i guess i can state some of my habits and interests, but would feel really stupid making that the defining outline of me. i would feel like i was on some kind of ridiculous dating show, hoping not to be ruled out by appearing most ideal.
the truth is, i don't think i can so easily describe who i am with just simple words. i'm a continuously developing human being like most, if not all. i would like to say i'm a basically good person, however, due to difficult life experiences and major blunders along the pathway of existence... i have become rather pessimistic and have learned to build a virtually bullet proof shield over myself. these days i pretty much try to avoid people mainly to cut out any room for catastrophic human error, but mostly to avoid being a total bitch. i prefer losing myself in scientific research and am fascinated with biochemistry because i would rather view something by it's structure and not by it's action alone. structure amazes me. the constant expanding research of how we exist is enough to keep me preoccupied from the truth of how we exist among each other.
most of my interests are not shared by any of my peers, which often keeps me creating aliases involving popular culture in order to find a common base with others. sometimes that gets old. so, i just revert into a recluse within the confines of my own world.
i'm forever (it seems) chiseling the beaten pathway of becoming an MD in pediatrics. i know i'll get through med school, but it can be overwhelming at times. i recently received my bachelors in biochemistry from the university of Virginia, and am currently working as a lab technician for sentara med. i'm unusually young to be this far in my education, which for me, can sometimes be a deterrent to proceed fully and not take a step back for a while. i have picked up quite a few vices along the way, however, don't necessarily feel all them are bad habits. ha ha i like some.
i'm a chain smoker with a vast curiosity in the mind altering substances. i enjoy getting fucked up at any time of day or night. i'm a mean perfectionist but i smile easily. i rule out all competition when it comes to anything i pursue in life. i hate playing games but i love making a scene when i feel justified in doing so. sometimes i'll recall a funny memory and find myself laughing out loud to a silent thought. that's amusing to watch, i'm sure. i have this tendency to fuck your shit up (either physically or psychologically) if you ever betray me or anyone i love. i'm not invincible but i fear very little. adrenaline gives me a rush that's better then cocain and sex. i keep it realer then most ppl can handle, but i never fuck around. unfortunately, fake bitches make me wanna obliterate human existence and lying whores keep me realizing why intelligent people are so crucial for the survival of mankind. i refuse to let this world be taken by ideocrocy! lol
fortunately my breasts do this amazing trick where they defy gravity, and my stomach is flat because i laugh ... a lot. i don't appreciate most men's inexplicable ability to use unassumingly "nice girls" for their personal benefits. it's making much fewer "nice girls" out there. sometimes when i think about it, i feel like reverting into a total sociopath and biologically engineering a weapon to kill them slowly, while they painfully experience their dicks rapidly decay into carnage. yes. graphic, i know. most times, thinking about it just makes me depressed. like i said, i've come to avoid people.
i grew up in just about every continent in the world with the exception of antarctica. i am multi lingual, but never found it so unusual until i came to the states. unfortunately there are times when it puts a smile on my face to run intellectual circles around a pathetic mind. but then i just feel guilty about being so arrogant and imagine all the rocket scientists with nuero capabilities i can only dream of possessing. my caution in others has never been unnecessary, and my tenacity and indestructible ability to persevere is phenomenal. i'm far from perfect. i sometimes judge, i learn to hate quickly out of defensive instincts of my own. but i never with hold a chance for you to prove other wise, and i ALWAYS tell it like it is.
thankssssI edited my profile with Thomas' Myspace Editor V4.4Let me not to the marriage of true mindsAdmit impediments. Love is not loveWhich alters when it alteration finds,Or bends with the remover to remove.Oh no! It is an ever fixed markThat looks on tempests and is never shaken.It is the star to every wandering bark,Whose worthâ€,,s unknown, although his height be taken.Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeksWithin his bending sickleâ€,,s compass come.Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,But bears it out even to the edge of doom.If this be error and upon me proved,I never writ, nor no man ever loved.-William Shakespeare's Sonnet 116
Nana --
[adjective]:
Like in nature to a train-riding hobo
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