About Me
I'm about to loose my mind, and I think I like it
I'm Henrieke Thiessen-Freeman (Pronounced: Hen-ree-ca, tee-son).
I'm half German.. That explains my name.
Henri or Henrieke. Either or.
Disintegrating
Keep it short. Keep it simple:
Like: vodka, my girls, brothers, guys, SUN, being cold, alcohol mixes, laughing, reading, watching movies, parties, the excitement of turning 18 and money
Dislike: RAIN, bus journeys, no money, no alcohol, being cold, missing you, not seeing toby, not seeing certain friends as much as I want, friends being hurt, being lied to and being confused.
There, I'm quite happy ok.
A free lesson on growing up: make the best of their worst
and never compromise what you feel is right
I make a point to be powerful when I speak
to be the one to give them nightmares when they sleep
Never back down from anyone
I don't think you quite understand how much I miss you.
Vodka....
London+dad+shopping=perfect
Summer+drinking+friends=perfect
September=shit
MY FRIENDS COME FIRST, THAT'S THE BOTTOM LINE!
MY FRIENDS COME FIRST, THAT'S THE BOTTOM LINE!
MY FRIENDS COME FIRST, THAT'S THE BOTTOM LINE!
MY FRIENDS COME FIRST, THAT'S THE BOTTOM LINE!
Here's to the future, never getting older
When the tables do turn where will you be?
PICK UP YOUR FEET!
Just for once, just once I want to do something right though.
I've got some problems
but we've got ten dollars
that's enough to get us wasted
before the night is over
Today (8-2-07) when walking past a group of chavs I heard them say ''she'd be hot if she wasn't an emo''. I do love people like that. And a drunk scottish man had a conversation with me. I attract the strangest people.
(11-2-07) I had a series of dreams last night that went from events in my childhood up until now. It seemed so realistic. I wish I'd done so many things differently. You don't quite appreciate what you have until you've lost it.
(14-2-07)I really wish I was in london right now. I think too much.
(17-2-07)Last night/this morning was perfect. Changed my opinions about quite a few people.
(21-2-07) Fabulous few days in Exeter :] and I got my GIAN ticket sorted!
(22-2-07)My so called best friend has just informed me that I am a 'shit best friend'. I do love my emohead! ahaha
(24-2-07)Ergh. The last few days have been amazing but now it feels like I've gone straight back to how I was before. It makes me feel physically sick. I wish the summer would hurry up so I can go to London, in the meantime I'd like to spend more time in Exeter so if you can accommodate me once in a while that would be perfect.
(25-2-07)The black dogs have come again.
(27-2-07)I lost the bet :] nvm. I still hate this place and I still wish Everything was different..
(9-3-07)I'm pretty happy about the fact I know what I'm doing for my photography project. And I like how I came into college today in the shittest mood yet my emohead still managed to make me laugh lots.
(12-3-07)Some people are making me smile so much right now. This happened at work tonight:
so a lady I work with told me that a guy that normally comes in and talks rubbish was asking 'where that nice young lady is this week?'. make a note he's slightly odd in the head but it was still nice
then the blusher lady that comes in came to speak to me with her husband and they were both saying they missed me last week and it was nice to see my face again and that my 'make up was looking particulary nice this evening'.
theeeeen another guy thats a bit wierd in the head came to speak to me to say he missed me and then asked if working there was going to be my career..to which i replied no, obviously. and he started talking about how in 2012 i might have a really good job and be earning loads of money. so i agreed and said hopefully. he then went on to say that 'you never know you might even be married by then with a kid on the way. or maybe even already have popped one and be trying for another'' which was indeed a wierd thing to say but bless him coz he isn't all there anyway. so that conversation continued on for abit until he was the one to suggest a just marry a rich man. which considering i normally say i want to do that anyway, was quite wierd and made me laugh lots.
(13-3-07)Some friend of the family has made me laugh loads today. Tonight at work was hellova funny too. And trystan made me laugh by saying this 'his foreplay with you would be hitting keyboard buttons really hard hahaha!!' If only you knew who we were talking about ;)
(16-3-07) I can't wait to start putting my folders and stuff together for this project. Lauren was a wonderful model :]
(18-3-07)''I'm upstairs cooking you..you foetus!''
(20-3-07)20 Mar 2007 19:05
haha my friends exact words
"thats that well scary girl from college"!!
ahahaha I love college
Quote Bradley "You dont need to do the sugar, you're sweet enough"
ahahahahaa
(21-3-07) I've read it so many times. Same effect each time yet I still won't delete it :[
(22-3-07) Perfect timing. Toby came home today. Makes me laugh
(23-3-07) I really miss my cousins and Omi. Give me money so I can go see them?
(26-3-07)Get to college in an amazing mood, stay happy all day. Come home and feel like shit. I wish that wouldn't happen.
(27-3-07) "You're a gem. Even if no one else ever tells you that"
A dear old lady said that to me at work tonight.
(30-3-07) Today made me realise something I've been trying to realise for a long time. It's time to move on and grow up I think :]
(31-3-07)Enter Shikari was amazing. I had the best night. Thanks to gaby, charlotte and phillip for making me feel safe. And grating my finger with a cheese grater whilst trying to make pasta..
(11-4-07)Last night was perfect. Got my Jenna back. Ranting with Chlo about our drink, hiding my vodka under a cone and then running back to drink it with Jenna, dancing with Ceri, loosing my shoes, getting Wiggly to buy doubles and discussing how we always aim to pass out, meeting new people, seeing old friends, chips chips chips, phonecalls, trying my hardest to convince Toby I was sober and failing miserably. Good night in all :]
(15-4-07)I've had the same guy in my dreams for 3nights now. I never see his face but I know it's the same person in each dream. It's really weird.
(20-4-07)First day back at college in agessss. Was alright actually. Lecturers didn't make us do anything and best of all I got to laze around on the grass with the girls and look up more crap things on urban dictionary with Amy and Jenna. Happy lass today :]
(24-4-07)Today my cat woke me up by killing a baby rabbit at the end of my bed. He's sucha prick. Other than that though I'm so stupidly happy. I just don't want this to go.
(30-4-07)Been in London since thursday and got back today. It was so good, actually the best weekend ever. Loads of shopping and photos and drinks and shoessssss and GIAN and yeh so much more. I loved it and I love my friends. Can't wait to go back again.
(3-5-07)Everything is fine. Everything is perfect and I really couldn't be happier. Life for once is going ok and I'm happy where I am. I don't really want much else other than for my neighbor to leave us alone. Anything else now will just be a plus.
(5-5-07)I was so wrapped up in being happy that I failed to notice that some people closest to me were going through such a shit time.
I feel sick.
(13-5-07)Been a moody prick the last 2days so I cleaned my room. Found £38 in change and now I'm going to take money out the bank and buy some exercise stuff to put in there :]
(14-5-07)Today Trystan tried teaching me what a teahupo was. He also, according to his photos, lives in a house in the clouds. I'm actually an idiot. Him and Dan ruin my life on a daily basis.
(21-5-07)I finally got my prints done today. That's about the only good thing really. Went to work and discussed with a friend there why beer isn't nice. Came home and found out Toby won't be home for summer. I can't explain how shit I feel now. Today really was a crap day. Horoscopes right again int it
Monday, 21 May, 2007
You are now moving into a more reclusive phase, perhaps using this time to rejuvenate your spirit and feed your imagination what it has been craving. Even if you aren't able to escape from your real world responsibilities, make a plan to give yourself the quiet time that you need. You might have to apply yourself even harder to get your work finished, but don't use your busyness as an excuse not to take care of yourself.
(25-5-07)Haha sucha good day in college. No lectures and drinking vodka mixs with natalie and jenna till we met dom and jacob in college and got some more to drink. Came home and fell asleep :]
(27-5-07)Kick in the teeth eh. Friday, just hurry up.
(1-6-07)I bought lots of pointless stuff today and got told by a fat asda worker that I use to be 'a plump girl' and that I've 'slimed down alot'. Bitch!
But toby's home now for a day. We went for our last drive in his old car and talked about anything and everything. It was sweet :]
(3-2-07)Truro yesterday with Natalie was lovely. Had to say goodbye to Toby before I left, wont see him for another 3months now :[! But he hugged me. Then had far too much to drink in the night at Charlottes. Behaved like a prick. I'd like to say I never want to drink again.. but that would be stupid.
(4-6-07)eventful night. I swear we've never had so much bad luck at work
1st-girl comes in and tells us theres a fire in the bottom car park. go down and look. someone had lined some trolleys up next to a wooden fence(which was next to houses) and they had set it all on fire. not a clue who did it. anyway, fire got put out and we went back inside
2nd-going to stand ontop of my stool and somehow misplaced my foot and got my leg stuck in the stool. sounds really retarded but yeh. i fell down and now my left leg hurts like mad
3rd-seconds after falling off the stool we hear a huge crash. obviously the drinks. go look. a whole top shelf of beer and cider had collapsed. cleaned that up for ages. the store stank eveywhere of alcohol
4th-go outside to check no more fires were being made. some kids were hanging around being pricks so guy told them to go and they got shitty.
(9-6-07)last night.. haha
train to par
wait for next train and thomas whilst chavs scare me with their scary music haha
he arrives with a bottle of vodka/tizer
drink that on the train
get to newquay and have no idea where to go
go up and down the same street a million times till we met chlo
scott turns up from nowhere
sit on a bench drinking vodka mixes and lambrinni
some other guys come.
go to nato
dont remember anything inside there
offered a lift home?!
not a clue who he was, get in the car anyway. some other
guy i use to know was there.
more blank spots
had to keep stopping so i could be sick out the car
they shoved a lot of food in my mouth.
get to my house and niks in the driveway?!
gets me out the car. apparently i fell asleep on the road but he eventually woke me
get me inside
crumpled up on the kitchen floor laughing like an idiot
mums comes up and laughs at me. puts food next to my face and they leave me to it
more sick
and then im in my bed
and today ive had 2litres of smoothie. haha niceeeee
good night
now for a lazy day in the sun :]
(14-6-07)There’s a lot I want but I know I’ll never have.
At some point in my life I’ve had it all and made my mistakes to loose it all.
Now I’m just not going to try anymore. I figure if you really want something then eventually life itself will decide whether you get it or not. Not you. It’s not your choice.
And at the end of the day, who cares.
(21-6-07)Toby came home yesterday with Naomi. Was really good to see them :] He might even make it down for my birthday now. yayayay
(22-6-07)Went shopping with mother and Nik. Was actually really nice. They bought me birthday presents and I bought myself some dvds, books and new underwear :] I'm so happy!
(24-6-07)Natalies last night= Vodka, white rum and coke, red wine, lambrinni and gin. Spillage of wine on cream carpet. salt. Broken glass. Long conversations on the stairs. Phonecalls. Dancing. umbrella.. ella ella eh eh eh!!! Photos. Fruit! haha. Dreaming about cliff richard and chris tarant.. obviously alcohol gives me wierd old man dreams ;) Basically a perfect night with the girls all in one place for once. I love them :]
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