My Pandoras box:
I have spent the greater part of my life failing, plain and simple. I have spent years trying to understand who i was, and why i do the things i do. put simply, i do not know.
i do not know what makes me different, why many times my life on the outside seems a completely different person then who i am on the inside.
For the greater part of my life, i thought i could live alone.
I was wrong.
My life seemd to revolve around one thing, and one thing alone. Understanding. I tried to make everything around me a equation, and solve life with numbers and logic.
I failed.
in that time i learned alot about the siences of this world, but i had hidden in the corner of my life, the one thing that ever mattered.
From the rubble of my life, i am trying to rebuild.
I can not find what i seek alone.
Remember me in your deepest nightmares, i was the one who wanted to wake you, but did not know how. Remember me when you have failed and all hope is gone, becuse i have been there and back, and still dont know how to save my friends from it. Remember me when you are alone, because in the shaddows is a friend as lost as you.
becuase when i finally reclaim my life, i will return to help all my friends, for i remembered them, when i have forgotten all else.
this is who i am, and i am sorry for who i have not been
a friend
-- Ages--------------------------------------------------------
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Many people know me, and think of me different ways
i have known teachers that think i am nothing short of
genious
and students who see me as the lowest of retards
i can be as hyper and chaotic as a burning flame
and as subtle and tranquil as the gentle breeze
for me, life is about understanding who i am,
and trying to make myself better in many respects
i am always seeking friendship
and have much to share,
but to only thoes of you who can keep
my ravaging spirit at bay
and improve my trainquil air
i seek people who seek wisdom
i seek people who seek benevolence
and thoes who live life with a plesent simplicicy
or complexity of the journymans mind
i will bow to anyone who can bring the benevolent
and stay the chaotic
i am a man who distrusts passion
but seeks purpose and benevolence
i seek thoes who take life seriously
i seek thoes who take me seriously
peer through my skin
see the man within
when something is too clear, one
only sees through it
and not that wich is important
when things are fogggy
we too quickly assume what we see
is real
but life can bend truth in many ways
we have control of only one thing
ourselves
not destiny
-- Ages
