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About Me

Yet again I am back talking about myself not. missing my home like hoah. but the army is my life forever and ever I am not jk I will die in the army I am all about it and want nothing but it and maybe a lover oh yeah thats on its way to you know who you are.ANGER IS ONLY THE KEY TO TO A DOOR THAT WILL NEVER OPEN. RAGE IS MY KEY TO OPEN THE DOORS THAT I AM NOT SUPPOSED TO. LOVE IS SOMETHIGN THAT HAS BEEN FORGOTTEN AND DEPPRESSION IS SOMETHING THAT WILL NEVER BE MY PROBLEM EVER AGAIN. JUST SAY GOODBYE TO THE THINGS IN THE PAST THAT WILL NEVER COME BACK. GOOD BYE....
with my mind so blank and confused. in all due time I find my news. there is no such as smiles. there is no such as joy. there is no such as hope. there is no such as heaven. only my hell. inside so deap with walls of bricks and doors of bars. my own prison if you may. my own makeing to this day. I hate you all with tears. I love you all in fear. I wish not to be alone. I wish not to see the end. I wish only to die love in hand joy with pride. instead of which I hide. nothing more to do as my day is done from new. I hate it so very much as I am alone without your touch. I want I nead I only dream. as in my mind my own prison is where I am for the all and to the end of eternity.on my own to the end is only what I felt with the help of one that will give me smiles. I know I will be happy. TRUST is all I have lies is all that will be the end.I am who I am. there is more to me than a book of story's. I only want to be happy and alone is where I hit the point. there are things I like. guitar is my life without it I would not be alive. I love the army and cant wait to go back. my goal in life is to go to Iraq and fight for what I believe in. walking is fun for me and I love to work out with my bro danno.
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My Interests

Guitars, cars that run, walks, a true love, MUSIC OH YEAH MUSIC A DEF, playing catch with my nephews and singing when I am drunk with my friends while driveing with a dd we are no dummy's, but I realy am interested in writeing I love to write poetry songs and sheet music: my dreams are to become a musician that does not use other peoples music.

I'd like to meet:

I want to meet my bro nate again come home safe bro. oh and the cool aid man with nate. as josh yells coolaid and runs into a brick wall. Oh I realy want to meet As many famious guitarist I can befor I die.

Music:

breaking benjamins, metallica, hate breed, Korn, the used, MSI, cold, fear factory, Alice in chains, Unwritten law, Crossfade, hoobastank, Slayer, six feet under, OZZY, avril lavigne oh yeah she is hot, rehab, bloodhound gang, INSANE CLOWN POSSIE, kean, megadeath, 3 doors down, in flames, hinder, creed, mcr, nickel back, fuel, trapt, linken park, fallout boy, leftover crack, evenessance, kitty, disturbed, cradel of filth, cannibal corps, bush, blue october, and many many more I have more bands then a 100 year old man who loves socks has odballs.

Movies:

don't even ask there are to many but I will say final fantasy 7 advent children.

Television:

cartoons when they are cool. but there is so much on tv I just chose to stay away from it. instead I play and listen to music.

Books:

harry potter and then some. I have read so many books there isnt a way to say them all. one book a day for four years. Shogun is the best book I have ever read. its amazing.

Heroes:

cloud strife. and my father I love you dad there isnt anything I can say other than without you I would be nothing but another failer it was your misstakes that show me to become better than you. oh and my best friend is my hero nate you know you got props for life on that one.

My Blog

lost in time

one infront of the other. not stoping for rest. walking through the memorie's of my past. in a life of not knowing. never to have a plan of what to do next. reaching for objects to far for me to gras...
Posted by Joshua's___Clouds on Sun, 13 Apr 2008 01:56:00 PST

In and out of relationships.

there is alot more to me then people think. For me I just wish I was home with people that I can trust. Yeah people say he is in the army but trust me there are so many people here that think they are...
Posted by Joshua's___Clouds on Wed, 09 Apr 2008 05:53:00 PST

In and out of relationships.

LOVE IS ALL WE KNOW NOT OF

..> and without nothing. with what is all that can be had.as if nothing could be given.Without anything can one know what its like to not have.Love seems to be what everyone wants.Can I have what ...
Posted by Joshua's___Clouds on Fri, 08 Feb 2008 05:57:00 PST

for what i Say

There has been many things in my life that I will never forget. I will never let go of my past because of how it helped me to this very day. I have been cheated on lied to and hurt but I have hurt man...
Posted by Joshua's___Clouds on Tue, 29 Jan 2008 09:08:00 PST

if only if only

if only if only.I have given up. I have given in. There are so many of your hates. These things that judge be for they know. Bleed to smile. Cut to cope.Suicide the excape for a happy person such as ...
Posted by Joshua's___Clouds on Mon, 21 Jan 2008 01:19:00 PST

yet another poem for a weak heart.

today's day. ...
Posted by Joshua's___Clouds on Sun, 13 Jan 2008 03:28:00 PST

lil sis

someday soon I will be hanging out with you lil sis I love you and momma. I hope all is well I will call sometime soon when I get back to home promiss ya. well take care lil sis.
Posted by Joshua's___Clouds on Sun, 13 Jan 2008 03:11:00 PST

HERE I GO AGAIN.

with what words can I speak. with what fait will I meet. it is me against you all. as all seem to stand against me. I fight this fight as if my last fight will be this one. Swing for swing blow for bl...
Posted by Joshua's___Clouds on Fri, 28 Dec 2007 01:11:00 PST

its what makes me.

..> its not the shadow that follow's. we follow the shadow. its with our own minds that we forever try to be someone else. with what hope. with what do we have to thank for this. its us that are us...
Posted by Joshua's___Clouds on Mon, 26 Nov 2007 03:35:00 PST