Mother of an ANGEL...

Hello, My name is Valarie Rodrigues. I am 23 years old and Live and grew up in San Bernardino. I have already began my career as an Assistant Manager of a Wal Mart store. I love my job and am very good at it, It's not as easy as it sounds which is why I take great PRIDE and consider that part of my life an accomplishment. I WAS expecting my first son on September 12 of this year. Unfortunatly god had another plan for him and took him home on Saturday June 30, 2007. I was already very close to 8 months pregnant, so I had to give birth to him naturally. I even got to hold him in my arms before we sent him home. I couldn't be anything but sad cause he looked so peaceful, I couldn't be mad at god or anyone else cause I feel there is a reason for everything. I don't know what went wrong or when it went wrong but it's a waste of time trying to figure it out because what's done is done, even if I did know what I could have done different...It's not gonna bring my baby home to me now... NOW...my baby is waiting for his mommy to come home to him. But until then I've hired the good lord as my babysitter and trust that my son is taken care of. I don't think this is something I will ever GET OVER. I thought the heartache from a break up was the worst feeling ever but MAN WAS I SO WRONG! For anyone who knows me now or knew me then, probably wont see much of the old Valarie again but in a positive way. I am still a mother, after all I GAVE BIRTH TO MY CHILD... I carried him in my tummy almost full term...SO I need to grow up now and be ready for motherhood whenever god decides to bless me with another child but PROMISE TO MY SON JEREMIAH ANDREW TORRES that Mommy and Daddy will always call you OUR SON and keep you n our hearts 4ever. June 30th of every year will not be the day I grieve your death but the Day I CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTH!!!!I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU ALREADY EVERY SECOND... THANK YOU FOR HANGING IN THERE LONG ENOUGH TO GROW YOUR FEATURES, SO MOMMY COULD SEE WHAT BEAUTY SHE CREATED AND BE ABLE TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS AND SAY GOODBYE!!!!!!!