prude. My curiosity surpasses all normal concepts of greed. I love to read, preferably in the tub with really hot water. Some people call me egotistical and I wonder why they mistake my self confidence for that. I have a wicked and decadent sense of humor and I dearly love to laugh.
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My Interests

my daughter, astronomy, swimming, writing, mathematics, physics, museums, opera, art in all of its forms, medieval history, anatomy, gay rights, beautiful people (not talking about looks), european royalty history, designing clothing (especially plus sized gowns), 80s music, a cold amethyst heart, ab fab, absinthe, affection, and one, anne rice, apoptygma berzerk, arabic, art, assemblage 23, astronomy and astrophysics, autumn, awesome books, bella morte, bhagavad-gita, biology, black eyeliner, black lace, black lipstick, body piercing, brocade, cemeteries, chocolate, christian lacroix, cloaks, clothes, clubs, computer games, conan o brian, corsets, costume design, costumes, costuming, covenant, cruxshadows, culture null, dancing, dark ambient, dark wave, david bowie, dead can dance, delerium, depeche mode, digital art, dorky stuff, e nomine, edward scissor hands, environmentalism, erotic photography, erotica, evolution, existentialism, eye contact, fabrics, fairies, fairy tales, fantasy, fashion design, feminine pride, fetish, fiona apple, folk music, fountain pens, friedrich nietzsche, friends, girls with spunk, glitter, goth, goth bands, goth clubs, gothic, great food, hand cuffs, haven, hippies, indian food, industrial, iris, kindness, kissing, lace, language, latin, leather, leonard cohen, lollipops, love, mathematics, medieval, medieval history, metaphysics, music, nightclubs, nosferatu, occam's razor, oil painting, old lace, peace, photography, physics, piano, pisces, placebo, plants, poe, poetry, porn, privacy, rainbows, rasputina, reading, renaissance, road trips, role playing, role-playing, romance, sanskrit, sci-fi, sensuality, sewing, sex, singing, spanking, sufism, surrealism, sylvia plath, the beatles, the cure, the little mermaid, the lost boys, the moon, the sisters of mercy, theater, theme parties, tori amos, vegetarianism, velvet, victorian, vnv nation, vocals, watching my daughter grow, wolfsheim, writing, chess, go, laughing, porn bloopers, singing, writing poems, writing music, sewing, dancing in the rain, books, the woods, reading, haven, my friends, making love, and bitching about anything I see fit to.

I'd like to meet:


People with honor, spirit, intelligence, wit, humor, love, heart. Lewis Black. Tori Amos. Jean Paul Gaultier.

Music:

I trained in opera in middle school, high school and college so opera is my first love. Oooooh here's the list PORTISHEAD, DRESDEN DOLLS, TORI AMOS, Anonymous Four, Antigone Rising, Cruxshadows, Jimmy Buffett, Jim Croce, Elliot Smith, The Fugees, Fleetwood Mac, billie holiday, black tape for a blue girl, dido, clem snide, ani difranco, vnv nation, delerium, lords of acid, old madonna, revolting cocks, fictional, fiction 8, garbage, paul newman, peter murphy, goldfrapp, girls under glass, ministry, ohgr, nin, RASPUTINA, razed in black, seabound, siouxie and the banshees, sisters of mercy, the ramones, project pitchfork, THE CURE, Velvet Acid Christ, Voltaire, THE BEATLES wolfsheim, bella morte, apoptygma berzerk, and one, concrete blonde, simon and garfunkel, cursed life, mozart, tears for fears, COUNTING CROWS, pachelbel, rachmaninoff, faure, richard einhorn, beastie boys, aerosmith, alison krauss, bjork, bob seager, black eye peas, fiona apple, hootie and the blowfish, erykah badu, green day, nappy roots, nirvana, offspring, queen, RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE, MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE, THE WHITE STRIPES, HED PE, and one, bauhaus, beborn beton, bella morte, collide, combichrist, covenant, das ich, deine lakaien, depeche mode, diary of dreams, duran duran, enomine, feindflug, front 242, grendel, hocico, imogen heap, joy division, kmfdm, l'ame imortelle, ladytron, pet shop boys, placebo, rammstein, seabound, siouxsie and the banshees, switchblade symphony, terrorfakt, the cranes, the killers, bob dylan, don mclean, melanie safka, billie holiday, ella fitzgerald, the temptations, and many many more.

Movies:

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, pi, fight club, legend, lord of the rings, city of joy, sense and sensibility, cold mountain, my fair lady, kill bill, a clockwork orange, the Fifth Element, requiem for a dream, run lola run, the birds, Lagaan, Edward Scissorhands, lost in translation, pretty much everything Deepa Mehta has ever directed like Water, Earth, Fire. Monsoon wedding, hotel rwanda, blood diamond...are you catching a theme? I love movies about Africa and India. I'm an indiophile. Apocalypto, Phat Girls, The Pursuit of Happyness, Groundhog Day, Satyajit Ray's Apu Trilogy, Un Chien Andalou by Salvador Dali, Stranger Than Fiction, Memoirs of a Geisha, everything M Night Shamalan has ever done, Little Miss Sunshine, An Inconvenient Truth, Naked Lunch, The Fly 80's version, Space Balls, Shaun of the Dead, Independence Day,

Television:

Heroes. But I honestly prefer reading to watching TV.

Books:

Ooooh there's so many I could list. I own 3,000 books and it's my dream to have wall to wall books in the home that I buy. I will read anything. And by anything I mean, religious spiritual guides, like the bible and the Gita, textbooks, Cold Mountain, East of Eden and anything by John Steinbeck, Robert Tanenbaum, Robert Jordan, Margaret Atwood, Neil Gaiman, Douglas Adams, Machiavelli, Neitsche, the list goes on and on.

Heroes:

Paul Rusesabagina, Geoff Marcy, Corporal Peter John Rooney III.

My Blog

So random.

Rose, I ask you why. WHY?...
Posted by Athenais on Sun, 01 Jun 2008 04:00:00 PST

Won’t you be my neighbor?

I'm beginning to get rather fond of my neighborhood. I live on C Ave in Springfield. We're in the Forest Park district, which means we live by some pretty fancy Victorians, which I lust over daily. My...
Posted by Athenais on Fri, 30 May 2008 08:43:00 PST

Children, drugs are bad.

I am so high right now. We just got back from the dentist where I had 4 shots of novocaine. I fucking hate novocaine. 5 hours after some dentist I try to bite sticks a nine foot long needle into my br...
Posted by Athenais on Tue, 27 May 2008 09:01:00 PST

flips everyone the bird.

So yesterday afternoon I went to take a quick 45 minute nap and somehow that turned into 4 hours. I woke up and Kristan was there. I got up but I still couldn't open my eyes and everyone was laughing ...
Posted by Athenais on Mon, 26 May 2008 09:12:00 PST

Yesterdays and todays and tomorrows

I ran around yesterday rather like a chicken with its head cut off. I spent a lot of time cleaning the sewing room, organizing bits of things to streamline the process and make life easier. I also did...
Posted by Athenais on Thu, 22 May 2008 03:00:00 PST

New clothes!

This pleating was a bitch. It alone took me something like 4 hours. The fabric was hell to work with in such tiny proximity. And I had to hand tack the binding because of it being such a small piece.&...
Posted by Athenais on Sun, 18 May 2008 09:49:00 PST

Nostalgia

I woke up late this morning and Mo and Rose weren't there. I was sad. Then they came home like...30 minutes later with basil and rosemary pots from our favorite roadside stand so all is forgiven. I lo...
Posted by Athenais on Sat, 17 May 2008 03:38:00 PST

Last nights work; new babydoll dress

There. I finally accomplished something tonight. And it only took 5.5 hours. Fucker. Well, I did take my sweet ass time with the zig zag stitch on the bottom hems and also ran into a few snags with th...
Posted by Athenais on Mon, 12 May 2008 08:16:00 PST

Freeeeeeeeeeeedom!!!!

I put in my two weeks notice today. Last day is May 23rd. I could whine about the soul suckage at work but I just don't care anymore. I want out and I want to be happy. I'm not happy working for Comca...
Posted by Athenais on Sun, 11 May 2008 10:53:00 PST

New clothes!

A photoshoot with some of my new clothes and fabric Photos by rubicatClothing by Athenais DesignsModel: Kristan (frozen) ...
Posted by Athenais on Wed, 07 May 2008 06:29:00 PST