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Lou

Sunflower-seed shells in the keyboard

About Me

"Straight Americans need... an education of the heart and soul. They must understand - to begin with - how it can feel to spend years denying your own deepest truths, to sit silently through classes, meals, and church services while people you love toss off remarks that brutalize your soul." ~Bruce Bawer, The Advocate, 28 April 1998. Just a teenaged, transgendered, homosexual, nocturnal, sleep deprived, tortured artist, struggling college student bubbling over with repressed inspiration and very little time and energy to express it... just trying to get by like everybody else.

My Interests

Improvement... I'm interested in improvement [because] we have all the time in the world, but have no time for you... We don't even have time for ourselves, because we spend it by being unproductive. What we should be doing is never what we are doing, and what are doing is never important, but always more important than you. Squandering away money, time, emotion, fun, love and life. We can't see past our noses [without glasses], and the few of us that can try not to. We don't care to know, and for those who do care are in too much agony to make a difference... in what we waste, spend, build, destroy, love, hate, live and die for. We are the hustlers and bustlers, corporate pimps and prostitutes of a land that we abuse and neglect, that we hate to see progress and love to see destroyed. One step forward, two steps back... three steps, four steps, ten steps back. We can't improve, only regress [only regret]. We dwell in the past, loving and hating it with a blinding passion that stunts our future. Wishing things were the same as back when, wishing they had been different so today would be different, wishing for a future by clutching the past to our bosoms, to our throats like the blade of a mugger in the dark alley of life, inflicting fear and pain. But we never realize that ['the mugger' isn't mugging us] the fear and pain is mugging us of our futures, mugging us of our lives, mugging us with our pasts. We are wasteful, pompous, God-fearing, destructively drunken "do-right" terrorists with bad haircuts and weapons of mass destruction. We are America and you are Earth.

I'd like to meet:

Genuine people.

Movies:

Wet Hot American Summer, Boys Don't Cry, Normal, Sebastian Cole, But I'm a Cheerleader, Hedwig and the Angry Inch, Better than Chocolate, Requiem for a Dream, Fight Club, GirlFight, Finding Nemo, 28 Days Later, The Birds (or anything by Alfred Hitchcock- not including re-makes), and much, much more...

Television:

TV-SHMEEVY!

Books:

Anne on My Mind, Patience and Sarah, A Good Moon Rising, Truth Dare or Promise, A Stone Gone Mad, Fried Green Tomatoes, Speak, Brass

Heroes:

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~Dr. Seuss

My Blog

Ramblings of a happy boi

Damn, the past few days to weeks have been GREAT! Besides school, home work, and house & yard work, I've been doin' nothing besides exercising and havin fun kickin' it with friends.   I got ...
Posted by Lou on Sun, 03 Jun 2007 05:56:00 PST

Doubts + Dreams = Conflict

I don't know what I'm doing... I don't know what I'm aiming for in life, and I don't how to accomplish my goals because I don't really know what my goals are. I've been thinking a lot lately about sc...
Posted by Lou on Fri, 23 Feb 2007 10:43:00 PST

Sleepless... what's new.

I don't know if I'm just co-dependant or if it makes sense that I should get depressed when all the world turns its lights out for the night (except for me). I've figured out how to live with my sleep...
Posted by Lou on Fri, 12 Jan 2007 03:20:00 PST

A day in the life of Louser...

Godfuckingdamnit! I was SO on top of things today. I remembered EVERYTHING I needed to remember for the day, including my lunch, my wallet and phone, all of the articles of clothing that make up a ful...
Posted by Lou on Thu, 07 Dec 2006 03:55:00 PST

Incase you missed the bulletin...

I will not be available to just hang out and do nothing productive besides enjoy the company of all my fine friends until after this term is over. I have not been able to save any of my wed design hom...
Posted by Lou on Thu, 30 Nov 2006 08:38:00 PST

Bored again

Well, I thought that I was going to have company this evening but I not. At first I thought Nick, Jay and Alicia were going to come over and hang out... but I guess that was supposed to take place tom...
Posted by Lou on Tue, 31 Oct 2006 12:26:00 PST

Head in the clouds, feet in my socks

I just realized I'm wearing socks.   I hate reading my past "blogs" I'm such an emo-fag. Although I had to laugh, it was like reading the diary of a 13-year-old girl (who thinks she's wise beyo...
Posted by Lou on Wed, 11 Oct 2006 05:31:00 PST

What I want...

You know, I don't want a relationship... I don't even want sex. I don't want something entirely meaningless, but I don't want anything with too many strings attached. I guess I'm the market for a foe-...
Posted by Lou on Sat, 30 Sep 2006 01:50:00 PST

Loumbie

Damn, I felt like a zombie all day today. I couldn't get tired enough to fall asleep until about 8 or 9 this morning, but I had a shit load of things to get done that I really didn't want to mess up b...
Posted by Lou on Sat, 30 Sep 2006 12:53:00 PST

You suck

All of you sleeping bitches can blow me. I'm going to bed (only because there's NOTHING ELSE TO FUCKING DO). Goddamn, it seems that the only thing that triggers my anger these days is being stuck alon...
Posted by Lou on Tue, 26 Sep 2006 05:10:00 PST