I am interested in world/electronic music and the physical conditioning of my body through the many disciplined conduits of fitness available to us. I am a firm believer in having to work for a long, healthy and loving life in order to spend quality time with those that realy matter in my life!Let's face it, when you reach your mid life's span, we know that "LIFE" only get Better!
Leslie Flynt (the physical medium!); Lisa Gerard from DEAD CAN DANCE ; and my Creator!..O.K many are asking and leaving me emails about these videos I have posted for people to see. I know I put them up because I love this group so much (dead can dance). These videos / songs remind me of a specific time in my life , when I thought God punished me for all the bad I had comitted throughout my life. I always thought that God punished those for the sins they commited here on earth. I thought God specifically punished me by taking George away from me on that day of June 2, 2001. But through Dead can Dance's music, I found the answer to my question, "Why did you punish me God?" The anwer was always in my soul , I just had to tap into it! God never punished me, he never left my side and most importantly, never judged me for my imbecilic omissions. I discovered that "I" judged my self and "I" was the only one who could forgive myself for my erratic actions!God was only there to show me the door but I had to open it with my own free will. God was always at my side to see me get through this difficult event, and to influence me spiritually if I would ask for his guidance. The way I see it now, is that God took me to the middle of deapest ocean, knowing that is my biggest abhorrence and pulled me bottomward to see how much of George's love I would keep selfishly to my self. I could not hang on to George any longer as I was being gravitated down with such briskfulness!I could not breath and I could not gawk at the light any longer! I was now lost and dismayed in my own developed darkness! I did not want to let go of George's love! It was mine , all mine!....I had to stop and realize that "I" could never give him a quality of life if he stood here with me. I had to see it with my heart and soul that George had to go back HOME! I had to STOP being narcissistic with my borrowed love and give him back to GOD!! I was brazenfaced in my developed darkness because I knew I had to let go of his hand if I truelly loved him.. I could not breath clearly anylonger, I needed fresh air for life! I felt doleful towards him because I just could not bare his afflictions a minute longer! Once I felt the virility and audaciousness of God come over me, I humdrumly let go of his hand... I saw his sick physical cacoon fade into his created or self developed darkness, and then I SAW THE TRUE HIM, HIS ENERGY, HIS SOUL burst out for a long breath of air! He touched my face as he was slowly being drawn-up to sea leval. He gazed down at me with a smile that told me a thousand thoughts with the meaning "I love you for eternity!" But I felt a dominant thought omit from him saying to me, "Thank you my love, for all you did for me, especialy during these 8 months of hell. Remember that I will always be your rock, my big Superman!" I saw his light for a few minutes as I floated motionless in the dark deap sea. He faded away slowly as he got higher and higher... I was now alone in the dark sea and I knew that I had to find some courage in my soul to come back to sea leval and get some air in my lungs from my gray and hopeless skies. I had to fill up my lungs with life again, but this time I would get no physical help from George. I was now alone in this world! As my seasons of bereavement passed slowly, I learned to tap into my soul for comfort and for visions of hope. I also learned to listen to Dead can Dance with my heart and soul, or like some of us call it "in a medatative state." The sound they created touched me spiritually and because of that I would see LIFE with expectations of hope and courage. I know now that my thoughts are intangible energies that create a reality in this world I and others live in. And in do so, I am able to create my life's happiness and my momments of sadness in hopes of learning from them! Our thoughts are powerful energies that can make one self or others mental world a physical reality. Believe it or not, thoughts are much more powerful than the words that come out of ones mouth- either if they are good or bad. I know now that I think of others before myself but know that I must love myself first in order to know how to love others correctly. I am "A Soul" having a human experience.I am here to learn about life to its fullest! So this is who I am, who Ive always been and who I see to continue being for eternities to come- It sounds so degenerated but all I neaded (at some points it angers me; but who would not be ?) was someones death and someones music to help me cross over to the other side of the bridge in order to re-discover and re-feal that I HAVE "FOREVER" BEEN THIS WAY. I just neaded an impact, a spiritual awakening of some sort , or a dificult lesson in Life to remind me of my great assets of being this old soul having a present human experience, or for the record, many life experiences. So to conclude this, Dead can Dance's music saved me and reminded me to see life from different angles! I ceased being bias and seeing life as a one way path to "somewhere." Through out time, I have been in and shown many conduits to choose from in order to live a good ethical life . I see now that I am in those different conduits of life till I learn the lessons they offer me and till the day I leave earth. I am here to make mistakes and Learn so many valuable lessons of life....If you realy look at this, that's why you and I are here ,that simple ... So if you feal down and can't see the Light of Hope from where you are at, then see and hear these music videos of Dead can Dance with your psyche or soul, and I promise you, that at the end, the light will always finds you, it always does! Take care my friends!!!.. width="425" height="350" .... width="425" height="350" .... width="425" height="350" ..
Well everybody knows about MUSIC & ME- it's not a secret. But I do listen to such bands like Depechemode, The Cure, The Crystal Method, The Chemical Brothers, and my all time favorite "goth" group in the world would have to be Dead Can Dance (there sound inspired me to stay here on earth and understand that death is only an illusion-I will see you again George Rada! I promise .... width="425" height="350" ..
Underworld, Blade, Star Wars, When Dreams May Come, Dragon Fly, Batman, Ultra Violet.Realy anything in the genre of SCI-FI or movies that deal with new age.
I realy don't look at T.V. I spend many hours in my recording studio, and at the gym.
Walking in the Garden of The Souls- by George Anderson; Signals- by Rothschild; The After Life Experiments- by Dr. GAry Schwart; realy any books on NEW AGE or the survival of the concsiousness. ( Man I should not be reading these books , I am Catholic: will I burn in hell Ms. Murphy??? )
George Rada, Warren Hernandez, my mother Yolanda, my father Alberto, Mina Rada, Francisco Rada,My aunt Rosa Fuentes, Batman, Trinity, Celine, Morpheouse, Wonder Woman (Oh yes even women)!Electra Woman & Dyna girl (OH please, hell no)!