Irzan

Time has been passing by so fast, since I decided and begin my new journey as a 'new' person in June 2004. Much different with the remain years before. Those years, have brought lessons and answers that I've never expected or even think about it before. So many thing had happened and keep happening, colorize my days with its bright and its dark, enlighten my soul somewhat with a mysterious way, along the journey to carve the real in me. Either bright or dark, it still looks like a color, enriches my soul no matter what. The most interesting part I noted, there is always a battle between rational mind and heart -as I'm naturally a stubborn- before getting the final result. I could never stop my questions before I found the answer. But I can't rely on my mind too much without heart getting into the process as well. I've tried it sometime, but my heart felt like a stone, cold and heartless. And I don't feel comfort. I found that I can't fight against my own belief that has existed long before I knew how to use my brain. The extent of mind is only limited by the volume of the brain, but what you've got in the heart is way beyond that. It's immeasurable and unpredictable. I think I'm just lucky. However, I'm still seeking for some reasons how life exactly wants me to be, and what kind of person I want to be. I'm still growing and searching, as life itself is a never ending journey. Hopefully, it'd end up in a right place, in a right way. Amin!