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Christopher

Live through this, and you won't look back

About Me


I'm a dude who lives in Nashville. I'm kind of an ass...
I have a policy about honesty and ass kicking, which is, if you ask for it, I have to let you have it.
I refuse to adhere to social standards just because they're the norm. Fuck 'em if they can't take a joke.
I don't want your forgiveness. I won't make excuses. I'm not gonna blame you, even if you are an accessory...But I will not accept your natural order. I didn't come for absolution, I didn't ask to be redeemed. But isn't how it is, every goddamn time...Your prayers are always answered, in the order they're received...
Cynical? That's my facination. I do hateful things, for which people love me, and loveable things for which they hate me. I am the friend of enemies, the enemy of friends. I am admired for my detestability. I am both Poles and the Equator with no Temperate Zones in between.
I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing.
God does not play dice with the universe; He plays an ineffable game of His own devising, which might be compared, from the perspective of the players, (i.e. everybody), to being involved in an obscure and complex version of poker in a pitch-dark room, with blank cards, for infinite stakes, with a Dealer who won't tell you the rules, and who smiles all the time.
Religions are, by definition, metaphors, after all: God is a dream, a hope, a woman, an ironist, a father, a city, a house of many rooms, a watchmaker who left his prize chronometer in the desert, someone who loves you - even, perhaps, against all evidence, a celestial being whose only interest is to make sure your football team, army, business, or marriage, thrives, prospers, and triumphs over all opposition.Religions are places to stand and look and act, vantage points from which to view the world.
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

My Interests

Girls, acting, being onstage, comfortable silences, movies, indie rock, playing the drums, playing or watching basketball, playing or watching football, reading or watching something that blows my hair back, writing things I'll never show to anyone, theatre, singing at the top of my lungs when I'm alone in the car, hanging out with friends I don't see often enough, tattoos, lazy afternoons watching T.V. with my mom, vanilla lattes with honey, sunny days in the park, playing with my dogs, listening to good music especially new stuff, building things with my hands, learning about people I meet, learning new things, the Itallian language, taking pictures, sitting on the porch drinking beer, doing crossword puzzles at Cafe Coco at 3 in the morning, people watching, sex, hopping the fences at hotels and going swimming, remembering the good times, holding hands, lip rings, swings, fighting the good fight, thinking, jagermiester, pirates, carpentry, quotes, going to shows, alcohol, cigarettes, coffee, first dates, figuring shit out, babies, being an asshole, having a good time, partying, fist fights, dive bars, kareoke, cooking, travelling, poker, long drives to nowhere, sleeping next to someone, University of Kentucky Basketball, Nashville Predators hockey, Tennesse Titans football, Boston Red Sox baseball

I'd like to meet:

Marco Pierre White, Neil Gaiman, Bill Murray, Barack Obama, Gnarls Barkley, Maynard James Keenan, Tom Collichio, Daniel Day Lewis, Ram Dass, Jesus Christ, Thom Yorke, Chuck Palahniuk, Ben Kingsley, Winston Churchill, Dave Grohl, Adolph Rupp, Mohammad, Christopher Nolan, Anthony Bourdain, Neitche, Bill Hicks, Dante, Seth Rogen, Kobe Bryant, Will Ferrell, Jack White, James Dean, Marlon Brando, my ancestors and family memebers past, and you.
"Be courteous to all, but intimate with few, and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence. True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation."
And this guy...

And I can't forget Old Greg, either:

Music:

Tool, Incubus, Elliott Smith, Jude, Paramore, ...And You Will Know Us by the Trail of Dead, Forget Cassettes, Jack Johnson, Metric, Death Cab for Cutie, James McMurtry, Outkast, A Perfect Circle, AVEC, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Be Your Own Pet, Modest Mouse, Panic! at the Disco, The White Stripes, Radiohead, The Shins, The Postal Service, Oasis, Jimmy Eat World, Weezer, Spoon, David Gray, Coldplay, System of a Down, Gnarls Barkley, Nine Inch Nails, Tenacious D, The Hollywood Kills, K.S. Rhodes, Ani DiFranco, Ryan Adams, John Hiatt, Foo Fighters, Eminem, Stars, Josh Rouse, Sublime...The new Racontuers album is really good

Movies:

I could watch The Princess Bride or The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou, every day. I quote Anchorman and Zoolander often. I like violence a la The Way of the Gun, Boondock Saints, and The Kill Bill movies. Almost Famous, Love Actually, and Reality Bites put a smile on my face.

Television:

Deadwood may be the best show ever. The Office cracks me up. LOST is my addiction, and Heroes allows me my geekdom. Twin Peaks and the State are my early 90's favorites. When I need a laugh it's Family Guy or Reno 911. My news and information comes from The Daily Show, the Colbert Report, and CNN. Carnivale and Arrested Development I found via DVD. I just caught up on Entourage, I want to be on Top Chef, and I'll admit to watching Project Runway.

Books:

I read all the time. Now it's mostly cookbooks, though lately I've been able to work in some stuff on theology and ethics.
"God's Debris" by Scott Adams, "Goodnight, Nobody" by Micheal Knight, "Of Mice and Men" by John Steinbeck, "Positively Fifth Street" by James McManus, "A People's History of the United States" by Howard Zinn, "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" by Steven Chbosky, "Glue and Ink Rebellion" by Sean Carswell, "Survivor" by Chuck Palahniuk, "Notes from the Underground" by Fydor Dotstoyevsky, "Be Here Now" by Ram Dass, "The Teatherballs of Bougainsville" by Mark Leyner, "Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas" by Hunter S. Thompson, "A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genuis" by Dave Eggers, "Lolita" by Vladimir Nabokov, "The Old Man and the Sea" by Ernest Hemmingway, "Rules of Attraction" by Bret Easton Ellis, "Sideways" by Rex Pickett, "American Gods" and "Neverwhere" by Neil Gaiman, "The Virgin Suicides" by Jeffrey Eugenides, "Kitchen Confidential" by Anthony Bourdain, "Porno" by Irving Welsh, "Stones in His Pockets" by Marie Jones, "Inherit the Wind" by Robert E. Lee, "Stupid Kids" by John C. Russell, "Proof" by David Auburn...these are a few of my favorites.

Heroes:

My mom. My sisters.
People who succeed when others tell them they will fail. People who think for themeselves.
Favorite Quotes
"Do what you love. Fuck everything else." -Little Miss Sunshine
"There's nothing wrong with America that can't be fixed by what's right with America." - Bill Clinton.
"Those who are willing to trade civil liberties for temporary security deserve neither." - Benjamin Franklin
"God is a comedian playing to an audience too afraid to laugh." - Voltaire
"Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds nor bends with the remover to remove." - William Shakespeare
"I'd like to quit thinking of the present, like right now, as some minor, insignificant preamble to somethin' else." - Dazed and Confused
"God is not dead, but alive and well and currently working on a much less ambitious project." - Anonymous
"Every normal man must be tempted at times to spit upon his hands, hoist the black flag, and begin slitting throats" - Henry Louis Mencken
"I have never made but one prayer to God, a very short one: 'O Lord, make my enemies ridiculous.' And God granted it." - Voltaire
"There is no use lamenting the fact that things are how they are." - Sherri Johnson
"All women are crazy, some just hide it better than others." - Mel Gabbard
"It is not hard to live through a day, if you can live though a moment. What creates despair is the imagination, which pretends there is a future and insists on predicting millions of moments, thousands of days, and so drains you that you cannot live the moment at hand." - Andre DuBus
"Life is pain. Anyone who says differently is selling something." - The Princess Bride
"I suppose I just want to be a child. If everyone could be a child again at the same time, you know? So we could all meet each other for the first time, just seize each other's arms and invite each other to play. With children there's no refusal or strange eyes or anything. And they don't talk about each other. They don't even talk; they're just happy to be in one another's company...that's what I'd like. To not talk." -In the Hope of Rising Again.
"It is easier to fight for one's principles than to live up to them." -Alfred Adler
"I would rather be ashes than dust. I would rather that my spark should burn out in a brilliant blaze than it should be stifled by dry rot. I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet. The proper function of man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days in trying to prolong them. I shall use my time." -Jack London
"Freedom means the opportunity to be what we never thought we would be.” -Daniel J. Boorstin
"There's not a gesture, even the most insignificant that can't change the world...you see, every detail, every truth, as slight as it may be, reveals an infinity of truths and thus has an endless repercussion and grandiose effect." -Happenstance
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My Blog

Carolina Drama

I'm not sure if there's a point to this storyBut I'm going to tell it againSo many other people try to tell the taleNot one of them knows the endIt was a junk-house in South CarolinaHeld a boy the age...
Posted by Christopher on Thu, 22 May 2008 11:18:00 PST

Deceptive cadence

As I lost that shallow part of me that brought me so far down before, I opened wide for a piece I thought I deserved, but if you take it, someone has to give it away. I thought if I matched the intens...
Posted by Christopher on Thu, 08 May 2008 10:52:00 PST

I will possess your heart...

How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me.It's like a book elegantly bound, but in a language that you can't read.Just yet. There are days when outside your window, I see my ...
Posted by Christopher on Wed, 30 Apr 2008 10:24:00 PST

What I’m listening to lately

"Soul Meets Body"  - Death Cab for Cutie "Shipping Up to Boston" - Dropkick Murphys "The Pretender" - Foo Fighters "This is a Call" - Foo Fighters "This isn’t It" - Giant Drag "History of L...
Posted by Christopher on Sun, 30 Mar 2008 12:01:00 PST

Porno

We're jaded cunts, in a scene we hate, a city we hate, pretending that we're at the center of the universe, trashing ourselves with crap drugs to stave off the feeling that real life is happening some...
Posted by Christopher on Wed, 20 Feb 2008 10:34:00 PST

Valentine’s

Anyone who knows me knows that two of the best movies I've seen in a long, long time are No Country for Old Men, and There Will Be Blood. Both are absolutely visually stunning, and the acting is as to...
Posted by Christopher on Thu, 14 Feb 2008 12:21:00 PST

The history of the funk...

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Posted by Christopher on Tue, 05 Feb 2008 12:41:00 PST

The Outsider

Help me if you can. It's just that this, this is not the way I'm wired. So, could you please, help me understand why you've given in to all these reckless dark desires. You're lying to yourself again;...
Posted by Christopher on Tue, 22 Jan 2008 10:13:00 PST

Covers

I've always had a soft spot for cover songs. Not cover bands, mind you, but cover songs; when a band I like suprises me with a song by another artist. (done well, of course) Sometimes, the cover is be...
Posted by Christopher on Sat, 12 Jan 2008 12:55:00 PST

The end of my time at the Park...

The phone calls are already coming, more of them than I care to answer, so I might as well make this as public as possible. The rumors are true. Yesterday I quit my job as Kitchen Manager of Paradise...
Posted by Christopher on Wed, 09 Jan 2008 11:52:00 PST