Andrew Wayne
Most kids in America these days have some of the same problems. The main one? Broken Homes. I am not one of these kids, but the way my parents are, they might as well get it over with and spare me and themselves. I look at my parents from two differentw ways. The way they are when the other isn't around, and the way they are when the other is. Perosnaly I dislike both when they are together, but if it came down to it, I'd stay with my mom. My father is a low life scum that I've been despising since I can really remember. Why they stay together is beyond me,but this isnt about them, its about me. I deal with this kind of thing everyday. The fights, the words that almost cut like steel, it all adds up for me. They think they are only throwing daggers at themselves, but they cant see what its doing to me. Thats why I'm thankful for the people in my life.
I've know Kyle and Lena since I can remember. They keep me grouded, and also from getting the hell out of here. The thought has crossed my mind, just packing up and leaving, but I'd miss those two too much. I can't tell you how important they are to me, and I'd protect them with my life, if haveing to. Thats just how important they are. I'm getting ahead of myself I suppose. My story revolves around me and My 'family' if thats what you want to call it. My parents problems started when I started Jr.high, I really cant tell you what triggerd it, I cant even tell you that THEY know how it all started. The fights started minimal about smple things. It started, one of them forgeting to take out the trash, one of them not making a new pot of coffee when they finished it, than it transformed into forgetting ones birthday and eventally, just flat out hating eachother. They stick together cause both have only one thing in common. They hate failure. My fathers borderline abusive. My mother thinks theropy is for Pshycos, not for people who need marriage counsling. Personally I think they just stoped loving each other, if they ever had.
Sometimes when I was little, I'd run away to Kyles house when the fighting got to be too much for me. Thats how I met Lena. Without them, I'dhave nothing to be happy about. Thats all there is to it. If your wondering which one I'm closer to, I'm not telling. I dont even think I know which one im closer to. I guess time wil tell. right now I reside in Miami with my parents. Kyle and Lena want me to move to L.A with them, but I cant just leave my mom alone with my dad. If it ever gets to the point where I just dont care, chances are I will move in with one of the two or just get my own place.
Staind, Schizophrenic Conversations
Are you afraid, afraid of the truth/In the mirror staring back at you/The image is cracked but so is the view, yeah/The strength of a tree begins in the roots/That I tend bury into you/At least now the storm can't blow me away/So crawl inside my head with me/I'll show you how it feels to be/To blame like me/Should I be afraid of this face that I see/In the mirror staring back at me/So cold were the days where I listen to you/And you say that I'm weak show me the proof /Because I still exist in spite of you /But I won't compete with you every day./So crawl inside my head with me/I'll show you how it feels to be/To blame like me./Schizophrenic conversations that /I'm always having with myself/I hear these voices in my head competing/Maybe I could use a little help /I still have schizophrenic conversations/Where there's no one else around to hear/I long for solitude and peace within me/Void of all the anger and the fear/So crawl inside my head with me. /I'll show you how it feels to be,/ Fucked up like me/I'll show you how it feels to be/To blame like me/Ashamed like me
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