"the songs are running out of things to say."..Elliott Smith "Christian Brothers" 2-5-98
Playing music, going to shows, drinking, smoking ciggerettes, loving people, being my crazy self, photography, art, painting, meditaion, yoga, reading, watching good movies. making mad money
a girl named hope
Pixies, American Steel, communique, Bear vs shark, Blonde redhead, engine down, Black cat music, cursive, good life, bright eyes, the faint, broadways, dillinger escape plan, dillinger four, GG allin, hot water music, modest mouse, Mr. bungle, muse, radiohead, murder city devils, no use for a name, saetia, suicide machines, The fall of troy, the ghost, lawrence arms, circa survive, engine down, weezer, breeders, jedi five, nirvana, Pretty girls make graves, park, hot fought cold, existi, angie tanlines, its the spies, crystal skulls, piano drag, victory at sea, resist the embrace, fatal pudding, rancid, nofx, the clash, the jam, violent femmes, dead milk men, frank black, off minor, hot cross, atmosphere, josh martinez, sage francis, aesop rock, anticon, antipop consortium, Eyedea and abilities, buck 65, busdriver, yesterdays new quintet, illogic etc....
Fight club, waking life, Garden state, what the bleep do we know, life aquatic, team america world police, eternal sunshine for a spotless mind, adaption, human nature, being john malcavitch, Brazil, reqieum for a dream, pi., V for vendetta, sin city,
ALDOUS HUXLEY July 26, 1894 - November 22, 1963with profound admiration and gratitude."If you started in the wrong way," I said in answer to the investigator's questions, "everything that happened would be a proof of the conspiracy against you. It would all be self-validating. You couldn't draw a breath without knowing it was part of the plot." "So you think you know where madness lies?"My answer was a convinced and heartfelt, "Yes.""And you couldn't control it?""No I couldn't control it. If one began with fear and hate as the major premise, one would have to go on the conclusion.""Would you be able," my wife asked, " to fix your attention on what The Tibetan Book of the Dead calls the Clear Light?"I was doubtful."Would it keep the evil away, if you could hold it? Or would you not be able to hold it?"I considered the question for some time. "Perhaps," I answered at last, "perhaps I could - but only if there were somebody there to tell me about the Clear Light. One couldn't do it by oneself. That's the point, I suppose, of the Tibetan ritual - somebody sitting there all the time and telling you what's what."
hot water music,(Bukouski)a scanner darkly (Phillip K. dick)Fight club, choke, lullabye,(chuck P) Three pillars of zen by Phillip Kapleau, The power of now by Eckhart tolle, autobiography of a yogi, Alice in wonderland, The catcher in the rye, Go ask alice, I AM THAT sri nisargattata maharja. The teachings of don juan, a seprate reality, The tibetan book of the dead (Psycedelic expierience) , a wrinkle in time. doors of perception, brave new world, heaven and hell, (aldus huxley)
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