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"Because we don't know when we will die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well. And yet everything happens only a certain number of times, and a very small number really. How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, an afternoon that is so deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps four, or five times more? Perhaps not even that. How many more times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps twenty. And yet it all seems limitless..."I never believed that I would find someone that I could grow to love and care for and at the same exact moment tolorate. I believed that love is just a lie, that in the end it's a controlled and estimated delusion. That from experience I knew that love was something way too close to insanity and that in the end that own insanity took everything you cared for and everything in your own being from yourself....I believed that love took your life from you only then to proceed to destroy it. Because love in its own right can be catastrophic and complicated. I believed all those things and told myself that I had endured enough heartache to last a lifetime, but I was wrong. I fell in love...once more,but I was cautious, too carefull and untrusting. I didn't believe that what he made me feel was in fact real, I told myself over and over and over again that this was like everyother highschool romance...fake...a trivial and unimportant event in life that could one day be disgarded and disreegarded with ease, yet unknowingly he slowly corroded that barrier I had built for myself, my little cage that kept me far away from the world. So painfully slowly he let me see what life could be if I let myself trust someone again. He made me feel safe, and though what we share is far from what a storybook romance should be, it's exactly what I needed. It's real. And Real love, not perfect, or foolish, or childish, but real love, is eternal. Real love is...forever.I saw God the other day, by the river on a rainy afternoon. He helped a kitten that was left all alone. It's a God that only I can see. A black winged angel that came down from the heavens just for me.I know it hurts but shut the fuck up flowers layout powered by HOT FreeLayouts.com / MyHotComments

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"When a good person dies, there should be an impact on the world. Somebody should notice. Somebody should be upset."There are worse things in the world than death...dying alone....being alone

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Micheal Jackson

Its a sad day today, the king of pop has passed away.  As a man of great and many of contreversies and one of the most talented men that has ever lived he will be greatly missed.  He was one of my per...
Posted by on Thu, 25 Jun 2009 15:46:00 GMT

Just a lil rant....

Im the type of girl who will fuck you up if you mess with my friendsthe type to bitch you out because your a fucking idiot and make you look like a bigger dumbass in the processthe kind of chick who c...
Posted by on Mon, 22 Jun 2009 15:06:00 GMT

RANDOM SURVEY LOL read my inner most thoughts and desires

..Random Myspace SurveyCreated by viva1vida and taken 35 times on BzoinkWhy does the color blue mean raspberry-flavored?: Becauase ...its the blue is considered to be a pleasing sight..yup You're in t...
Posted by on Thu, 11 Jun 2009 23:03:00 GMT

Dance with me and fall asleep....Always and Never

I have to prove to myself that theres a world out therethat even when i fall down...hard...ive got to be the one to get upI have to find what It is I really want and take itand not be afraid that its ...
Posted by on Tue, 09 Jun 2009 23:53:00 GMT

Wuthering Heights

"You said I killed you - haunt me, then! The murdered do haunt their murderers, I believe. I know that ghosts have wandered on earth. Be with me always - take any form - drive me mad! only do not leav...
Posted by on Fri, 01 May 2009 16:14:00 GMT

So dance fucker dance

Like the sad tightning grip on my heartthe so little air in my lungs starts to let loosehide my face in shame of things I'll never tellof the things in life I can't excuse But you know you just wake u...
Posted by on Sun, 22 Mar 2009 18:54:00 GMT

Days of Mourning By DTN

Trying to find a little solace in me, through these days of mourning,I guess, I'm stronger and weaker than I thought to be, and yet I find no peace here...Until I see you again, in the realm of the de...
Posted by on Thu, 05 Feb 2009 16:58:00 GMT

Read These

Books You Fuckers Should ReadSword of Truth series by Terry GoodkindCirque Du Freak Series By Darren ShanA Series of Unfortunate Events By Lemony SnicketHarry Potter Series By J.K RowlingBlood and Cho...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Aug 2008 04:26:00 GMT

The Rain Falls Heavy Tonight

i promised id give u the world well i lied its been along time since you stopped being an angel i dont even remeber when ur wings lost flight but they did and thats the story I never meant to hurt y...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Aug 2008 03:53:00 GMT

It Makes Me Smile...It Makes Me Happy: A Look Into The Life Of a Deranged Outcast.

"Sitting here makes me feel at peace and im not exactly sure why ....cars pass by and the sun sets but i cant understand why it stills the beating of my heart..it brings me forighn memories...of some...
Posted by on Tue, 12 Aug 2008 03:39:00 GMT