This box WAS left blank ... But, seeing as I don't care if people OUTSIDE of my friends list sees it (thanks to myspace's new privacy settings), I don't mind sharing it with the world. Haha. It's boring. So bare with me ;]
I'm, obviously, a 26 year old female ;]
I don't put up with people's shit. If you have somethin you wanna say, just say it. I don't have time for games.
I don't enjoy having stalkers; Fuck you. :]
I am who I am. Deal with it or blow off. If you hate or dislike me, remember: I could care less because you probably barely know me. I'm not all too bad. Really. Perhaps you can't stand me for some reason or another? Get over it. :] I am not here to please anyone but my kids and family.
I am a lover of people but have a keen fear of life, which holds me back from really enjoying social situations & opening up and trusting any particular situation. I fear rejection and the unknown. I fear failure. Hehe.
I am NOT on myspace to meet anyone in particular. Not to meet that 'special someone,' (not that that is not possible) and not to screw around or stalk or play games. I am just simply me.
I don't really know what else to say about me, personally. I'm kind of a private person, really. And i've chosen to walk in a world that has battered my hopes and tainted my trust. I do consider myself a survivor.
Love
Love is a funny thing to describe.
It's so easy to feel and yet so slippery to talk about. It's like a bar of soap in the bathtub - you have it in your hand until you hold onto it too tight.
Some people spend their lives looking for love outside of themselves.
They think they have to grasp it in order to have it. But love slips away like that wet bar of soap.
Holding onto love is not wrong, but you need to learn to hold it lightly, caressingly.
Let it fly when it wants. When it's allowed to be free, love is what makes life alive, joyful, and new.
It's the juice and energy that motivates my music, my dancing, everything.
As long as love is in my heart, it's everywhere {MJ -- Dancing the dream}
Trust
As I was feeding squirrels in the park, I noticed a small one that didn't want to trust me. While others came close enough to eat out of my hand, he kept his distance.
I threw a peanut his way. He edged up, grabbed it nervously, and ran off. Next time he must have felt less afraid, because he came a little closer.
The safer he felt, the more he trusted me. Finally he sat right at my feet, bold as any squirrel clamoring for the next peanut.
Trust is like that - it always seems to come down to trusting in yourself. Others can't overcome fear for you; you have to do it on your own. It's hard, because fear and doubt hold on tight.
We are afraid of being rejected, of being hurt once more. So, we keep a safe distance. We think separating ourselves from others will protect us, but that doesn't work, either.
It leaves us feeling alone and unloved.
Trusting yourself begins by recognizing that it's okay to be afraid. Having fear is not the problem, because everyone feels anxious and insecure sometimes.
The problem is not being honest enough to admit your fear. Whenever I accept my own doubt and insecurity, I am more open to other people.
The deeper I go into myself, the stronger I become, because I realize that my real self is much bigger than any fear.
In accepting yourself completely, trust becomes complete. There is no longer any separation between people, because there is no longer any separation inside.
In the space where fear USED to live, LOVE is allowed to GROW. {MJ -- Dancing the Dream}
Dear Lie [TLC]
Dear lie
You suck
You said you could fix anything
Instead I'm fucked
You made things even worse for me
If I had balls I'd tell you get away from me
Guess I'm not smart
I let you unnerve me
I let you control me
Afraid the truth would hurt me
When it's you that hurts me more
Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin' words in my head
Get outta my mouth
You're nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me
Out of me (out of me)
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie
Dear lie
You're dumb
You think you've got the best of me
You think you've won
Misread my vulnerability
I've got your balls
Now get the hell away from me
I've learned your heart
Won't let you unnerve me
Won't let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ On the Line [Michael Jackson]
No sense pretending its over
Hard times just don't go away
You gotta take that chip off your shoulder
It's time you open up
Have some faith
Nothing good ever comes easy
All good things come in due time
[Yes it does]
You gotta have something to believe in
I'm telling you to open your mind
Gotta put your heart on the line
If you wanna make it right
You've got to reach out and try
Gotta put your heart on the line
If you wanna make it right
Gotta put it all on the line
You see yourself in the mirror
And you don't like what you see
And things aren't getting much clearer
Don't you think it's time you go for a change
Don't waste your time on the past, no.
It's time you look to the future
It's all right there if you ask
This time if you try much harder
You'll be the best that you can be
: If you wanna make it right
If you wanna do it now
Then you gotta learn to try
You can make it worth something.
'Cause not a lot comes free.
And that's just the way it is, now
You gotta go for what you want
You gotta do what you got to stand for!