Super Saiyan Carly-Jade

Carly-Jade
I am Carly Jade
That is about the onlything i am sure of right now
I'm easily pleased, i derive joy from oddly shaped trees and perfect clouds and cuddles under the blankets
i spend my days sitting around waiting for my hair to grow back. i dont feel like myself with out the tangled web of curls which used to reside on my head. I am lonely. I miss year 10 when i feel my life was as close to perfect as possible.
Last year changed me dramaticly and i'm finding it really really hard to go back to being the sercure and independant person i used to be.
Being 18 is over rated i've never worked so much in my life and had so little to show for it.
At the moment i seemed to only be capable of spontaneously bursting into tears or laughter there is no happy medium
which annoys me more then anyone
I sound like a nut case, i'm not, i'm just really really confused and stressing out that i'm never going to achieve all i ever wanted and hat i will be stuck here in coffs harbour for the rest of my days with out seeing the rest of the world.sighs. I listen to triple j most of my day it slowly reminds me of who i am
Dale is my heart and one of very few people in his world that makes me genuinely happy.I love him more then i thought possible he holds me together without even realising. he is my other half and i would do anything for him.
marlee is my best friend, my little rock who lives too far away for me to cope with right now. i miss her every day. she is the closest thing i have to a sister and i i love her like family
holly is my long legged kindred.
dylan and angus are my brothers andwhile they annoy the shit out of my most of the time I love them. I spit in the direction of anyone who hurts them.
matty p and mitchy b are my adopted brothers. you make me laugh and are the reason i some time foget i'm a girl haha.
thats my babble on life for the time being