About Me

Damn, I hate a shy bitch.

I am not perfect by any means. My mistakes have been immense, but I don't regret any of the actions that have shaped me. I am learning from my past and making plans for the future. I am selfish in the best way possible. My happiness doesn't revolve around anyone but myself. My independence, at times, can be debilitating. But It is better to be self-sufficient then have to rely on another human being. I may be standoffish but I have a handful of best friends. Seriously, about fifteen. I hold the people that have been good to me VERY close.My mouth is like a sailor and I am far away from the definition of "lady like". I can bake like betty homemaker and will rock your world.www.iamsayum.tumblr.com

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me

Someone who will meet me halfway, and bring back the person I used to be. I want something real. We're so arrogant, aren't we? So afraid of age, we do everything we can to prevent it. We don't realize what a privilege it is to grow old with someone. Someone who doesn't drive you to commit murder or doesn't humiliate you beyond repair.

Brady Paul Robert Jagiello. This is what unconditional love feels like

My Blog

Everything drifts, always in waves.

After all the goodbyes I have uttered it seems like it should come naturally by now. Perhaps I just look at it in a negative light because eventually people leave. It is inevitable. Whether it be inte...
Posted by on Wed, 08 Apr 2009 06:14:00 GMT

Everyone leaves, so why wouldn't you?

Maybe thats why I called this town quits and headed west. Everywhere I look, it reminds me of him. My father moved us here from Jersey to create a "perfect" childhood. Which he did. I assume that is w...
Posted by on Thu, 26 Mar 2009 23:10:00 GMT

www.iamsayum.tumblr.com

I wont be writing in this blog very much anymore. If you want to see my daily bitching go to www.iamsayum.tumblr.comYeah...Like the movie. Oh yeah, and check out...www.iamwhitneyallen.tumblr.comDid I ...
Posted by on Thu, 05 Mar 2009 12:48:00 GMT

I am an cynic part 1

I must have naive carved across my forehead. Dudes think they can feed me all this bullshit and I will actually put up with it. I grew up with three boys, and my friends mostly consist of dudes. I hav...
Posted by on Sun, 22 Feb 2009 21:47:00 GMT

Over and Over Again.

I am not sure why I keep writing about this subject. Everyone is beyond sick of hearing about the unconditional love I have for my father. It is just...My heart yearns for him every pathetic day of my...
Posted by on Mon, 16 Feb 2009 21:12:00 GMT

Today, I am thankful for...

Having a father that showed me nothing but unconditional love. Some people go their entire existence yearning for that type of acceptance. I am so unbelievably blessed that Mr. Bussell left such a pos...
Posted by on Sat, 31 Jan 2009 11:55:00 GMT

Someone slap me.

Why do I insist on trying to maintain contact with the ONE person that drives me insane? Literally, bonkers. You think I would get the hint that he wants no communication with me. But I am a masochist...
Posted by on Sat, 24 Jan 2009 16:48:00 GMT

Adam John Jagiello

Anger, revenge, hatred, hostility, disgust...All of these emotions have graced my thoughts. How can a man sleep at night knowing that he is a killer? Maybe he isn't aware of the extent of damage he in...
Posted by on Fri, 23 Jan 2009 21:58:00 GMT

I love you, a bushel and a peck.

Usually I count down the days until my dads birthday. To prepare myself for the masochistic nature I posses. Do I like internalizing the pain that I feel? To sulk, morn, and mope over a situation in w...
Posted by on Fri, 12 Dec 2008 10:46:00 GMT

Fucking Epic

This is the first aspiration that I have had in a while. I am starting to write a novel, and support would be greatly appreciated. For the longest time writing was perceived as my greatest weakness. L...
Posted by on Wed, 03 Dec 2008 15:00:00 GMT

Meredith Sayum [The Traffic Hazard]

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