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About Me

Layout made byMy Art, Which I love so much. I want everyone to see it. My biggest fan of my art so far is my family and some of my friends. I may not be the best, but the meaning of it is what counts.I love to go outside too. In the winter I love to go snowboarding, and during the summer I love to atempt to skateboard. I'm getting there but i still have a long ways to go.Other things I like to do is listen to music and play Halo on the Xbox and whenever i can get to it, I love to play Final Fantasy nine. Its so much fun.I'm a very down to earth person, that is until someone pisses me off. I just realized not too long ago that I do in fact need to take anger management classes, b/c little things tend to piss me off. But this could also be a good thing. Either I could be the coolest bitch ever, the baddest bitch ever, or the bitch everyone loves to hate. I'm also a person that you can in fact get along with very easily. Parents love me, the ex's hate me, and so do the neighbors.In my spare time, I like to create my art with my charcoal pencils. My inspiration comes from things I've actually seen in life or from my dreams. Most of the things I created are from and abstract and tribal point of view. Not everything I draw though is evil. Some of the things that I come up with is for my loving mother who is a very spiritual person so i draw things for to keep her faith strong. I love her and my dad so much.Other things I like to do is hang out with my friends Jay, Brandy, Ashley, and Susie. Jay is my soulmate as everyone probably already knows. He is the guy who saved me from solitude and taught me that i shouldnt take anyones shit anymore. Of course, sometimes, I think he wishes I would take it. lol. Brandy is the sweetest person you could ever meet. She taught me that I can in fact me a good friend. Through all her troubles I have been there for to talk and make things seem like they're going to be okay. She has also been a good friend to me too. When ever times get tough we're there for each other. Then we have the SQ, she's like the Brandy too, Susie taught me that know matter what people think of her or me that we're all beautiful and no matter how beautiful you are on the outside it all depends on what's on the inside. and that we're all normal no matter how we look. And last but never the least we have my bestest friend in the whole entire world...The Ash. I've known this girl since elementary school and here we are 19 years old and still bf's. We taught each other how to have a since of humor in life no matter how down things can get. All we'd have to think about is Leo D.,Heath Leadger, Thumbtanic, Titanic. and so many other things. She will always be my best friend forever.*sniff* Anywho, other things I like to do is snowboarding and skateboarding, though i'm great at snowboarding i'm still trying to learn the skateboard.I am also a rearrange freaks. I cant stand for something to stay the same all the time. I have to move it around at least once a month. It bothers me sometimes.Another thing about me is that I can't ever stop thinking. I could be trying to concentrate on one thing and have a million other things on my mind. they're not neccessarily bad things they're just random things that seem to haunt me. it's nerver racking.Oh yeah, One last thing about me. For the past year I have had a really tough time and it came me inspiration. What I want to do with me life is to join the Peace Corps. and while on that life changing journey i want to create a website where I post my drawings there to show people around the world of what i have seen and have to go through while i'm there. And I believe that's a great dream. And apparently I'm not the only one who has had dreams of going one of my good friends wants to go. (and you know who you are). I believe we could all make a difference.Anywho, that's all i can really think about at the moment about b/c i'm stil a little sleepy from the medicine i took YESTERDAY afternoon. But I love you guys and I hope you like the page. see ya!

My Interests

I know this may sound like an emo girls fake cry for help. But to be honest with you...It's an honest girls cry for help. I dont know what it is, but right now my life seems to be heading nowhere. I've tried and I've tried to make things right. But everywhere I go I get turned away. No matter how much effort I put into it. For the past month I've I had to fight myself to get out of bed. I'm force feeding myself when I'm never hungry anymore. Some of the time I'm so depressed that I just dont even want to shower. Disgusting I know, but true. Don't worry I do bathe on a normal bases just at odd hours of the night when I can't sleep. I'm always tired but i cant never fall asleep and when it comes time to get out of the bed and start a new day I just lay there and think until about 3 or 4 in the afternoon. I've been so depressed. And I really want help and people I'm even willing to pay to help me just turn me away. I dont want to end up a person who is so down and so looked over that I go insane and end up in psychiatric wards or mental hospitals. I want to be happy again. Now that I think about it... I dont really know if i was happy to begin with. Parents constantly arguing about my dad cheating on my mom, and other shit like that. Me cutting my arms when I was only in middle school thru 9th grade. Yelling at my parents when they didnt do anything wrong. I mean I'm not suicidal anymore b/c that's stupid, but sometime I think what if I did let it go just a little deeper. I've tried all kinds of things to help me like meditate, write my thoughts in a journal, go to therapists. I would say meds but they say i dont need them. When most of the time they never listened to me. I've even became bulemic thinking that maybe if I was thinner I'd feel happier. Not b/c i thought i was fat or b/c I wanted to impress people, but to see if what people say about being thin is true....you feel better. I know I have true friends out there somewhere who really care about me and want to help me. Please Help Me. I need you guys so much right now. I dont know what else to do. All I want to do is say that I'm truely happy for once.

I'd like to meet:

The kind of people I'd like to meet dont have to be exactly like me, (That would be weird), but people who aren't two face like people in burlington. People who are pussies and cant confront you to your face and fix your problems that have to act like kindergardeners and play telephone with the whole damn town until it gets back around and by that point the whole story has been changed around into some stupid ass lie. If you fucking people wanna say something to be say to my face! Not my myspace, not on instant messangers but MY FACE! We'll fix the problem whether it's by sitting down and talking or whether it fight I dont care! As long as you confront me! Not other bitches whose nose dont even need to be in my fucking business...BURLINGTON PEEPS FROM THE MALL AND CITY PARK CAN ALL KISS MY FUCKING ASS! And if any of you wanna come up to me and tell me to say it to your face, I will b/c i'm not a fucking pussy.

Music:



Movies:

TITANIC! THUMBTANIC! sean of the dead, zombie movies, other horror movies. gang movies. a little bit of everything.

Television:

almost everything from adult swim. king of the hill, anime. porn. gotta have the porn. yup

Books:

Dog witch, Tarot Cafe and more.

Heroes:

my mom, my foster mom. my best friends.

My Blog

just movn stuff

Honestly, the only people I would like to meet are people who are not from burlington. There are only a select number of people that I have actually met that I actually really really like. And they kn...
Posted by ♥ Fajita ♥ on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 08:15:00 PST

Two Face Friends

Two Faced Friends. Why call them friends? There's no point. They'll talk to you once or twice when they feel like it and then. You finally get to hang out with them. You go out have fun acting stupid ...
Posted by ♥ Fajita ♥ on Thu, 21 Jun 2007 09:14:00 PST

Wish I Could Have Something Good To Talk About

Today is father's day. But my real father isnt someone to brag about. He's an asshole and that's all there is too it. All he cares about is himself. I could be the President for Mexico and he would ju...
Posted by ♥ Fajita ♥ on Sun, 17 Jun 2007 12:59:00 PST

Have You Ever?

Have you ever had a time in your life when you just didnt know what path to go down? Both paths are good as far as you can see, but the after that you can see whether one or the other gets bad later o...
Posted by ♥ Fajita ♥ on Sat, 16 Jun 2007 12:25:00 PST

What The Hell Is Wrong With Me?!

What the hell is wrong with me? Maybe I am too emotional. To me it's seems that I've done so much wrong in every guys life that I've gotten involved with. Nick, I know I was too emotional for him. Jes...
Posted by ♥ Fajita ♥ on Mon, 02 Apr 2007 12:23:00 PST