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Carla

All God does is watch us and kill us when we get boring. We must never, ever be boring.

About Me

I have 13 man, women and self made holes.
They all mean something to me.
I have something called an "ego"
I have something called an "inferiority complex"
I am in the process of reclaimed my body.
I have the principle of least interest.
I am not so much of an individual as I am a blank canvas.
I am beautiful, because I said so.
I have no ontology.
I am a constant learning experiment.
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Tomorrow I will look back on today’s ignorance, and laugh.
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I’m in love with the written word. Skimming it, embracing it, breathing it, charting it. Every stroke of the pen marks complete assimilation into every single sense imaginable. I’m just as passionate about body modification; you can’t free your mind until you limit your body. Give me 10 shots of pure espresso in place of a good nights sleep any day. I hate the thought of missing one moment to a bodily urge. I don’t know who I am, I’m not sure if I’m actually a real person, I could be a figment of your imagination for all I know. I’m a different every two second, therefore nothing I could every write about myself would do me justice for longer than you could read it. As children we have a sense of self, as students we become sheep and as adults we become useless. I am indecisiveness.

My Interests



I'd like to meet:

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"Reason promised a host of good that the body could not hope to provide. Bodies lived, grew old, withered; reason worked according to universal laws of logic and produced timeless truths. Bodies distinguished individuals from one another; reason was the common denominator. Bodies were subject to desire, emotions, and drives that were appallingly outside the subject's control; rational thought was a careful, self-consious process that the subject could undertake in a context of choice and autonomy...In so far as human beings remained susceptible to bodily dynamics, they were still mired in the realm of the animal, the instinctual, the unfree." - Ann Cahill
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Music:

Music is Expression. Expression Is Art. Art Is Beauty. Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Beholder. So Like What You Like And Dont Let Anyone Tell You What The Fuck You Should Listen To.

Heroes:

"You tease. You can't just lick something and not do anything about it."-DanieCalifornia
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"You tought me to be strong, but I'm confused to see you so weak. You said never to give up, and it hurts to see you welcome defeat. When your hero falls so do the stars, and so does the perception of tomarrow. Without my hero there is only me alone to deal with my sorrow"

My Blog

sleep depravation

I am a seed. Once born a bulb, turned into a tulip. Ode of regression! Fare thee well sweet sultry authors of the sirens. Fare thee well! Your sweet symphonies lure me no more, to a dance of soft suck...
Posted by Carla on Wed, 30 May 2007 02:18:00 PST

second hand spirituality

My spirituality comes from nothing but second hand knowledge. A million times removed from anything authentic. Thisisthe21stcentury, where meaning is sacrificed for rhyme & depth for beauty. ...
Posted by Carla on Wed, 30 May 2007 12:35:00 PST

absent

Rid yourself of every complexity and be free.It isn't so much of running from your problems as it is refusing them access to you.Simplification. Breath in. And out.Can't you feel the joys of an e...
Posted by Carla on Sun, 06 May 2007 10:42:00 PST

I am I am I am

"There is something demoralizing about watching two people get more and more crazy about each other, especially when you are the only extra person in the room. It's like watching Paris from an express...
Posted by Carla on Tue, 20 Mar 2007 10:05:00 PST

Stopping in traffic.

Black laced boots blended into its gravel surroundings. The melted stone path smelt of fresh spring metropolitan air. Everything smelt of freshness. No object held its own aroma, its own essence;...
Posted by Carla on Mon, 12 Mar 2007 11:41:00 PST

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Life under the bell jar is strange. The air as stale as the ideas. Every action a cliché of a different demographic. Every thought you have to break free has already been thought of, every emotion alr...
Posted by Carla on Fri, 09 Mar 2007 09:58:00 PST

Brandy Alexander

I like happy endings.And convictions.I think I'll manifest some. Oh mister Thomas More, I will mirror you.
Posted by Carla on Sat, 03 Mar 2007 04:17:00 PST

Devotions upon Emergent Occasions

John DonneMeditation 17  "No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main. If a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if ...
Posted by Carla on Thu, 22 Feb 2007 02:24:00 PST

hah

Your body has abandoned you in anticipation. The middle ground falls without it's concrete base and soon after you're left floating in abstract. Enjoy this out of body experience Aquarius. You're unto...
Posted by Carla on Sun, 18 Feb 2007 04:27:00 PST